Last night I had a dream. In it, I was swimming in a large, indoor, in-ground swimming pool with a female friend of mine, and strangely, we were both completely naked (and unembarrassed, which is so unlike me. Even at my thinnest/youngest, I was very self conscious about my body). There were other people, too, standing and walking all around the pool having a party... but they were all fully dressed. My friend and I were in the water swimming around, with one small problem: the pool had not been filled enough. In fact it was so shallow that when we were prone on our bellies, the water in the deep end barely covered my body... just barely... and did not cover hers. I was thin in the dream... not "skinny" thin, but about the weight I was as a teen and young adult (140) which was beautiful and lightly curvy. My friend was obese, and her bottom stuck up way above the water as we swam. Her husband was in the crowd of people at the party. And while I was fully comfortable with my body and not at all embarrassed to be swimming naked in front of all those people, I wondered if her husband was looking at me, and not her. In fact, I think he was.
So many messages from the subconscious. What do you think this is telling me?
Back later today with another post.
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