Sunday, February 6, 2011

Rehab Results, week 1

I worked hard this week to stay on plan. I'd decided last week that enough is enough, I have GOT to quit indulging myself in little bits here and there (and BIG bits on occasion) because my goal here is NOT to maintain my loss, but to lose more weight. Nothing wrong with maintaining, or staying at a particular weight for awhile while you get used to it or whatever, but hey, I was this weight in October. Winter is tough, but it's time to move on and quit screwing around.

There were some times this week when I really, *really* wanted junk. Last night was tough. I was pacing around and ALL I could think about were chips. I get sort of obsessed or hyper-focused on particular foods sometimes where they dance around in my brain constantly. The chips thing has been going on for awhile. Over the course of January, I bought and consumed three bags of Kettle chips (shared with kids but mostly eaten by me). And you know what? Eating them those 3 separate times did NOT cure my obsession. It fueled it. I wanted them more. I still want them. But I know if I bought a bag and ate them all today, I would be putting that very last chip in my mouth and immediately want another bag. It's a never-ending want that cannot be satisfied, and if I ate 20 bags of Kettle chips this weekend, I might not want any tomorrow but I would want them again in a few days. Since it's an itch that can't be scratched, I think I just need to learn to ignore it.

So last night I was hungry, I wanted chips, I wanted junk. But I did NOT want to give in, I really didn't. Every little "give-in" weakens you to the next one. It reinforces behavior that leads to weight gain. But my gosh, I thought I'd lose it. I wondered what I *could* have that would be okay. I decided on a Kraft 2% cheese single slice as a snack, and I topped my Medifast brownie with cream cheese (an allowed healthy fat). And I went to bed early.

This morning the scale says 180. That's five pounds gone this week. Now I just have 6 pounds to go to get to a new low of 174. I figure if I keep doing what I'm doing, I should be there in about 2 weeks.


*FTC-required disclosure: Medifast provided me with its products for my personal use for free. I am not paid or compensated in any other way for mentioning their products. Medifast states an "average weight loss of up to 2 to 5 pounds a week."*

26 comments:

Anonymous said...

Congratulations on your success!

Losing 100 said...

Yeah! I am doing the happy dance for you. Great job!

Ali said...

Congratulations, 5lbs is a lot to lose in a week when you've already come so far and are nearing the end of weight loss!

Leslie said...

Fantastic! You're doing it Lyn. So happy for you.

Devon said...

"if I ate 20 bags of Kettle chips this weekend, I might not want any tomorrow but I would want them again in a few days. Since it's an itch that can't be scratched, I think I just need to learn to ignore it."

Thisthisthisthis!! This is where I am at at the moment...for me it is learning it's not the food I want--I mean, yes, I want it, but eighteen candy bars are not going to cure the underlying emotional issues for me. It's hard, but I'm learning.

Keep goin!

Ex Yo-Yo Dieter Debbie said...

Interesting (and very true!) observation about feeding junk food cravings...sometimes you think having the thing you're craving will fix the problem, but then you want more. Much more.

That's the problem with junk food...it can do some wacky things. Funny how the vast majority of people don't get crazy cravings for more and more when they're eating regular food....it's the crazy combination of fat/salt/sugar that messes us up.

Congrats on your 5 lb loss - and more importantly, clawing your way back onto your path.

There's much to be said for "rehab"!

Anonymous said...

Congratulations!!! I get those same obessive thoughts. I wonder if it is a brain disorder or a real physical difference in people with food issues. I would bet that it is -- maybe something similar to OCD. I don't know but I understand how hard it is to not give into the voices. Good Job!!! Obviously, IT WORKS!!! Amy

Claudia said...

Another motivating post, Lyn!

WOW! 5lbs in one week! That's INCREDIBLE!!

I'm so excited to see how much more you have to report next week :-D

Kari said...

"Every little "give-in" weakens you to the next one"

Wow, that's pretty profound. I'll be thinking a lot about that this week. Keep up the good work! I've read your blog all the way through and after all you've accomplished you can definitely do this.

Keen Sportswoman said...

The way you describe your food thoughts sound exactly like my OCD/anxiety symptoms. My obsessive thoughts have been relieved a LOT with medication and cognitive therapy. Just a thought! Sorry about the internet ass-vice. :)

Andra said...

Congratulations! Saying "NO" really works, with practice it become easier.

I've been on a "no chocolate, no wine" goal since the new year started. No is the word until Oscar Night when I'm visiting my sister. We'll celebrate with some Champagne and a nice dessert when we get together and it will be all the more special. We'll also spend some time at Zumba class and walking the beach together!

It's not nearly as hard as I thought it would be. There are all kinds of leftover Christmas treats (brownies, truffles, fruitcake, you name it) stored away on high shelves and in the freezer and the wine rack is always full but no means no and I've not given in.

Lily Fluffbottom said...

I would wonder what else is going on in your head or around you when you have those really specific cravings. Are you looking to feel a certain way? Could it be replaced by something else?

Awesome job saying no to the chips! I'm not a big chip fan, but occasionally, they are exactly the same as meth to me. (Not that I've tried meth, of course. That would be dangerous. So is eating chips.)

Lisa said...

good job!!!!

Diandra said...

Well done!

Anonymous said...

Lyn, I've been following your blog for about 1.5 years now, never commented. I just wanted to say: I truly hope you will get there this time, you are an inspiration to us all.

Need to Get ME Back said...

If you are craving chips, you should check out the lavash chips recipe from Hungry Girl! Congrats on a great loss!

Girl Gone Clean said...

I totally understand, Lyn....

I've been reading the literature from Overeaters Anonymous and one of their sayings really hit home:

ONE BITE IS TOO MANY AND A THOUSAND ISN'T ENOUGH.....

this statement is soooooo true for me for my *trigger foods* - and it helps describe the insanity a bit!

Ginger Farnsworth said...

Lyn - I have been following your blog for about a year now and think you have done some amazing work. I find your journey incredibly inspiring.

Have you read the book "The End of Overeating"? If you haven't I would highly recommend it. You are right when you say that you could eat 20 bags of chips and may not want any more now, but next week you would be craving them again. You would be craving them because they are manufactured in a manner specifically designed to make you crave them. Because of that, they may end up being to you what that first drink ending sobriety is to an alcoholic. You've worked too hard to allow Kettle Chips to get the better of you.

Way to go, for recognizing that you were beginning to slip and taking back the reigns. That is sure sign that continued success will be yours.

Lori said...

Not only do those little indulgences make the next one easier, those hard fought battles that are won make the next victory easier too. Score one for you!

mavz01 said...

Well done, you did really well! Keep going, think about how good you'll feel when you hit your all time low weight! It will all be worth it!

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Hanlie said...

Well done on the loss!

Ellie said...

Wow! Look at the amazing results you have had this week. It seems that your "rehab" is working, maybe you can use your results to motivate you to make "rehab" the norm.

Siobhan said...

Lyn -- definitely on the wanting more even as I finished off a bag. I need to remember that ... that if I really wanted just a cookie, then one cookie would satisfy me. Thanks. :)

Mom to the Fourth Power said...

Way to stick it out Lyn!! Woo Hoo!

It is NOT easy but you are so right that each time you do not give in, it does get easier to resist the next time and make it a habit to resist.

Maybe you could find something to replace that particular craving or thought. I have totally used my knox blox to replace my sweet cravings, although it wasn't easy at first, it has gotten a lot easier. The key for me is to not entertain the idea of eating something off plan. The more I think, consider, imagine, etc. about that food, the more tormenting it is to avoid it for me. So I try to distract myself when the thoughts come in and replace what I'm thinking.

I am anxious to try those zuchini chips posted on Sandy's Kitchen blog: http://lighterrecipes.blogspot.com/2011/01/crispy-zucchini-chips.html

Maybe you've tried them... they look good!

Thanks so much for your comments on my last post! I really appreciated your words of encouragement.

You are doing FABULOUS girl!!

~Margene

The Captain's Daughter said...

First - congratulations on your efforts to rehab your program! You are ah-mazing and I'm so inspired by you (all the time!)

Let me tell you that I have the SAME problem with kettle chips that you do - however, I have found PopChips and they really take away my cravings for kettle chips - and, they are MUCH better for you!

Go to Target and buy a bag - I buy them on-line because Target in my area carries only plain, BBQ and salt and vinegar - I love the sour cream and onion and cheddar - the plain is VERY good and the BBQ is tangy and the best BBQ chip I've ever had - so do try them and let me know what you think! I am so thankful to have PopChips as an alternative - they save me plenty of times!

://: Héni ://: said...

great job on avoiding the chips LOL! I kow I couldnt probably do it! Congrats on your weight loss! You have come far as I back reading your posts!