Monday, February 21, 2011

Good Heavens, I Weigh WHAT?

I am sure some are sick of hearing me whine by now about being sick, but my gosh. I am sick. I think I felt *worse* this morning than I did yesterday, and that's pretty bad. I was very close to vomiting and my head was in so much pain. I had to wait a few hours to take the painkillers because I had to drive the pup to the vet for her shots this morning. But when I got home, I took my medicine and felt much better. As it wears off I feel horrid again. But the doctor seemed to think that within a couple days the pain would be much less.

I saw something pretty shocking on the scale in the Urgent Care last night. I mean really upsetting. I haven't been on the scale this week because I was sick. I weighed 180 a week ago Sunday. Now, given that I always weigh first thing in the morning, after peeing, on an empty stomach, with no clothes on, how much would you think I weighed on the Urgent Care scale, with dinner and a lot of water in my belly, wearing jeans, a shirt, a sweater, and sneakers? I was thinking, give it 5 pounds for shoes and clothes, maybe. And I always weigh about 3 pounds more at night than in the morning (food in belly and water in body). Plus maybe I gained a couple pounds this week, with all the carbs and salt and being sick. Right?

196.6. Yeah, THAT is the shocking number I saw and tried to immediately erase from my memory forever. A number I NEVER thought I'd see again in my life. Now, I have no idea whether that scale weighs me the same as my 2 home scales do, but still. When I saw that I just... well you can imagine. If I wasn't so sick and in pain I think I would have had a fit over that number. In fact I didn't want to mention it here at all. But there it is. I guess without clothes and food and water in me I must be in the high 180's. Sucks.

But I can't deal with the weight right now, not today. I will get to it when I get to it, when I don't feel like crap anymore. I am not eating junk or anything. I am not baking sugary stuff or eating any candy or cookies or chips. I am eating toast and pasta and mashed potatoes and oatmeal with fresh strawberries. No binge eating. Oh, I did have a bowl of Ramen one night, though. That stuff is sooo salty. Yikes.

Well, if the doctor is right, I should be feeling much better by tomorrow or the next day at the latest. He only gave me enough pain meds for that long, and thought I'd be much better by midweek. I hope so. I feel like I am just sitting here, existing...

22 comments:

Big White Granny Panties said...

that can be just so daunting - to feel that you should be some place weight wise and to see the damned scale saying something else. get well soon and you'll be back to 180 before you know it. my DREAM is to be at 180! xoxo

Anonymous said...

Well, all the stuff you mentioned eating (except strawberries) are carbs. They are on my no-no list because they *say* these are the foods that make you fat. And apparently they do. (No judgement). I'm trying to figure this whole weight loss thing out too. If you don't feel like going on Medifast, maybe you can focus on deli meat or eggs when you are feeling hungry and instead of juice eat a whole orange instead or cold grapes. They would probably feel really good on your throat. It really is unfair how long it takes to take it off and how easily it can go back on. Not fair at all. I hope you feel better!

Amy

bbubblyb said...

Hope you get to feeling better Lyn. I'm guessing that scale weighs you quite a bit different than your own. Maybe check on your own scale in the morning to at least ease your mind it isn't that bad.

Karin said...

((((lyn)))) heal up, get refreshed and then attack it...

Joy said...

Lyn, I know that must have been awful to see but we KNOW you didn't eat enough to gain so many lbs in a few days. Weigh yourself in the morning when you feel up it it, and I am sure you'll be relieved when you see whatever number that pops up. Meanwhile, don't worry about water weight right now, you need to stay hydrated!

I will say, as having personal experience with all the injuries I have, be careful with your eating while on pain meds. I think you have read "The End of Overeating" and if you have, you know Dr. Kessler talks about pain meds making you crave bad foods. I know it's hard for me to stay away from bad foods when I have to take pain killers; for whatever reason, they make me want copious amounts of comfort food, lol. Stay strong, Lyn :)

Mich said...

Was it medically necessary for the Urgent Care staff to weigh you in the first place?
You can always decline the weigh-in and save yourself the stress. (Who knows when they last calibrated their scale.) Ask the staff member to provide a medically valid reason why a weigh-in is required; they usually can't.
Personally, I only get on the doctor's scale at the yearly physical.

Sasha said...

You have been such an inspiration to me. I'm written it before. It's so hard to lose 5 pounds.... yet easy to gain 10. So what if the scale went up a couple of pounds as long as you work on it again. Keep up the good work. I recommend South Beach, it's low carb but not as boring, more veggies, less fat. Good luck on your journey, I hope I'll make it as well. You are an amazing woman.

BrendaKaye said...

I am sorry you are feeling so bad. Praying for the medicine to work quickly, and for your strength and health to return soon!

StephanieLosesIt said...

I'm so sorry you're sick. I hope you're better soon.

Nikki said...

I just found your blog lastnight and I must say you are def. an inspiration to me and I will continue to read. I am sorry you are feeling so awful and I know that once you feel better you will get back on track and be dropping lbs. in no time. Thank you for sharing your story inorder to help people like me who could really use some motivation. :)

Anonymous said...

lyn, now you know for a fact that 196 was not your actual weight! You can find comfort in that. Also the scale may not be the same as your scale at home. You would have to consume a tremendous amount of calories to have gained that much, which you did not. I say, with the others..get on the scale Sunday and go with that. My guess is with all the clothing and the time of night and the undigested food and fluids in you at least 10lbs of it was not "real" weight gain. Concentrate on getting better and then get back to work..you look great now and it is not a race so enjoy the journey as you have in the past.. Susan b

Shhhhh.. said...

Thanks for stopping by with some encouragement.

I hope you feel better soon...and, FWIW...THAT number is exactly the same one that stared back at me this morning.

I hope you feel really better really soon!

pamk said...

Lyn, you might be surprised how much all of that clothing weighed! If you get on your own scale first thing in the morning and weigh without clothes, as you usually do, I would be it would be in the mid 180's. I'll be interested to hear what you find out when you can get back to weighing regularly. And a lot of that water retention will drop right off when you get back on plan, too. Unfortunately, when you're sick, you just can't keep on plan, but it will all work itself out in the end!

Diandra said...

Could you replace that mushy carby stuff with "healthie" food, like, maybe, yogurt? That's what I had last weekend, when I was feeling bad and basically wanted to live on pudding and chocolate and crisps (which was my "sick time food" when I was a child).

Hope you will get better soon!

I Will Lay Down My Idols said...

Awww, ((( hugs ))) after feeling so awful you certainly didn't need to see a rotten number on the scale -- KOKO, rest a lot (your body obviously needs it) and keep your chin up. You'll see that great number again soon!
D

Anonymous said...

Mich, you have a good point...why DO the doctor offices sometimes insist on weighing?! Lyn is an adult, and it's obvious she needs the adult dosage of any meds. It only makes sense when children are weighed, because their med dosages are trickier! My doctor weighs me all the time, and I'm in the normal BMI range. One time I remember how ridiculous it was that I was being weighed for an eye infection just two weeks after being there for a visit (I have to go to the doctor every four months because of the bp and cholesterol meds I am on).

Lyn, I second the advice others have given here. Weigh yourself the way you normally do, and I'm sure you will find that the other scale was calibrated wrongly. There is a huge variance between scales, and I'm not at all sure that the digital scales at the doctor offices are any more accurate than the other kind.

Claudia's Plate said...

I remember in my health course they talked about doctors scale....

Don't listen to them. They are usually *wrong* even though you'd think they were more accurate then the rest.

Weigh yourself on your own scale as you normall would, and I will bet the number is lower than the one reading you've got now.

Therea said...

Hope you feel better soon Lyn. Take good care. I wish you peace with your body and the scale. It's so hard to find.
xox
Theresa

Anonymous said...

Lyn
You are such an inspiration to me.
Your honesty is AMAZING and I commend you for that. I KNOW what you are going through this is why I refuse to weigh anywhere but my own scale...Just work on feeling better and the thing that you can be proud of is that even though you are eating off program, you are not binging...be grateful for that
Keep on updating your blog you have been a HUGE help to me and others following your journey
God Bless you and feel better soon
with appreciation
Stacey C

trisha70 said...

I am new to this blogging thing. I found your blog on accident and started reading. I can relate to so many of your post. I have even cried
because I have felt some of the things you have felt. You are an inspiration but you are still a real person. I was also weighed at a doctors office and it was over 10 lbs what my scale said. I wouldn't have been so bothered if it wasn't an all time high weight. Way more than I expected. I was in shock and now that astronomical number is on my chart forever. Hope you feel better soon!

Anonymous said...

What if there were no scales? What if your judgement was based on how you feel, how your clothes fit, and what you see in your daily life rather than a number that only compares your volume to it's affect on gravity?

Erin M said...

Love your blog. Glad I stumbled upon it!