Tuesday, February 8, 2011

About Yesterday, and How I'm Doing

I wanted to address something briefly in regard to yesterday's post, "Stop Tricking Yourself." Apparently, some may have read it as a slam against other bloggers and what they say or don't say on their blogs. That was the farthest thing from what I was suggesting! If you've read here for long, you know I believe in being compassionate and *not* judging other peoples' choices or "calling people out" if you think they are not doing something "right." Frankly, unless it's your spouse or your child or someone you love dearly, their eating is not your business. And even then, we have to be loving even if firm. That's my opinion.

My post was meant to stimulate *self-reflection* (emphasis on SELF) about why we write/don't write/say/don't say the things we do. It has nothing to do with anyone but yourself. Only you can know whether your blog/forum posts are honest, accurate, helpful. And if you want to eat cookies, that's no one's place to decide but yours. I am just sharing what I've learned from 3 1/2 years of weight loss blogging: that it is EASY to trick one's self into believing we are "on plan" when we are not or to slip into "forgetting" mistakes, and it is important to be honest, with *yourself* and, if you choose to make it public, with your readers. Hope that clarifies a bit!

Whenever I have a 'fresh start' of some sort, it is usually a struggle for a while and then there seems to be a time where the switch flips, so to speak, and the struggle dissipates for the most part. When doing any low carb plan, it usually takes me 4 or 5 days to hit that point where I am not constantly FIGHTING myself not to eat junk, cereal, bread, whatever. This time, it took longer. Probably because I have been so wishy-washy with my eating over the past few months. But finally, *finally* yesterday I felt myself slip into that calmer, more steady mode where even if I am tempted, I can handle it. It's not a frantic crazy urge that I feel like I have to straight jacket myself in order to control it. It's more like, "well, that would be good, but I am going to ignore it." And I CAN. This is why I like low carb plans, like South Beach diet and Medifast. Very helpful in the reduction of binge eating behavior for me.

Today feels good, physically. I feel in control of my eating so far. However I have totally screwed up on my exercise. I have not done my PT exercises in 2 weeks (since I was sick) and all I have done is walking the pup a mile here and there. I am annoyed at myself for not staying with the PT like I had planned. Seems like there's not enough time in a day, and when they suggested I was 'done' and didn't need to keep coming in but just do the exercises at home, it went on the back burner. I don't want to lose all the progress I made strengthening my knees and hips. I don't feel terribly motivated to do them, but I think I need to just push myself, rehab-style, to get it done at *least* every other day.

Good day ahead!

17 comments:

Losing 100 said...

Thanks for always keeping it real for us. Great job on dinner. :)

Diandra said...

THere will always be people who are offended by what is written (or said). Most times, it's their subconscious talking. ^^

://: Héni ://: said...

Keeping it real - yes that is what I love about your blog. it's real - not showy showy like some I have read! You are really inspiring for me!

Kissingitgoodbye said...

I hope you are not thinking too much about a couple of sassy negitive comments. It's really hard for some people to hear the not-so-fun side of being impowered (accountability). We've all got the power to make our bodies better, but not being honest with ourselves and making poor results out to be anything but a result of our own actions just fuels our insecurites and feelings of helplessness.

It just doesn't feel nice to admit it when we stumble.

Joy said...

Yikes, I can totally relate on the PT'ing at home. I can remember to exercise all day but PT exercises? I just NEVER remember them! So obviously I am the last person to advise on how to remember them but maybe a big posterboard in the middle of your living room that says, "Do your PT exercise RIGHT NOW!" would help? That's a pretty good idea; I should practice what I preach ;)

~ Darla ~ said...

Glad you are feeling better today. No matter what we post it is not always going to be taken as it is intended. Sometimes people just scan and comment. I've noticed it on my blog too. When I say something like, "I didn't do this..." I get comments saying, Oh, you shouldn't have done that. Hey, I didn't (lol). You have one of the best blogs on Blogger and don't go changing.

You are awesome, real and a great inspiration to me. Love ya.

Ginger Farnsworth said...

Don't ever change what you say or how you say it - honesty is something we don't get very often and I'm glad you give it to us. As for anyone who had a problem with your post...my daddy had a saying..." a hit dog hollers".

Hanlie said...

That post actually hit a nerve with me... I discussed my sneaky eating with my NLP coach today and we continued to dredge up a deep-seated, ancient belief that I am not to be trusted. I don't trust myself and I am always re-enforcing that mindset.

So, I'm sorry if some people were offended, but I found it very helpful!

Anonymous said...

Awwwww, I thought it was a really helpful blog yesterday! I keep an online food journal, and actually it helped me to admit that I had a terrible day today and overate this evening - and I got the support that I wanted, and also the fact that people could point out it wasn't so bad and I shouldn't write the rest of the week off. So yay for you, your blog stuck in my head about 'what's the point of lying to yourself/others about food'?

Andra said...

It was very helpful, I'm sure the only people offended by it are the one whom nerves were hit.

I used to lie to myself about food all the time. My blog is what actually taught me about being honest with myself, about taking responsibility for my actions with food, helped keep me accountable. It worked so well for me and continues to do so to this day.

Kari said...

I can't wait for the "switch to flip" for me. Gotta stay on the wagon long enough to get a good grip I guess.

Dawn said...

Maybe some people did think that..but I bet most didn't. I didn't. I'm new to all this and learning and it made me reflect that this blogging community can only support and encourage each other if we are honest and stick with each other through whatever comes our way - truthfully. I learned a good lesson for the future.
Dawn

Anonymous said...

I am a new reader and what you wrote was right on target for me! There are so many days where I don't record what I eat, don't figure out the calories because I didn't stay on plan. So many days that when I look back at all the goals I have set and journals I have kept they have one common goal: I am always trying to lose weight. I have only achieved that goal 3 times in the past (I'm 46 now)and each time I gain it back, with it comes even more weight. Thanks for reminding me I need to keep it real!

sya said...

I have been reading ur blogs since last month and ur before and after photos keep me motivated and ur blog motivates me to write about my journey towards a healthy lifestyle. TQ

Anne H said...

Love LoCarb..... really helps with the hunger!
Wish more people would try it pat the "craving phase." They, too would be convinced!

Anonymous said...

I love your blog Lynne . You are open and honest and if people take offense and think that you are " picking at them " then they are just not being honest with themselves . i love the inspiration you spread by being honest and never take offense by what you sy .... Why would I when most of the time you are saying exactly how I am thinking !! I am struggling badly with my weight , health problems in our family and find this blog just a ray of light and truth on my day ! keep up the great journling and hope you get back on tack wit the PT on your knees and hips as tat is so improtant !

lynna said...

Exercise had morphed, for me, from something I have to suck it up and do, to something that is the best part of my day and a daily gift I give myself out of love. I wish I knew what changed. If I could explain it and write a "how to" book, I'd be rich, ehh?

One thing I did early on, I talked to my body. Oh yes I did. I sweet-talked my disabled legs. I apologized for not taking care of them. I told them they were beautiful. I rubbed lotion onto them. Funny thing, the more I told them I loved them, and treated them with love, the more I began to actually love them. Now, I love them so much that I WANT to exercise.

Very, very weird, I know! smile