Sunday, January 9, 2011

Back

Ahhh, back to blogging. I missed you :)

I do feel 80% better today. Some things got resolved and I got through those rough few days of sugar withdrawal. I stayed on plan, ate right, felt the feelings. I dug in my heels and said NO to the part of me that wanted to eat junk and use food to "make life better." Instead, I ate my Medifast meals and my home-cooked healthy dinners which actually forced me to take time to "make life better" the right way: by doing something about the problems. Instead of sitting with a bag of cookies and wondering what I could eat next and when I would get back on plan, *in the moment* I chose to eat a bowl of Medifast chicken soup, which then gave me a gap of 2.5 hours until my next planned meal ("time to think" I like to call it, because all that time I used to spend shopping, prepping, imagining, fighting binges, eating crap, and bemoaning my failure is now free and open for productive use). It's a strange feeling, to one who has obsessed about food for ages, to suddenly hear the crickets chirping in one's silent mind as the obsessive voices stop. Then you're forced to actually think about something else besides food and losing weight.

So I got a lot done in those couple of days, I made phone calls and *did things* that made me feel better... things that worked towards the resolution of the stresses, and things that bettered my circumstances. And then I felt better about myself. And I am pretty proud of that.

As for the weigh-in, I am pleased with that, too. The scale this morning says 180 pounds. That's a loss of 6 pounds this week. I worked for it. Soon I will be back to my old low of 175 and then on down the scale, so I can post "110 Pounds Gone" pictures. I love my progress pictures! It makes this journey even more real to me.

The other day I had a re-evaluation at physical therapy. I've been going for about a month now, usually twice a week but during Christmastime only once a week. I do the exercises at home as well 2-3 times a week. And you know what? My knees are SO much more stable! The PT actually moved my knee area around when he did the evaluation to see how solid and stable the muscles are holding the bones in the right place. On the first visit they were very loose and weak, and this week they were much more solid. He noted my increased strength ("much better") and cut my visits back to only once a week. I still need to do the routine at home (bike 5 minutes, then 10-15 reps of 1-2 sets of wall squats, calf raises, 4 different standing leg raises on a weight machine, hamstring curls, bridges, and a bunch of lying/sitting leg raises of various types, as well as standing on one foot on a trampoline for 30 seconds each leg.) Going to physical therapy was an *excellent* decision and I am getting wonderful, life-improving results after just 4 weeks! I thought I was beyond help, but apparently not. I am regaining control of my life.

Take back your power. You can't do everything, but you can do something. We can change our lives.


*FTC-required disclosure: Medifast provided me with its products for my personal use for free. Medifast states an "average weight loss of up to 2 to 5 pounds a week."*


19 comments:

Ellie said...

I just started tuning into your blog and I just want to say:

Congratulations on sticking to your diet. I never really wanted to try Medi-fast or mailable meal plans but they seem to be working great for you.

More importantly the news about your knees is awesome. I deal with knee pain every day, and I attributed it to my weight. Perhaps I should try PT as well - its definitely worth a shot.

Fat Without The PH said...

I just started reading your blog as well, I am trying to get healthier myself, I have started a progress blog and am so looking forward to reading blogs like mine and like yours, you are inspiration to me already- thank you, please read mine as I will definitely need some support I'm sure! Keep up the good work, you are doing an amazing job!

Desert Singer said...

Welcome Back! Great news on the loss front :-) I just tried the Zucchini Alfredo you posted last night with Mahi Mahi on the George Foreman Grill and YUMMY YUMMY!! Thank You so much for all the information you have so generously shared with us... not just your inner feelings and struggles, but real life tips & tricks to helping make MF a really authentic way to change our lifestyle and habits by making the food so creative and palatable.

I'm realizing also that yes, only having to fix One Meal A Day doesn't overwhelm me (I'm easily overwhelmed), and this morning dh and I discussed that I can see eating this way forever, with the food tasting this good!

Your blog has become a staple for me, and I missed you! So you're on my 'happy thoughts' forever list :D ♥

Jessica @ {Mis}Adventures of an Army Wife said...

Good job at allowing yourself to feel the feelings! I know that's something I've struggled with.

I'm glad your knees are feeling better! Like a previous commenter said, maybe PT is something I should look into.

beerab said...

Glad to hear you are doing better Lyn- I agree to take back your power :)

Karin said...

Yay for you! Glad you're feeling better..you're such an inspiration to so many people I hope the support you get from feedback helps you keep going. You ROCK!

Lori said...

Congratulations. I'm glad you were able to work through your issues and come back so quickly.

I'm also glad that your knees are improved. Double good!
Lori

Anonymous said...

So let's see:
You made it through a rough emotional time AND stayed on plan.
Not only that, but you took proactive steps to solve problems.
You found out your knees are much improved from the discipled workouts.
And you lost 6 pounds.
HOLY COW! What a way to start the New Year, ehh? ROCK ON!!!

spunkysuzi said...

Take back the power! That is so true.

Deb Willbefree said...

Congratulations on the loss in weight and the gain in strength!

I weighed in at 180 this morning, too and am heading back down to my stable, stuck, low weight of 175. (I was 169 for about 10 minutes last year.)

Something about getting below 175 has me spooked. This year, I'm breaking thru! You, too!!!

Deb

The Shrinking Violet said...

I've been away from the blogging world properly for over a year. I'm back with a vengeance. I am absolutely delighted with your progress, seen in your pictures. You really have done well. You have reminded me what is possible...

Stacie said...

Recently started following your blog. Glad you are back. Hoping to learn a lot from all your experience with the weight loss. I have just started my journey.

Theresa said...

I'm so happy to hear good things about your knees! Woo hoo! Can't wait for your new progress photos. :)

Diandra said...

I am so glad to hear your knees are starting to improve! The next time you see your therapist, consider asking him whether there is food stuff/supplements that may help your body rebuild the cartilage...

The Captain's Daughter said...

Good for you!

The only thing final is death, and until it happens, we can do ANYthing!

These ups and downs are to be expected... Like you, I'm learning to roll with them, not against them.

Here is to a Great week for both of us!

Happy Fun Pants said...

180 - are you kidding me?!?! You are such an inspiration. Seeing those 110 pounds lost pictures will so be worth it.

Lyn said...

Diandra~

In fact I just asked him that last visit! He said he didn't have much of a nutrition background though.

I already take glucosamine, chondroitin, MSM, hyaluronic acid, D3, and fish oil. I do think they help.

401sue said...

Lyn,

You got me out of my slump and I thank you for that.

401Sue <3

Anonymous said...

hang tough Lyn. :)