Friday, December 17, 2010

This Sucks!

Okay, this is *not* working out well at all for me, NOT! The sugar demon got a foot in the door and has wreaked havoc. Yes I am weak. Yes I still have food issues. And I am in so much pain right now it is unbelievable. I had been mostly off sugar for so long that I forgot the massive effects it has on my body. For those of you who don't know, sugar causes inflammation in the body. I suffered a great deal of arthritic pain before cutting back on sugar and losing weight, and then when I went low carb on Medifast the pain almost disappeared altogether. The last 2 days have been just horrid. I ate sugar, and suddenly I noticed my hands hurt... a LOT. It started getting painful to use a computer mouse. Then I felt myself starting to hobble a bit. And when I went to physical therapy today, I felt a HUGE difference: I was very tired and lacked the energy and positivity I've had at my other visits, and all of the exercises just HURT. It's crazy. They were fine before, and now, just touching my knee to the pad on the weight machine is very painful. And that's after taking 2 Aleve today, which I almost never take. The PT was concerned the exercises might be too much and causing the pain, but I told him I didn't think so... because my arms and neck and hands hurt, too, and I don't use them in the PT exercises. And my headaches are back.

This is just intolerable. I can't live like this. I am giving my protein bars to my teenagers, eating the rest of the fresh fruit and Greek yogurt I bought over the next couple of days, and then going back on Medifast. Because, although I didn't weigh today, I see big numbers looming in the not-so-distant future if I try to wait until January to get back on plan. And obviously, I am not doing so great on my own. I know that's because I skipped the Transition plan... it's my own doing... but honestly, this week has been a necessary part of the process for me. I finally *get* how affected I am by sugar. I get that I need to add foods in gradually and not all at once. I get that I need to be more careful about carbs, forever. And I get that whichever way I lose the rest of the weight, there will be good days and bad days and I honestly just have to focus and get it done.

I may be getting my puppy next month! I will need my energy and health for that. She will be my new workout partner. I can hardly wait to share puppy pictures with you guys! Any suggestions for a good, strong, not-too-girly name for a female German Shepherd?

44 comments:

Debbie said...

Hey at least you know what is causing your pain and can get back on track to make it go away. As for the name for the puppy. I always wait until I get the puppy and see what it is like. I have one name Freckles, cause she has them all over her face. My male dog is name Rusty, because he is white with red running through it. So you will have to pick a name that suits her or him. Good luck puppys are so much fun.

Anonymous said...

I am sorry you are in pain. I know you are dealing with food issues at the moment, but I have followed your blog for a while, and I know that you have knee pain, and I really think you should try yoga. There are many poses that strengthen that joint.

Yoga is a good workout, and the maintenance of my weight loss never kicked in for me until I incorporated regular exercise. I have my own injuries, but yoga really helped me (much more than 4 PTs) so that I could ramp up my activity level.

Anonymous said...

How about "Ilse"?

Ice Queen said...

I am so sorry that you are in pain, again. *gentle hug*

It sounds to me as if calorie counting isn't right for you and you will be so much happier, healthier and better off on your Medi Fast plan.

You did give it a shot. It just didn't work for you. I hope that you get back on your plan and feel much better, soon.

Anonymous said...

Gretchen
Heidi
Schaatzi
Katrina
Elsa
Or Barbara, for that matter, LOL!

I truly believe sugar is our modern-day devil! It does SO much harm. But don't add to the harm by blaming yourself, sugar is an addiction, sometimes stronger than a heroin addition. You are not weak, just human. And you have done a fantastic job, keep focused on your achievements.
KathyA

Anonymous said...

Sorry to hear you aren't feeling well, Well pray that the Lord will help you in your time of need. Susan b

KS said...

Bronwyn, Bianca, Celeste!

(These are all names I'd give my hypothetical daughter.)

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry you're not feeling well.

I'm glad you are able to identify the cause and have a plan to get better.

Hope you're on plan and feeling better very quickly.

Sending good thoughts your way.

WebRover

Tamzin said...

Athena... for the puppy! Or Astrid, one of my favorite German names.

Well. Sounds like you know where the problem is and that is half the battle.

You can do it. :)

spunkysuzi said...

I've had first hand experience of how sugar reacts with my body! When i eat sugar/junk my arthritis flares up like no mans business. When eating 'clean' you wouldn't know i'd ever had arthritis!
Can't wait to see the new puppy.

Patricia said...

"I am giving my protein bars to my teenagers, eating the rest of the fresh fruit and Greek yogurt I bought over the next couple of days..."

STOP IT! Fruit is SUGAR! You must, must, MUST stop evaluating fruit and grains (esp. wheat) as healthy. For you they are poison. Period.

Wifey said...

Just a thought but maybe you should try weaning off the Medifast the way they suggest rather than completely changing your diet. I think it was too big of a shock for your body all at once and maybe that caused some of the problems?

Anonymous said...

How about you name the puppy "Sugar"? Then you can tell people you have all the sugar you need in your life with her around. :)

Patricia said...

How about Lucy?

Oh, wait... way too girlie that.

We have five dogs. All are rescues of one flavor or another, and all but one are officially seniors! So a puppy...wow! Such a brilliant reward for yourself. I hope you will share puppy stories and pictures liberally so those of us who cannot do puppyhood at the moment can experience it vicariously through you.

Thank you for sharing so much of yourself. Your blog resonates with me deeply.

All the best to you.

jordan said...

How about Cybil for the puppy? :) Cybil Shepherd. :)))

Anonymous said...

I just received a Christmas photo card of a family with their dog named, "Barkley Sue". I thought it was cute!
Lisa

Anonymous said...

Hope the sugar pain goes away really soon.

How about 'Magda' for the pup?

linda@adventuresinexpatland.com said...

I've been following your blog for the past six months and am a big fan. Knew too much sugar was bad (calories, insulin effect, etc.) but not that sugar causes inflammation. I read that and the light bulb went on so thank you! Sounds like you know what you need to do so good luck. Oh, and Inga the Wonder Dog

Anonymous said...

Hang in there Lynn! Do try weaning off the medifast diet as prescribed and not stone cold.
Love your posts and your progress. Keep it up. You rock

Debbie said...

Female German names: Elfi, Hilda

BrendaKaye said...

Ruby. I like the name Ruby.

me said...

I can so relate to the joint pain and headaches when the diet is off. I don't whether it's the sugar or the grains (or both) that's causing my pain, but I am regretting yesterday's poor food choices.

Anonymous said...

Keep your chin up. You have come so far and you will get back on track. Our big dogs are named Bell and Kelly. Bell is such a great name for a dog but my husband calls her Dumbbell just to make me mad!!! I like the Sugar suggestion, that was cute.

Anonymous said...

Sadie
Maggie
Jaime
Casey
Kelly
Billie


Dogs like names that end in the ie sound ... it's happy.

Jen K said...

For a German Shepard, I like Schatzi.
(Pronounced, Shaaht-zee)
It means Sweetie in German.

Karin said...

Schatzie! and I see Jen also suggested it...I'm german, and I gave my dog, an australian shepherd that name as well...and she is quite the sweetheart :) I'm sorry your sugar demons are haunting you...that sucks. I too am affected by sugar... a lot. I can eat fat, meat, oils..etc. they don't affect me at all...but sugar and fluffy white death type breads, they make me feel like crap! Good luck, you can beat those demons!

Anonymous said...

Zena

murgatroidgerow said...

Greta

You can do this! The exercise will help.

Pamela said...

How about Bridgette or Gretel. Once you really get to meet her, the perfect name will come to you. Puppies are the sweetest thing. I think this is just what you need!

Anonymous said...

My beautiful dog niece is called Schatzi, she's a German Shepard too.

I never knew this about sugar and inflammation. Very interesting.

PaulaM

Anonymous said...

I have an Inga German Shepherd, so thought that was very good of linda@adventuresinexpatland.com to suggest. :)

My mom had a shepherd that was named Elke and I always loved that name. Hedvig and Hannah are also very nice.

As for the fruit... I read something once that really changed my opinion about fruit. I don't remember who wrote it, but it made a lot of sense to me. They said that for the last 250,000 years that man has been on earth fruit in nature was not NEAR as sweet or plentiful (or large per piece of fruit) as what we eat now. The modern cultivars are really sweet and are full of fast acting fructose. If you have ever eaten wild strawberries (small and not very sweet at all) or a wild plum (again the same), you know what I am talking about. Anyway, we eat these modern varieties and are getting way more fast acting sugar (glycemic load) than our bodies in the past used to through 1000's of years of evolution. If you think about fruit in the past it would have been a special treat that was available for a very limited time. (Unless you lived in a tropical location - and even then it wouldn't have been as sweet and plentiful ... think plantain versus banana). Anyway, their contention (that I tend to agree with) is that the vitamins you are getting from fruit probably don't provide as much benefit as the negatives from all the fructose and heavy glycemic load. (Google fatty liver related to fructose consumption). I think we all know that the fructose in high-fructose corn syrup is bad for us (weight gain)... but fail to link that the high fructose in a banana may be equally as bad.

This is of course for everyone to decide for themselves. And each person may have a different reaction to fruit based upon how their liver function and how their body reacts to sugar in general.

Anyway, just putting it out there. I used to think that fruit was sooo healthy. Now I think (for me)... not so much. I certainly don't fight hunger as much when I refrain from eating it. If I do eat it now, I try to stick with berries and strawberries.

I think eating Medifast has really changed how I view what my body was doing with all those carbs and how they made me feel. Like you, eating very low carb tremendouly improved joint pain, headaches and mood.

What is "healthy" for other people (fruit, yogurt, whole grain breads), may not be healthy for me. It has taken me a long time to accept that if I am ever going to lose the weight and KEEP IT OFF, I will have to refrain from eating MOST carbs for the rest of my life. My appetite switch just does not work when I eat them and I ultimately will always gain as a result.

I think it is great that you took this "break", so you could revisit how crappy eating so many carbs made you feel. For me, it has become a battle less to look great, but more to FEEL great.

Love your blog. Keep on keeping on!

Anonymous said...

Wow, I really agree with what anonymous (above) just wrote. I also cannot tolerate much fruit, just a few berries mostly. I can eat Lindt 90% chocolate (1 serving per day) and not have repercutions (no pain no triggers), but eat a banana and an orange (for instance) and that causes all sorts of problems with blood sugar, etc. Weird. Also, I had to eliminate grains except for one serving per day of brown rice or popcorn (never wheat, OMG, wheat is horrible on my arthritis and causes a mess of cravings and binge impulses).

Your experiment yielded great information for you about your body's ability to tolerate. I hope your pain passes soon. Take care dear girl! Chin up. Your puppy will bring much love and joy to your life!

Anonymous said...

Sorry to hear of your suffering, but maybe it was the smack you needed to keep you off the stuff. Kinda like me a cigarettes, I can't have just one (8 years smoke free now).

GSD names: Gretchen,Greta, Liebchen (darling), I kinda like Barbara...
Barb R

Lyn said...

Thank you guys for the very interesting thoughts on fruit. Definitely something for me to consider. I have never been "triggered" by fruit, but that doesn't mean it is necessarily good for me to eat a lot of it. I am going to do the Medifast transition carefully, in which you add in fruit SLOWLY, one serving and see how it affects you (adding it in weeks before adding any grains). Then I can see how much I can or cannot tolerate. I do think the grains are a bigger problem for me and I might have to severely restrict them forever, which is ok by me.

Anonymous said...

Wanted to suggest a name that I love - Ripley. As in Sigourney Weaver's butt-kicking character in the "Alien" movies. What better name for a workout partner? :-)

Rae Komonski said...

I think Sasha would be a really pretty name :)

I'm sorry to hear about your pain. I hope you feel better soon. Congrats again for reaching your goal and losing all of the weight. It's more than the weight though, you're a whole new more fabulous person. Keep up the posts, I love reading!

Anonymous said...

Sienna,savannah,bella,karissa

Mary (A Merry Life) said...

I had pretty much the same realization this week about sugar.

Diana said...

Live and learn. That's what you're doing. As long as you learn from your mistakes, that's what really matters.

How about Zenzi, the pet form of German Kreszenz, meaning "to spring up, grow, thrive." Because that's exactly what you're doing, growing and thriving.

Cynthia said...

A few thoughts. Medifast relies on Splenda a lot, correct? I have heard that Splenda can negatively affect one's gut bacteria. Even if that is not the case, your gut bacteria can be changed by diet.

With the fast jump to carbs and fruit, it's possible your gut bacteria were just upset by the leap, causing the symptoms you are feeling.

I really think you should do the Medifast and their transition off when ready. And evaluate how you feel as you add more real food, including carbs back in.

It may well be that you need to avoid sugar and fruits, but it may also be that after all this time eating one way, you need a slower adjustment to eating another.

There are fruits like berries that are low in carb and high in antioxidants, and you might tolerate such better. Just go slow. If it turns out that fruit doesn't work well for you when you transition to it, well, you'll know. Knowledge is power.

Carbs don't affect me badly, unless I eat way too much, but it is sometimes a fine line. Too much, I do get cravings. Too little, I have no energy. I am able to do a bit more exercise than you, that might also be part of the difference.

Hang in there. You are learning lots about your body and what it likes/dislikes. Good stuff, even if it isn't what you quite wanted to learn sometimes!

Diandra said...

Sorry to hear that!

Sometimes I forget how lucky I am that there is no food with negative effects for me (besides gaining weight). I know so many people who react bad to milk, sugar, wheat, nuts, vegetables,...

I hope you will find a way for yourself!

PS: For the love of the gods, please don't go with supposedly German names for the poor dog!

PPS: Not that it would be any of my business...

clickmom said...

I always say that sugar makes me weak. When I'm going overboard on sugar I can feel it in the gym, when I am off of sugar I'm unstoppable. Dr. Mercola has some very interesting thoughts on fructose- I read his web site and he recommends restricting fructose because of a myriad of negative health complications. I think you are ready to hear what hesays. He's pretty radical for some people, but not for those of us who can feel how we respond to different foods. Good Luck! My last (best dog ever) dog was a shepherd. We called him Oscar. I say just go with a name that has a good association for you. I'm sticking with sesame street characters. There is an Ernie and a Cookie in my future.

Anonymous said...

I was actually surprised to hear that you were going off medifast in the winter time..it seems that you struggle with some depression this time of year, also there aren't as many wonderful fruits and veggies in season. I think that there is too much stacked against you to go off medifast, I would try for the spring.

Caroline said...

My GS puppy is named Ginger. Good luck!