Thursday, December 23, 2010

Enjoying the Season

Today is a great day! I am feeling fantastic, even though I have PMS, because the sugar is out of my system. When I am eating right, I feel so good most of the time that I wonder why I *ever* eat junk! I guess I get bored, or jealous of what other people are eating, or my mouth just wants the old experiences of eating the old familiar foods in large quantities. But when I eat sugar and fat and salt, I feel so awful. It only takes an hour or less for me to start feeling bad. My energy drops, my stomach aches. My heart starts beating weirdly, I get indigestion, and within a day my joints hurt badly. But the most dramatic change is my mood. Emotionally, when I eat sugar and crap, my happiness and contentment level plummets. I am sure part of that is disappointment in myself for eating junk, but a big part of it is physical. I start feeling lonely, sad, worthless, unhappy, tired. I sit and ruminate on all the bad things in life. And I feel sorry for myself. And then because I feel sorry for myself I treat myself to some more junky food. It's an awful cycle and it is very hard to break out of. Thankfully, I am pretty good at breaking out of that cycle and getting back on plan now. It used to take me months. Then weeks. Now I can have one meal like that and get right back to business, although the goal here is *not* to have meals/days like that at all. I'm not perfect, and when they happen I *need* to be able to put the brakes on quickly or I would gain right back up the scale and be 300 pounds in no time.

Yesterday was a great, on plan day. I did all of my physical therapy exercises in the evening. All of my Christmas shopping is finally done, and today we begin the holiday baking. In the past I've always baked a dozen different kinds of cookies and made four kinds of candy with my kids for Christmas and I started that baking quite early in December. This year, I am making probably 3 kinds of cookies and one kind of fudge. And we haven't even started yet! I can hardly wait. Some of the most fun we have at Christmas is decorating gingerbread men and sugar cookies with tons of sprinkles and a rainbow of icing. Some of you may recall that I never had this as a child, so it is very meaningful to me and a tradition I will always keep.

I hope all of you have a Merry Christmas or whatever other Happy Holiday you enjoy, and if you don't celebrate then I hope you enjoy a nice day of peace :)

18 comments:

Vee and the Kid said...

I'm doing lots of baking this week too. STill have 1 batch of muffins to do, lots of dif kinds of cookies, and choc-covered pretzels. Then I'm DONE!

Enjoy this time in your kitchen, surrounded by loved ones. Tis the season.

Happy holidays. Vee at http://veegettinghealthy.blogspot.com

Anonymous said...

Merry Christmas!
Susan b

Chubby McGee said...

"When I am eating right, I feel so good most of the time that I wonder why I *ever* eat junk!' Oh, man. So true! So true!!!

Merry Christmas to you, too! Enjoy the holidays and stay safe.

*hugs*

Rose B. said...

I can relate to ALL of that!

Lily Fluffbottom said...

I notice how much better I feel as well, when eating healthier. Sugar just... I love the taste, but it doesn't feel good for very long inside.

Happy Holidays to you!

cindy said...

Thanks for all your sharing! Lots of great insight! Best wishes for a wonderful, holiday season!

-c

R. Reed said...

Have a fabulous time baking with your children! It is so fun having them in the kitchen with you and having those traditions! Merry Christmas to you and yours :)

Anonymous said...

Merry Christmas Lyn!!! You are doing great and I cannot see what 2011 has in store for you!!!
Many Blessings,
Sarah L.

KS said...

Have fun! I'm making a coconut cream pie tonight. Hopefully I can keep my spoon out of the warm filling before I pour it into the pie shell... :)

~ L a y l a ~ said...

Merry Christmas and peace and love to you, Lyn. Thanks for sharing that innermost part of yourself that others cannot or will not. PS - I totally relate.

Layla at http://mywinningyear2011.blogspot.com/

MargieAnne said...

Stinking thinking is one of the main reasons I choose to be starch and sugar free most of the time - 95%.

Lanie Painie said...

May your happiness continue to be contagious. Enjoy your holiday!

Anne H said...

Here's to a happy Holiday to you and a great New Year!
*You rock!*

Jen in MN said...

Merry Christmas to you & yours, Lyn. I appreciate your blog so much. I love how you are so willing to be real! Thanks for that. It matters to a lot of people (-:

Anonymous said...

I am not doing any baking this week...I 've lost 43 lbs since the middle of september, we are dealing with a major family loss in this week before the holidays... I am intensely focussed upon the mantra of health before wants,,, a cookie wont cut it at this time...

Anonymous said...

I am not doing any baking this week...I 've lost 43 lbs since the middle of september, we are dealing with a major family loss in this week before the holidays... I am intensely focussed upon the mantra of health before wants,,, a cookie wont cut it at this time...

Anonymous said...

I thought weight loss is easy when I hit the gym. I started losing weight well but everytime I sop it keeps coming back. I don’t know what to do. Do you know any tablet that helps reduce weight without exercise? Am I asking too much here? What the hell are all pharmacy companies doing?

Lyn said...

Anonymous~

I am so sorry you're struggling. I know it's hard. I don't think there is, or ever will be, any "magic pill" for weight loss, but I think activity has to be an important part of health. That said, I lost most of my weight with low levels of activity, like walking or riding an indoor bike for 30 minutes. I do believe people can lose weight with diet alone, but it's harder. If you haven't tried strict calorie counting, that may help (there's info on my blog about that as well as low carbing). South Beach diet is another good choice, it is free, and there is also a food list for phase 1 on my blog (there's a search box in the top left corner if you need help finding it).

Don't give up. You'll find what works for you!