Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Working It Out

I had a rough time last night and woke up at 4AM after less than 4 hours of sleep. I couldn't get back to sleep but I stayed in bed until 5. Finally I got up and had some tea and took time to think about my plan for today. Summary:

How I feel right now: Like crap. Stomach icky, very tired, stressed and feeling generally 'down.' However I have the good habits and the wise thoughts percolating through and making me do what's best for me rather than sitting in a slump for days.

What I am going to do about it: Fake it til I make it. No, I do NOT feel like doing *anything.* My "feelings" tell me to mope, sit, eat, and ignore *doing* anything. My feelings say I am too tired, too sad, too stressed to *do* anything about it. This is the *old me* thinking. Fortunately, the new me is far stronger and is coming out and pushing me without my even trying to make it happen. That's a pretty good sign. However, I *do* have to make myself get up and do things. It's not easy. I have to force it. I don't like it. But I like who I am better when I do that than when I sit and mope.

I am just forcing myself to do things one step at a time. I know I could fall in that black hole of BLAH and WAH if I don't. So I am doing it.

Got up and took all my supplements (for arthritis, and vitamins and Biotin and all that stuff). Made green tea and drank it. Had my planned breakfast, lots of water, more tea. Discovered that although my daughter is better and not sick anymore, now I have a sick son who is staying home from school. Tended to that, pried myself off the couch and got dressed. Made myself do some basic housework and then sat down to blog.

I am just gonna do this all day. Fifteen minute increments, get up and do something. I don't want to, but doing what needs to be done over what you WANT to do builds character.

Since this really is somewhat of a tightrope walk, I am using my Facebook page to post updates today of what I am doing throughout the day. I know that sounds kinda boring but if you're interested in a look through my windows into my life (figuratively speaking) and a glimpse at "how to pull out of a terrible funk", you can friend me on Facebook. I appreciate all the cheering-on and kind words as well.

I am focusing on my goal reward too, and that is keeping me positive.

See ya on the other side.


Rosa said...

You can do it. Complete your plan. Make a plan for tomorrow. Take each day and work towards making things better for you and your family. I am friending you to send you encouragement.

Losing 100 said...

Just wanted to let you know how your post inspired me. I am just getting back at it after having a baby and gaining back 70 pounds. I LOVE your before and after pic's. They give me lots of hope. Keep up the good work.

Joan said...

Hi Lyn, just want to drop you a note of encouragement. I love your blog and feel bad when you are feeling down. I have read enough about you to know you can and will pull out of this "funk". You are a strong sensitive person and read yourself well. Hang in there. We all count on your thoughts and encouragement to survive our MF journey together. Best wishes. Joan

spunkysuzi said...

:) That's just what i'm about to do!

Anonymous said...

You'll figure it out, Lynn. You've come so far. Emotions will not get the best of you!!


Lanie Painie said...

You amaze me. I don't know what's happened, but I'm a wallower. I'm gonna go friend you on facebook and hope some of your "good character" rubs off on me.

Ex Yo-Yo Dieter Debbie said...

Just keep going...those 15 minute increments will help...you CAN pull yourself out of this funk!

Lynna said...

When I get like this, I force myself to start writing EVERYTHING I can think of for which I am grateful, and I write and don't stop until the funk lifts. It's pretty powerful tonic. And doesn't have any calories.

I'm grateful today for you.

Beth at Obesity Strike said...

Hang in there. Hormones can be deadly (at least for me they can). Hope it passes quickly and you find your mojo.

Anonymous said...

Such widsom:

"I am just gonna do this all day. Fifteen minute increments, get up and do something. I don't want to, but doing what needs to be done over what you WANT to do builds character."

Thanks for the inspiration!

Anonymous said...

Hi Lyn,

I don't have much time at all right now, but I just read the last couple of posts and a thought came to me. It may have already been covered in other comments. You said something in the post a couple back about how silly it seems to be spending time and energy on your "diet" when more pressing things are going on...but it made me think of a quote of Jillian Michaels a long time ago...not that I'm a big fan of hers, but anyway, I thought it was true: Your health is the foundation that you build the rest of your life on...if it isn't good, then that effects all of your life. I don't think it is the only foundation, personally, but there is a part of that that is so true. The time and energy you spend on your health is worth it for you and for each of your children and loved ones. I know you know that too...but just thought maybe it was a good reminder.

One foot in front of the other. One foot in front of the other.


Anonymous said...

Your comments inspire me to do better....some days I feel just like that....then I read what you are battling...and I think yes,,,I can do it... thanks...Linda

Lynna said...


Hey, one more thing. I wrote about my own internal battle between the thoughts in my head that said that I had more important things to attend to than my health/writing about it, and the realization that taking care of me was the most powerful thing I could possibly do to change the world.

Vee and the Kid said...

You did better than I did today. But I had to interrupt my day for the hour drive in to town, doc, pharmacy, grocery and other errands, and then the hour drive home, taking care of the livestock in a hail storm, and finally, able to take my rx and get in bed. I feel like I didn't get anything done today.

Vee at http://veegettinghealthy.blogspot.com

Anonymous said...

sometimes you really just have to take life one moment at a time...things will resolve themselves. I find going for a walk helps to clear my head and makes me feel better. I hope you find something today that makes you feel better too :)

The Chubby Girl Diaries said...

You look amazing Lyn!! I am certainly going to friend you on FB! I have so enjoyed reading about your journey! :)


Anonymous said...

Tomorrow is another day- and may it be full of wonderful moments that carry you through the day and help you to make healthful decisions without hesitation. One of your favorite songs on the radio, a silly email forward to make you smile, a phone call From a friend. I have a list for myself of quotes, lyrics, songs and even scenes from movies that can help get me out of my funk when it happens and i just want to drown my sorrows in some Ben & Jerrys.
If I can't do it- my kids are depending on me - and even more- my patients- just saw a 15 yr old girl who is 320 Lbs and dos not see how to get out of the awful nutrition and exercise rut she is in, Keep walking- let those endorphins drown your stress out instead!

Deniz said...

Me too, but we can do it and get out of the 'bad place'. Hugs from here and hoping you have a better day.

Lori said...

We all have bad times, no matter how much we weigh. Life will get better.

The Captain's Daughter said...

I am so sorry you're feeling blue but as you know, this is temporary and WILL PASS! What you do in the meantime is all that matters. I love the approach of 15 minutes... It's better to do something positive for yourself every 15 minutes than spend hours lost in a binge. That's huge growth - and I thank you for teaching me that!

Dinah Soar said...

Lyn...I don't know you personally but I am proud of you. Good for you, making yourself do the hard stuff. Yes, you are building character. What you are doing today is showing your children how to overcome adversity.

Remember--more is caught than taught when it comes to teaching children how to live. Their eyes are on you--seeing where you have been, where you are and the struggle you have and are overcoming. This will help them face and deal with their own struggles. If you overcome they will know it can be done and will believe they can do it too.

If you cop out and don't do your housework and such, why shouldn't your teenage son cop out too when he doesn't want to do stuff he dislikes? He'll think 'mom cops out, why shouldn't I'.

We must remember that procrastination is not our friend. Neither is denial, avoidance, self pity...and a whole list of unhealthy behaviors.

WE must kick them out on their butt and get off our butts and do what needs doing.

You go girl. You've got the power.

Mrs. Crumpet said...

I am knew, and I just wanted you to know that your pictures, your posts, especially this one have inspired me. And for what its worth, you seem to have gone through so much and pulled through. You can do it again. I wish you and your family the best :)

Mrs. Crumpet