Thursday, October 21, 2010

Tough Evening

It's getting late, and I am heading to bed soon before I eat something I'll regret. If you read my earlier post you know this is a tough time of month for me. It's crazy, because for 2 weeks I have no cravings really... no huge struggles. Food is what I eat, and I don't think much about bingeing anymore and I don't get triggered by much of anything. And now? Now, suddenly today, it is harder. And it is strange, because as I said, I have been baking and not been tempted. I have smelled my daughter's chocolate and been happy for the smell without wanting to eat it. At all. And now, I am having *very* specific cravings. Salt and carbs. NOT sweets. It's the usual "I want to eat a block of cheese right now" thing. And before I started this journey, I did, indeed, eat my share of cheese blocks. Yes, even 8 ounces at once sitting. I have a cheese issue...

I have also eaten salt poured into a little pile in my hands when I get like this. Crazy.

But I want it, I want that 100-pounds-gone mark SO BADLY. I want it more than I want the stuff that is dancing in my head all day. I want that so, so much that I am just NOT going to give in. And I mean, these are heavy duty cravings. I kept getting distracted and losing my train of thought when I was telling my daughter bedtime stories, because I kept thinking about cheese. And when I sang to her, I noticed my mouth was watering. Yeah, this has to be hormonal.

So, usually I have a nice sweet treat for my final mini-meal of the day... maybe a little piece of gingerbread made from a protein shake, or a Medifast brownie... but tonight, I was dying for salt and carbs. My kids had eaten nachos for dinner and the whole chip/cheese/salt thing was almost tormenting me in my head (which I didn't expect, since they had nachos a week or two ago and I didn't care one bit). My dinner was an Egg Beater omelet filled with gooey, yummy, low fat cheese... with a big side of broccoli. It was great, but not salty/carby enough. So after I put my daughter to bed, I made some crispy microwaved "chips" out of some Medifast cream of chicken soup. I sprinkled them with some Molly McButter Nacho Cheese powder and ate them with a tablespoon of low fat cream cheese. It was SO GOOD. I got the crunch. I got the *sensation* of carbs (even though they are low carb, they *seem* like a carby food. Mind trickery!) and I got the salt. Yes I even ate every bit of cheese powder off the plate with my finger. And then I felt better.

But it is harder than usual right now, so I am going to bed early and crossing my fingers for a good scale reading in the morning. I really, really want to see 178!

19 comments:

Laura said...

Good choice! I get like that at other times of the month, not pms time, and it's soo tough to fight it. Great job!

Mom to the Fourth Power said...

I will cross my fingers for you! You deserve it after not giving in to those cravings! I've sure been there!! :)

~Margene

Rosie's Healthy Living Blog said...

Tonight I really really really wanted to go frozen custard from a local fast food joint. It's SOOOOOO good. I'm pretty sure my issues are hormonal too. The only thing that saved me tonight was pure laziness. I didn't want to drive to go get it. Laziness is good for something I guess!

Anonymous said...

You did great !

NAN said...

You're doing great but I was wondering if you are 'allowed' a handful of nuts- walnut or almonds? I eat those when I'm craving some crunch and salt if I have the salted ones. Emerald even sells them in a premeasured pouch.

Miz said...

GREAT CHOICE and yeah.
Ive got everyTHANG crossed here too :)

screwdestiny said...

Lyn, you're so inspirational. A perfect example of knowing that what you want in the moment is not more important than what you ultimately want. I hope you see 178 (and lower) soon.

Beth at Obesity Strike said...

Brilliant solution. Those cravings suck. Hang in there, they will pass and you will have no regrets if you stick them out.

I just wonder if there is anything (supplement, vitamin) that can help with these hormonal cravings? Has anyone ever found anything that helped to balance things out? I sure could use something!

Tina said...

How the heck do you make a "chip" out of cream of chicken soup??

Dillypoo said...

Yeah, I'm with Tina. How do you make chips? Gotta be a powdered soup mix?

And way to go with a creative solution to a salty problem! Necessity truly is the mother of invention.

Leslie said...

It's so great that you're posting instead of eating. That's a wonderful substitution for you and inspiration for your readers. Can't wait for the new low!!

Theresa said...

you have come so far on this journey Lyn. I'm so happy for you. Awesome post.

Potato Diva said...

I am with the others... I crave salt and chips all the time. how do you make chips out of potato soup mix? Luv to know. Congrats to you.

Hope you didn't dream about food. Sometimes I have done that when I go to bed with cravings. Wierd.

Anonymous said...

Please don't take this the wrong way ('cause I know you're not anywhere close in age), but I think you're gonna love menopause!lol. I was ready to be annoyed by hot flashes and mood swings, and yet not having the weird cravings and desire to binge has been a HUGE blessing. Turns out, for women like me (and maybe you?), menopause is FABULOUS! I've dropped 80 lbs this year (my first year of menopause), and it has been relatively easy...similar to your description of your smooth sailing weeks.

Here's the weird thing. My weight still bumps up a bit at the time it normally would have, but it isn't in response to binging or even over nibbling. It's just a monthly weight fluctuation that goes right back down again without changing a thing.

Life is interesting. And wonderful. You never know what's around the corner. :)

Keep up the great ride!

yours truly, the crone

vp5109 said...

Cream of Chicken Soup chips?? Please share recipe. I did your cabbage/beef recipe last night (used ground turkey instead of beef) and hubby loved it!

Thanks for all you share

Violet

Lyn said...

NAN~

Yes, I am allowed nuts as an optional snack... I have some almonds and pistachios sometimes... but I had a sugar free jello instead because I thought that would be more likely to help me drop that stubborn pound. Plus... sometimes I feel like I can NOT stop eating them if the nuts are salted, so I gotta be careful.

Soup Chips:

Medifast cream soups (cream of chicken, cream of broccoli, and cream of tomato) make very good and crispy chips. They come as a powder in a packet that you just add water to for soup, but sometimes I just add 3 Tablespoons of water and a little squirt of yellow mustard (which makes them crispier), spread the paste on parchment and microwave it for about 2.5-3 minutes, just until browning. Let it cool and break into chips. Now, I have NO idea if this would work with other, regular soup mixes because Medifast soups are very high in protein and have fiber as well so that may be why they can crisp up like that! They're yummy and I get a whole small bowl of chips for 100 calories :)

spunkysuzi said...

Good choice and no regrets or guilt!

Anonymous said...

I've never commented before, but I have been reading your blog for a few months. You are a TREMENDOUS inspiration to me as I struggle to lose weight and keep up my exercise regiment. I just wanted you to know. Thank you for sharing yourself with us!

Anonymous said...

You are an inspiration and motivation for me as well. When I feel low on motivation, this is the first blog I come to. I'm quite amazed at the creativity w the medifast meals! You make it sound do able even though I am still trying to do it w regular foods for now.

Awaiting those 100 lb pics. No pressure though. ;)

~~Misty ( down 42 today).