When I was morbidly obese, I used to take my kids to the playground. I'd sit on a bench and watch them play for hours. Sometimes we'd bring a picnic lunch of peanut butter sandwiches or Happy Meals and the kids would play all day. But I always dreaded the swings. Hated them. Why? Because my kids couldn't swing themselves. I had to get up from my bench, and, depending on the age of the child, I'd have to put them in the swing, give them at least a couple of pushes, and maybe I'd have to actually stand there pushing them. I really didn't like it because getting up hurt. Walking hurt. Standing hurt A LOT. It seemed like an awful lot of work to me to get up off my bench and push my child on the swing, so I tried not to do it often.
Today, I went to the park with my daughter. I always love it when she wants to swing. I am usually already on my feet anyway, and it is so fun pushing her higher and higher, watching her blonde hair shine and sway in the air, and hearing her contagious laughter. But the very best part these days is that I swing with her.
Yes, I actually get in a swing beside my daughter and I swing way up to the sky, my legs pumping and my feet reaching into the blue. I love the sensation of back and forth, back and forth as the wind catches my hair and my daughter and I laugh and swing together. Swinging today, it was the absolute essence of freedom. The black rubber seat did not pinch my thighs into numbness or cause me any pain or discomfort at all, the way it used to even 20 pounds ago. The cold grey metal chains did not break when I sat down, nor did they seem at all stressed by my swinging as I used to fear. It was just me and my girl, the bright yellow sun and the crisp fall air, and our laughter dancing across the playground. It was divine.
How long has it been for you? Have you been on a swing lately? It is an amazing feeling. In fact it is one of my favorite things now. I swing every chance I get. Can you picture it for yourself? Like going back to childhood, to innocence and not having a care in the world, you forget all your troubles and look to the sky in absolute joy.
It is so worth it.
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