First I wanted to say I so appreciated all the wise, heartfelt, and thoughtful comments on my last post. Wow! We really aren't alone! And don't worry... I am ON this journey, for so many reasons. I can never go back. My brain is not in the mindset it used to be in, and my body tends to follow my brain. It always helps me tremendously to blog my thoughts and feelings. Those thoughts about my body had been rattling around in my head for weeks, and now that I put them out there and got it out, I feel so much lighter! Blogging is therapeutic. Cleansing. Freeing! I am super excited to see what my body does in the next 10-20 pounds. I know already my knees are so much better that I *almost* feel like I don't have the severe degenerative arthritis, bone spurs in my knees, and torn meniscus that have plagued me for over a decade. I was living in serious daily pain before. Even 10-15 pounds ago I still have knee pain almost daily although it was much reduced. And now? I still take my supplements, but apart from the occasional twinge or aches if I overdo it, I feel pretty darn great!
Today I hit a new low: 184 pounds! That's a total of 94 pounds gone forever. Another significant milestone is that I have now lost 50 pounds on Medifast. It took me exactly six and a half months. The first time I lost 50 pounds, going from 278 to 228, I did it with mainly calorie counting and eating a lot more vegetables and fruits and far less junk. It took me almost nine months to lose that 50 pounds. Either way, it is coming off at a decent rate and as time goes by I get smaller. I like that.
When I think about it, nine months losing with calorie counting and six and a half months losing on Medifast equals about a year and a quarter of active weight loss. Yet I began this journey in August 2007. What was I doing for the rest of that 3 year period? If you've read the archives, you know. I was battling the binge demons, fighting to not regain all the weight I'd lost, doing the mental and emotional work to move forward, and losing and regaining the same 20 pounds over and over. But I never gave up and that's the point. Keep trying, don't stop. If one thing doesn't work, try something else. Add exercise, cut out fast food, switch to a low carb plan, eat more whole, natural, organic foods. Just keep trying and never quit.
I feel great about the fact that I have had the perseverance to stick with it this long... over three years! If you had told me in the beginning that it would take this long, I might have given up. Over a hundred pounds to lose is no small thing, and getting started is THE hardest part. It is so much easier to stay in the pit, eating junk, starting "tomorrow" and feeling like it's impossible to change. But once you get the ball rolling, it gets easier. Even when there are long stalls and it takes over 3 years to lose that 100 pounds, IT IS WORTH IT. The time will pass anyway, and you will be fatter or thinner or the same weight at the end of that time. It all depends on what you do today.
Make today count! Next goal: the 170's!
*FTC-required disclosure: Medifast provided me with its products for my personal use for free. Medifast states an "average weight loss of up to 2 to 5 pounds a week."*
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