Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Licenses

In my wallet, I have two drivers' licenses. Both are from the same state, but only one is still valid. The older one was issued sometime in the late 1990's, when I weighed about 227 pounds. I remember the DMV worker loudly asking, "weight?" and me stammering, "Oh, about 220." He wrote it down and it was stamped on my license next to a picture of my roundish face.

I hated that picture. I was ashamed at how I looked. But little did I know that in just a few short years I would put on more than fifty pounds and think that old, roundish face looked really great compared to the new one. When I got my renewal license, they took a new picture but no one asked my weight. They just left "220" on there, which was fine with me. I weighed about 278.

The picture on the new license is just awful. They zoomed in and my face takes up the entire photo space. I didn't have time to smile and I have a deer in the headlights look. My hair was not done nicely. I look puffy and flushed. My cheeks bulge out. When I saw the new picture, I was devastated. Since it had been taken just 5 minutes earlier, I knew that was how I really looked. I stuck that new license in the wallet behind the old one and left it there. And ever since, I have had the old, invalid license in the front slot in my wallet so the old picture shows for photo ID and such. I only pull out the old one when I have to.

It's funny but the other day someone asked for photo ID and just for kicks I pulled out the old one. It is really interesting to see the look of shock on a person's face, looking from the picture to my face and back again, trying to decide if that is *really* the same person. I look nothing like either picture now. Even the old, slimmer picture is a good 40 pounds heavier than I am now. And I love the fact that I no longer cringe at the weight on my license. I am obviously nowhere near 220 now. Instead, I feel proud of what I have accomplished. All those years of wishing I could weigh what my license says I weigh are past. Next time I get a license it will be SO fun to see a weight starting with a 1 on there! It's been well over ten years since that happened. I can hardly wait!

I will insist on a new picture, too. I want the new license to reflect the new person that has blossomed. And I will be sure I am smiling for the camera!

20 comments:

Ex Yo-Yo Dieter Debbie said...

That's great, Lyn! As that saying goes, you've come along way, baby!

I've heard stories of people having to bring additional ID to get a new one because they looked so different from the old license, the DMV didn't believe it was them! It may happen to you, too. :)

Theresa said...

you could go in and say you "lost" your license.......
and reward yourself with a 100 pounds lost new license!!!

Lori said...

This summer I went on a trip requiring a plane ride. I had repressed the memory of my DL photo, and handed it to the security guard along with my boarding pass without really thinking about it. She did, double, triple and even qaudruple takes between me & the ID. I was beginning to think I'd given her something wrong, like my library card. Finally she said "You look great!" and handed my card back to me. Then I looked at the picture and had to agree. I actually passed it around to all of my trip companions. They agreed too!

He Took MY Last Name said...

in my state, a new license only costs $15 if you want to change info on it. but it might vary from state to state.

bbubblyb said...

I'm smiling Lyn, great story. You know I've never had a license with a weight of 1 something so will be a cool experience for me too when i renew *smile*. Your stories have been making me think lately.

Anonymous said...

Oh, this was so a fun post to read. I am sure you can´t wait to have a new license. I am so, so happy for you !!!

Dinah Soar said...

When I reached my WW goal weight I couldn't wait to get my new DL picture. Wished I hadn't gotten it. I went from looking like a plump yougish middle age woman to a scrawny little old gray haired lady. Fat has some advantages as you age. As one famous model said--who gained 5 pounds on purpose for her looks sake-- "you can hide your butt but you can't hid your face". Good luck with that pic..hope it's all you'd like.

Rachel said...

Great story. It goes to show what happens when we're not ready to face 'reality'. Putting it out of sight is much easier than fixing it. I've done it. We all have.

My current license depicts an 'inflated me' -- a 271-lb version of the 162-lb person I am today. Depending upon my mood and the audience, I find being carded both hilarious and embarrassing. Over all, it's truly shocking!

Christine said...

I can't wait to get a new drivers license. I'm actually REALLY PARANOID lately because I have lost so much weight and I look SO DIFFERENT, I'm afraid my ID will get confiscated for being stolen or fraudulent.

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Anna Down Under said...

i was surprised to learn when i moved to Australia they don't ask for weight on your driver's license. Congrats on the change, i hope one day to be unrecognizable from my license photo.

Jess @ THIR said...

I can't believe that they put your weight on your license...
It seems so strange to me, they don't do that here in Australia!

On the photo though... I have the same thing. People don't believe that it's my licence.
I even had people ask for my medicare card and my cradit cards to prove it's me... Ridiculous.
And my licence doesn't expire until 2018!!!
I think I might have to get a new photo....

Finding The Thin Within said...

This post made me LOL. My current mini-goal is to get down to the weight that it says on my license! I have 14 more pounds to go until I'm there. =)

Vee said...

I always have fudged on my weight on my drivers license. Mine expires in 2012 ... I'll be so gooood looking then! Woohoo! New pic! Vee at http://veegettinghealthy.blogspot.com

ftgrl said...

Oh Lyn - this is a fantastic post. I can't wait (typoed: weight.. LOL) to get to where you are. I haven't been in the 100s since I was in my mid-teens, but I know that with hard work I'll get there.

And you're darn right I'll be asking for a new picture at that time!!!

cmoursler said...

I am going tomorrow to get a new ID card. My old one looks like a melon head.
I can't wait to post the new one.
It seems funny to be looking forward to a picture. But I am, and so are you. Yeah us!

screwdestiny said...

They don't post your actual weight on licenses anymore. They just do a weight class...I think it's like 1, 2, or 3. I don't even know what the ranges are for the weight classes, but yeah. Congrats on blowing your old pictures/weights out of the water. :)

Fat Grump said...

It's amazing how our faces reflect the weight we are. It's great that you look nothing like the picture on the older license Lyn. Fantastic proof of your progress.

I am rather sad that on my last passport photo, taken in 2006, I look slimmer than I do now, and not only that, if I look back at the 1996 photo, I am a slim woman and much YOUNGER too! Time marches on. I can't change my age but I am hoping that when I need a new passport in 2016 I'll be a slim woman. Eeek! I'll also be SO much older too! Think I might have to do a deal, like Dorian Gray!:)

tessler said...

I remember my excitement when I hit 220 - the weight my license said - on my way down from almost 340 - what my picture showed. And then when I hit goal, I would ALWAYS get double-takes whenever I was asked for ID. "Is that really you?? WOW!"

I was really, REALLY excited to get my new license with my actual current/goal weight on it! And a new picture that actually looks like me! And then I realized... No more double-takes. No more incredulous looks. No more, "Are you SURE that's you? Wow!"

In a way, it was a bit bittersweet when I came to that realization. I know I'm not who I used to be any more, and anyone who meets me now will never have any idea that I used to be 150 pounds heavier unless I tell them. She's just a memory now.

The Fat Mom said...

Blog hopping and stopped by.

I love this post! It's such a motivation to me (who has almost 175 pounds to lose). I can't wait for that day when I can take a better picture of myself for my license. Right now it looks like poop!

congrats!