Thursday, September 2, 2010

Escaped

I can hardly believe it. I'm not obese anymore.

I look in the mirror and I don't look any different than I did yesterday. It's only one pound. But I see a difference in my eyes, in myself. I am not obese anymore.

I have been obese every day for a solid 13 years. When I started this blog almost on a whim back in 2007, I wrote the little blurb on the left side of the blog that says, "Who IS this Person? I am 38 years old, female, a degree-holding stay-at-home-mom, and I weigh 278 pounds. I have been obese for ten years now. Time to get out of this fat prison I have made for myself." I never changed that original blurb, even though now I am 41, weigh far less and have been obese for several years longer. I won't change it. I want to remember.

I also wrote at that time the subtitle at the top of my blog, which still remains: "A look into the secret life and inner thoughts of an obese mom. I have to get out of this hellish nightmare."

Indeed.

And I've done it. I've accomplished what I set out to do so long ago: I've escaped from obesity. With a BMI under 30, I am now medically considered "overweight." I went from Morbidly Obese, to Severely Obese, to Obese... and now that's all left behind, and I feel like I have a new identity. Not the fat chick trying to break free from obesity. I am me, now. Just me.

Oh, my journey is far from over. I still want to get to a lower, healthier weight... maybe even with an "ideal" BMI (160 pounds). We'll see. I have even more work to do cleaning up my eating and making new habits with exercise. I have some major decluttering to do... physically, emotionally, mentally. I accept the challenge. I will get there.

Here is a picture of my trusty scale. I like that it always gives me the same reading even if I get on and off several times in a row, and I can see the effects of gravity and my weight on the spring dial. I have watched my weight go up and down on this thing for over a decade. There's something interesting about this picture.


Take a look at the little slider arrows on the edges of the circle. See them? Little pointer-type things? The blue one is pointing at 278 pounds, where I started. The red one is pointing at 185 pounds, where I am today. Is that not a HUGE distance between them? Look at how much area on the scale dial that is! Ninety three pounds. Just wow. And the white pointer is at 168 pounds, which was my original goal when I started (110 pounds to lose). Not much distance there anymore, is it?

It can be done.

I am really, truly happy. And now, I continue the journey.

97 comments:

Andra said...

Nothing tastes as good as freedom from obesity feels. Congratulations!

varunner said...

Look at that huge difference on the scale! You've come a long way. You should be proud :-) I've enjoyed reading about your journey along the way out of obesity. You've had so many ups and downs, but have kept your spirit and determination. That work is really paying off now.

Cara said...

Congratulations!!! What a huge milestone, I am so close I can almost taste it, and I will NEVER again be obese.

Cara :)

anne h said...

You are really awesome!
But we already knew that, right?
Congrats!

Shelley said...

What a milestone - congratulations on just being overweight! LOL, only one who has been "there" can really understand the happiness that goes with that statement. Great job, Lyn!

Brigitte said...

Congrats on achieving this huge milestone! You are such an inspiration!

Joanna said...

Congratulations! I might print the pic of your scales and stick it to the fridge as inspiration :)

Baby Stepping said...

I am sitting here with tears in my eyes - I am so happy for you. You have earned every single kudo coming your way. You are an amazing person!!

midlife_swimmer said...

awesome!

MaryBe said...

Oh that last sentence made me cry! Good for you Lynn. You worked hard to get where you are.
BTW, I saw photos of you on someone else's blog a year or so ago - when you went to the Quaker Oats thing in Chicago I think? Anyway, you looked so pretty and I didn't think you looked obese then so you must look killer now! Enjoy every moment

Floriana said...

Congratulations! That is a huge milestone. You worked so hard for it, it must taste sooooo good. Good luck with the rest of your journey!

Taryl said...

Oh Lyn, I am ecstatic for you. Truly overjoyed. Congratulations on a very long journey entering new territory!

Tammy said...

Congratulations are definitely in order!!! Go out and treat yourself to an amazing outfit, so completely deserve it! I am so excited for you!

Melissa said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!! SO HAPPY FOR YOU! :)

Tina said...

I'm so proud Lyn. I got chills reading your post!! Who knew a hunk of metal and some plastic slidey arrows could say so much! Congrats!!

screwdestiny said...

So proud of you, Lyn! All your hard work is paying off. :D

Jenn said...

Congratulations. I myself just celebrated reaching ONEderland last month, and am now eagerly looking forward to shedding the 11 lbs. that stand between me being considered obese and overweight, so I definitely understand your elation. Whoo hoo!

Pubsgal said...

Congratulations! That is so awesome!!! (And Andra's comment is so very true!)

Medifast said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!

:) The Medifast Crew

I'm Annie said...

I am so happy for you! Congratulations! Your scale picture is fantastic. :)

Winner at a Losing Game said...

Wow. I am so happy for you and really for all of us reading this blog. I know how much I look forward to hearing from you. Is there anyway you would consider posting pics of your entire body? Would love to see your face.

Anonymous said...

HORRAY!!! You are such an inspiration, I am SOOO proud of you!!!!

You have worked so hard, and I am so thrilled for you!

You've escaped!

Hugs, Maria

Fat Grump said...

Wooohoo! I am clapping you loud and hard here Elaine!

You have worked so hard to get out of your obese prison. I am really, really pleased for you! :)

Oh..and thinking of you too as you send your youngest off to school. Another milestone. x

Lucy said...

I have goosebumps. WELL DONE.

What a momentous weigh in, amazing.

You have every right to be SO SO proud.

-J.Darling said...

Way to go Lynn! Decide RIGHT NOW NEVER TO GO BACK! You can do it! :)

Anonymous said...

I have read your blog from beginning to now! Such an inspiration you are! Keep your mind in order, all else will follow. You have come so far, mostly with the emotional exploration. Without exploring your feelings and feeling them, you may not have made it this far. Come on now, WRITE THE BOOK! I am so proud of you.

* did you happen to notice, looking at the markers on your scale, you started this journey almost off the scale!*

MargieAnne said...

Congratulations. You've hung on and worked toward this day without giving up when the going got tough. You have developed some mighty mind and spirit muscles during this time. You know you're going to complete these stage of your life toward being a healthier and fitter person.

You're right about the gap between the arrows on the scale. What a story they tell.

Lily Fluffbottom said...

I'm so happy for you! I hope to get there one day. I'm so glad you started this blog and maintained it through the years. You've done an amazing thing. Keep up the good work!

Annie said...

Huge congratulations to you! What a fantastic feeling that must be!

~Oct said...

WooHoo! But keep on blogging because a lot of us aren't there yet and love to follow along with you.

Lanie Painie said...

YOU ARE MY IDOL!

You are one of the first blogs I started following and it was because you started out at the same weight I did - 278. And now I know for sure - it can be done!

My daughter will be 9 in 2 days. She will remember and so will her classmates, but I hope I am sending good messages along the way and hopefully she will make better decisions in her womanhood than I did food/movement wise.

I'm so excited for you that I cried a bit here. What a big fat sissy I am!

LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!

Chris said...

So pleased for you! And you and I made it from obese to "merely" overweight on the same day! :)

mk said...

So happy and proud of you! Congratulations!

Honib1 said...

Welcome to your freedom.. hoping/planning on get/getting to mine soon..

Lissa said...

OH, CONGRATULATIONS SO MUCH!!! O FRABJOUS DAY! CALLOO CALLAY!!!

Linda said...

I have been following your struggle and progress through your blog almost since the beginning and your first sentence today made me cry. You are absolutely amazing! I applaud you!!!! Thank you for having the courage to share so that the rest of us can be inspired.

Jaime said...

Congrats Lyn, I know it is "just" a number but it really does mean so much to us. I finally hit "overweight" instead of "obese" in august and I know how much it means. YAY for you !!!!

Steelers6 said...

Congrats, Lyn. I like the visual of the scale. Wow.

I just loved the last part of the post about your daughter and her mother...And you should be proud of yourself as you walked her to school today. Neat that she is even barely experiencing a very overweight mom at school. And even though the boys did, if any of those same families or teachers see you, you will be showing off the new you. So it IS cool for those folks to see the before and the 'after'.

So excited for you.
Chrissy

Mrs. Thighs said...

Congratulations! I've been reading about your journey for a long time and am so proud of you!

FYT614 said...

Congratulations, Lyn. Amazing job.

Angie said...

This is beautiful..."I am really, truly happy. And when I walk my daughter to Kindergarten today for her first day of school, I will be so proud of myself... because not only will she never *remember* me being obese, but she will never, not for one day, have an obese Mom at school."

I have a similar goal. I lost 150 lbs. pre pregnancy only to regain 123 lbs. post pregnancy. I am doing this for my baby as much as I am doing it for myself.

Thank you for this blog.

Congrtaulations.

Julie said...

Congratulations!

Fit B said...

Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!! I am so happy for you!!!!! It is such a great feeling knowing that you can accomplish anything you set your mind to do! Keep up the good work!!!!
I am looking forward to escaping soon too! You keep me motivated thank you!

Vickie said...

such a great post
very happy for you
loved the scale picture
it said it all

loved what you said about your daughter.

my youngest doesn't remember either.

and to be honest, when the rest of my family looks at those old pics - they hardly recognize me.

It is the NOW ME that looks like the RIGHT ME to them.

congrats!

Twix said...

WAY TO GO!!! HIGH FIVE!!!!! :D

KyokoCake said...

Lyn I know I don't comment much on your blog but I definitely love to follow your journey. I just cried with happiness for you. You are an amazing inspiration to me and I know I am so close to following in your footsteps (9 pounds to be exact). Congratulations!

Anonymous said...

Awesome! You escaped! Congrats!

PaulaM

Anonymous said...

Congratulations !!! That´s awesome. I am so happy for you.

georgiabe said...

Such a long way to come! Congrats!

I'm so happy for you!!!!!

Ex Yo-Yo Dieter Debbie said...

I LOVE the title of your post! You HAVE escaped!!! Just keep running away from those walls of fat prison, too!

Those little arrows on your scale really give a good visual of how far you've come, and how little you have to go. And that's just the scale.

You have won the war for yourself and for your kids!!!

I am THRILLED for you!!!

Pamela said...

Congratulations Lyn! Leave that door open...I want to run through it too..Great job..I can't IMAGINE how that feels!

Christina said...

So awesome - I'm so happy you've escaped! But even better - that you've made a life-long commitment to never go back.

yomama said...

What a good feeling that must be! Congratulations.

Anonymous said...

Oh Lyn, this brought tears to my eyes. And I'm so glad you're not going to change the original, title/wording on your blog. That's what attracted me in the first place - describing obesity as a "fat prison" is something we can all relate to.

Your honesty is so inspiring for all of us.

Congratulations!!!!! You're awesome.

Christina

Anonymous said...

Love the picture!
Congratulations!

And again, THANK YOU!

Marie

Anonymous said...

Sharing your joy! What a gift you have of relating your journey in a way that is so honest and relatable. Thanks for writing about your setbacks as well as successes. Both inspire me to stay at it.

Anonymous said...

Congrats Lynn!!! I knew you could do it and you are definitely my number one inspiration for losing weight!!! Keep up the good work :)

Sarah L.

Helen said...

I love that visual of the space between the pointers! It's actually making me consider buying a good old fashioned scale and getting rid of the digital.

BIG - HUGE - GIGANTIC congratulations!

Theresa said...

happy dance!!!!

Yahoooooo!!!!!! YOU WILL reach your goal and STAY there!!!!

xoxoxo

Melissa said...

Well add me to the crying masses lol...incredible post for an incredible accomplishment. You did it!!!!

Lyn said...

Thanks so much everyone for all the kind words and encouragement! I am really happy. I feel like if I can do THIS, I can do anything! I am changing my life :)

Lori said...

YAHOO!!! You did it. I never had a doubt you would make it. Enjoy your accomplishment.
Lori

Jack Sh*t, Gettin' Fit said...

Who would ever think we'd get such a kick out of being labeled "overweight"? However, it's a far cry from "obese". This is quite the accomplishment, Lyn. Now give yourself a big pat on the back for me... I'm sure it's much easier to reach these days. ;)

The Serial Slimmer said...

Well done! Anyone who's had to lose a serious amount of weight, knows what a big deal that is! Keep it up. Next stop: 'Healthy weight'!

Happy Fun Pants said...

WAY to go! :) :) :)

So proud of you! :)

shipgrl97 said...

Yeah!!!!! Congrats to you....and best wishes on the continued journey...you are wonderful!!!

Lisa said...

What a momentous day. Congratulations Lyn!

Your unfailing honesty with yourself and us, your readers, is so helpful to those of us who are on our own weight loss/healthy living journeys. Thank you and again, Congratulations!

mozzie76 said...

Thank you thank you thank you for sharing your journey and story. I'm at the beginning of my own and am super motivated every-time I read one of your posts. Congrats on so many successes - both from the scale and away from it! Keep it up you Amaze me!

Polar's Mom said...

For a doctor never to be able to write 'obese female' on your chart again-hell yes! Congrats!

Yes, your daughter, AND her friends, will never be able to associate you with obese-and you are so close to MILF status on that scale, too! ;-) Hot mom of the PTA meetings! YAY!
But all joking aside-you are an exceptional role model for your daughter and a great influence to teach her healthy lifestyles so she never falls into the same prison you were in... Seriously-damn good job.

Polar's Mom
www.polarspage.blogspot.com

destinationathlete said...

WOOHOOOOO! Congrats!

I Will Lay Down My Idols said...

CONGRATULATIONS! You're inspiring. So happy for you! I hate this prison.
D

Tammy said...

Ok I'm bawling my eyes out woman!!! I don't even have adequate words for you girl...I wish I did. But I have happy tears for you...so much pride...and a reassurance in myself that you've given me that yes, it can be done. You are the reason that I started my own blog... I've told you that before. And you will remain one of my biggest inspirations until I, too, escape from obesity. Love you girl...just so proud. :)

Deanna - The Unnatural Mother said...

Congrats!! This is what HARD WORK LOOKS LIKE!!!!!

Alicia said...

Congrats! I, too, am no longer obese as of today! I began Medifast in February and went from 250 to 180 in the last 7 months. Here's to continuing to healthy!!

Anonymous said...

Congratulations, Lyn! I'm a long time reader, coming out of lurkerdom to say hooray & God bless. You have been an incredible inspiration to me & I am so very happy to know you've reached this amazing milestone.

-C. H.

Grace said...

Way to go, honey, way to go!! ((hugs))

I'm so happy for you, it brings tears to my eyes. :)

Love, Grace

HIS princess said...

What a testimony, Lyn!!! Congratulations! I hope you don't mind that I copied your scale picture to my iPod to remind me whenever I want to give up (which is almost always) that with consistency I too can be victorious like you!!! I think your daughter thinks her Mom's pretty awesome!

septembergrrrl said...

tears in my eyes, knew you'd get here, but to read it is just awesome. Congratulations!!

Sarah said...
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Sarah said...

As a long time follower I want to say congratulations and I am so happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Reitmans Fat Girl said...

You are so amazing, I've been following for so long now...inspired through and through!

BrendaKaye said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! That is so wonderful, and I am very happy for you!! Smiling for you today!!

Coley said...

That is fiercely awesome!

Dee said...

Congratulations. That is fantastic news. Well done on reaching another milestone. You are truly inspiration. It is so wonderful that you are sharing your journey :)

MB said...

I'm so happy for you! Congratulations on all your progress.

I have a similar type scale and can't wait to get closer and closer to that goal arrow. I've been weighing myself on my Wii and after every weigh in it says "that's Obese" and I want to throw it across the room. I know, I know, I'm working on it. I can't wait 'til I'm merely "overweight."

spunkysuzi said...

I am jumping up and down in my seat wanting to send you a big "HUG" You did it kiddo, you broke through the barriers and kicked them to the curb!
Thank you for taking us along this journey :)

Anonymous said...

congrats, congrats!!!! not for the numbers - for being someone who decided to take on a battle, and now knows that it can be won - that you have the power to do it. no change in the numbers in the future can take that away from you. what you have now can't be lost.

i'm saddened to see your recent entry about the passing of a fellow blogger. it makes me think again about how silly/stupid the numbers by themselves are... but how much they mean when connected to that bigger mission of taking your life into your hands.

Princess Dieter said...

BEAUTIFUL!!!! You ESCAPED. A hurrah and a hug.

Soon, it's normal weight town for you. :D

I'm at a new blog, http://happyweightafter.blogspot.com
And you and Dawne inspired me to set more concrete goals. Thanks for the ongoing inspiration.

You are amazing.

Reitmans Fat Girl said...

You've inspired me to blog my own journey! Amazing!!!!

Heather said...

Congratulations, Lyn! This is an amazing milestone, and you should be SO proud!

Christina said...

I nominated you for a blog award. Stop by my blog to pick it up.

http://nevertheskinnygirl.blogspot.com

Megan said...

I'm so pround of you, happy for you and inspired by you. Good work, Lyn!

Fit B said...

I left you an award on my blog

Alan (Pounds Off Playoff) said...

I am a little late to the party here, but I just had to comment. This is AMAZING. I have considered this goal, but wimped out. I'm a little closer to taking this on, thanks to your example.

Daisygirl said...

I well remember the day when my weigh in confirmed me as "Overweight" instead of "Obese". What a reason for celebration! That and getting under the 200s were the biggest celebrations of this journey for me. I was even happier than when I reached my goal weight to become merely "overweight."

Congratulations, Lynn!

Zoe said...

AMAZING! Congratulations on your amazing accomplishment! The visual of the scale it outstanding! I have 55 pounds to lose and am starting today. I'm so happy I found your site! Thank you for sharing.

Judy said...

I've finally had some time to read some of your blog. What an inspiration you are, to so many people, including me. For one thing, I made a soup for lean and green, which I hadn't done yet. I started MF the end of June this year, and although I have a MF soup for lunch every day, I hadn't' made a L&G soup. It smells wonderful, with cabbage, ground beef, tomato, zucchini and celery. And, I am going to order one of those gel mats for my kitchen. I too have severe arthritis in my knees and lower back. Thanks for all the good advice, I'll definitely be following your blog now more frequently!