Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Happy Bloggiversary to Me, x3!

Today is a landmark day! Three years ago, on August 4, 2007, I started this blog and began this amazing journey to better health. It seems like just yesterday when I started writing my first entry, Why I Am Fat. I weighed 278 pounds that day, and had just gotten back from a vacation at the beach. I had not been able to enjoy it with my children but had been stuck in the house or standing on the beach for short periods. No walking or hiking was possible for me and I was so restricted in what I could do that it sort of snapped me out of my food haze and made me go, "hey! This is NOT living!" I took my Before pictures in the mirror of the vacation house and came home determined to make a big change. And change I did. I was tired of the humiliation of being obese, so I wrote and wrote, made little changes at first like drinking lots of water and eating lots of veggies, and over time made bigger changes like counting calories and taking walks. And it worked.

On my first Bloggiversary, I posted pictures of what one year of effort can do. I love this post, because it shows the huge transformation in my body... 64 pounds in under a year. I was very proud of myself and confident, but I guess I wasn't truly ready in my head. I spent the next full year (and more) battling up and down, gaining and losing the same 20 pounds but doing the mental and emotional work needed to stop being a morbidly obese person in my head. I learned so much during that time and although I did not lose any fresh pounds at all from August 2008 to April 2010, I would not go back and change it one bit. It was necessary for me to make this a permanent change and get to where I am. Look over on the left side of this page and see the sidebar that says "Weight By Month." I am SO proud of that. It is a badge of perseverance. I never gave up.

And this year has felt like it is truly MY YEAR, as I have gotten to new lows and had some major breakthroughs with binge eating, accepting my body, and being *ready* to let go of my self image as an obese person. My kids are seeing me thinner than they ever remember me. They have a Mom who can play with them, hike with them, take them places and kiss them goodnight. When we go camping next week, you can bet we will be covering lots of miles on our hikes together and experiencing new things. This time, I can walk down the beach with them. I can even rent a row boat on the lake and go out in it for the first time in my life, not worried that my weight would sink or tip it and drown my children. This is going to be SO FUN.

Here's my weight loss chart for the past three years:


What do you see when you look at this? When I look, I see the days of my life ticking by. I realize that it *could have* been a straight line across for 3 years at 278 pounds, or it could have gone up and I could have easily been in the mid-300's had I continued the way I was going. I see dedication, even when the scale went up I still weighed, charted, blogged, and did not let myself put my head in the sand and stop trying. That middle section was *tough*, I am telling you. All those teeny ups and downs, starts and stops, working so hard and not "getting anywhere"... but really, look where I was getting! The scale lies. Don't believe it... it is *not* a true indicator of your progress. You can be making huge strides in your head and even in your health by making small changes and trying various things until something really clicks and the weight comes off more regularly. I truly believe this.

This morning, appropriately, I hit a new decade: 189 pounds. What a great Bloggiversary gift to myself! Thank you all for reading and sharing this journey with me and for all the kind words of support when I struggle as well as the comments celebrating with me when I have success. Thank you! And it just gets better from here :)

51 comments:

Jen said...

189!! That must feel WONDERFUL!! I hope you have an amazing time with your kids camping! You all deserve it.

Lynna said...

Let me be the first to say that your tenacity in sticking with this is majorly inspiring! So much character and patience. One more pound to 90!

Floriana said...

Congratulations! You've gone so far and accomplished so much. I really admire your dedication and persistence. You are an inspiration!

Laura said...

That is so awesome!!! I have to say, you're part of the reason I keep going sometimes. For the last 2 months, I have lost about a pound and a half, maybe. It's been ups and downs, and since I keep reading your blog, I know you went through those same ups and downs, and if I push through it, I know I'll see some more downs soon.

Congrats on your Bloggiversary! You've done an amazing job!!!

Theresa said...

90 pound photos here we come!!!

Megan said...

Congratulations. Lyn.
You are a true warrior princess!!!

Autumnforest said...

I think you should have superimposed a happiness line on the chart and see how it correlates. Congrats! You have been an amazing inspiration!!!

Laurie said...

Soooo awesome!!! I recently hit my 2 year mark of weight loss with MANY ups and down but much better than what "could have been" if I didn't make the change. 189 is great! I just it 179 this morning. A number I have not seen since my freshman year in high school.

Crys said...

What? No cake at this birthday party? Awww man!

I've been reading for the last year and it's been wonderful following your journey! Your accomplishments (esp in the last few months) and your steadfastness have been a great source of encouragement! Just imagine where you'll be year 4! :-)

Linda said...

Whooohooooo LYN!!!! Way to go!!!! I am so happy for you. I got my Medifast last night and started today. Day one!! Whoohooo.

Here is a link to my blog so far..

http://imcomingout-linda.blogspot.com/

Thank you for all you do Lyn!

Hugs,
Linda

Lynn Haraldson-Bering said...

Happy, happy bloggiversary!! And welcome to a new decade :) I'm so very, very happy for you on all accounts.

Ice Queen said...

Happy Blogaversary! And congratulations on reaching a new decade. And on all of your wonderful progress.

You and your blog are a rock and inspiration to me.

Debbie said...

Happy anniversay on your blog and congrats on the weight loss. I went back and looked at your pics and you look great.

Lori said...

Congratulations, Lyn!!

Banded Girl said...

*high five*

Your graph is AWESOME! Seriously. As you point out, even when you weren't losing in that middle period, you were still keeping track. I think that it's when we give up altogether and stop paying attention that we get in trouble.

I think you're great. Congratulations, Lyn, and happy bloggiversary!

spunkysuzi said...

189 is fanfreakingtastic!!!!

Leslie said...

WOWOWOW! Congratulations, Lyn.

Paula Rodriguez said...

You're amazing. You never gave up. You kept fighting the fight. Congratulations. Enjoy those moments of hiking and renting a boat. Life is sweeter at 189 indeed.

Great post--all your posts are great.

Paula

Kel said...

Please keep your blog going girl, so many of us thrive on reading your entries! We're right there with ya!

Shelley said...

Happy Bloggiversary, Lyn! You were one of the earliest blogs I started reading way back when I began my journey. Congrats on hitting 189 - nice way to note this day!

Tracy said...

Congratulations & Happy Blogiversary!! :)

Cathy said...

Amazing! You are right to be very proud.

Lisa said...

I see someone in that line who did not quit for THREE YEARS! I can't make it two weeks. I am heavier now than I ever was. I hope you are truly proud of what you have done!

Anonymous said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!! You are the most amazing inspiration, Lyn! I am SOOO proud of you! Have a wonderful time camping!

Hugs, M!

elife said...

Amazing!!!! I'm so happy for you.

screwdestiny said...

It's truly wonderful that you never gave up. And by the way, I must say, you are such a great writer to keep coming up with interesting new posts for us to read all the time after doing this for three years.

septembergrrrl said...

Fab stuff Lyn. :) August 2007 was the jumping block month for me too. Still here, still trucking.

Huge congrats on reaching the 180s too.

Traci said...

Wow that is amazing. Be very proud of that chart. You are so inspirational!!

Mrs. Thighs said...

Congrats on your anniversary -- and on entering a new weight loss decade! Both are wonderful achievements. You're a true inspiration.

Tay Tay said...

Wow, that is just awesome I am so happy for you.
Stacey

Lanie Painie said...

You are so inspirational to me. We had the same starting weight.

I'm worried about what my scale will say tomorrow because I didn't make the best choices today, but seeing your chart reminds me that a little up is ok once in a while as long as I turn it right around.

I wish I had found you 3 years ago!

Anonymous said...

you are so inspiring! congratulations and keep up the good work!

Michele said...

Dear Lyn,
Congratulations on Lightening your load over the past three years! Your honest and candid posts are inspiration to many of us (as your number of followers would suggest). Thank-you for inviting all of us to walk with you through this journey by blogging.

Just a thought: would you ever consider putting some of your more recent pictures on your home blog page?? Folks that are new to blogging and to your blog might not realize how much you have truly transformed from the "before" pics.
michele

Julie said...

Congrats!!!

Shannon said...

Congrats on the three years and such an amazing accomplishment!

Anonymous said...

Lyn,
Happy Blogiversary to you! You are an amazing woman and I am so proud of you for sticking it out when the numbers weren't changing drastically! Thank you for sharing your journey with us so that we may feel like we can do it to no matter what!

Sarah Lownsbery

carla said...

a day late but still some wishes.

HAPPY HAPPY!!!!!

on all levels.


Carla

Brenda said...

Congratulations on your new milestone!

Yours is the best weight loss blog I have read, because of the way you delve into the feelings behind overeating. I haven't seen anyone else do that.

anne h said...

When I think of "power bloggers" I think of you, Lyn.
Not just because you have a lot of followers.
But because you have alot of power..
True power....personal power....
Call it what you will! But you get things done.
Congrats!

Tina said...

Happy blogiversary Lyn! You are an inspiration.

Tammy said...

Woo Hoo!! 189!! And happy 3 year bloggiversary to you!! You're the reason I started my own blog....and thanks to your tenacity, you're a big reason why I'm never giving up til I get it right. Thanks for all you share with us Lyn. :)

Kim said...

Happy Annverisary!!!!!!!
You've work long and hard so indeed celebrate you deserve it. Its been three long years.

Sorry to add this to the anniversay email but I would to be apart of the memorial blogroll it will be an honor to even be considered.
Congrats Again !!!!!

Katie J said...

What an awesome post Lyn! Yours was one of the 1st WL blogs I ever read. It has been a joy to see your transform and thank you for sharing everything with us. It is encouraging to read!

Bobbie said...

Let me just say "Wow!" and Congratulations. And have a great time on vacation!!!

Baby Stepper said...

Happy Happy Happy 3rd bloggiversary! I am so glad I found your blog. I check every day for new postings!!

The Captain's Daughter said...

Congratulations on your blog's anniversary, but especially on your tremendous success at this journey you're on. You've been such an inspiration to me and for that, I thank you!

Another thing to thank you for is for turning me onto The Pioneer Woman! It was after your post about your own discovery of her blog that I began reading her too!


Thank you again for everything, you're amazing to me!

Anonymous said...

Congratulations! You are an inspiration!

Shrinking Beauty said...

Congrats! You're such an inspiration to me.

Fat Grump said...

Oh I am late with my comment Lyn..but I just couldn't let this milestone number go by without commenting. Congratulations on geting into the 180s! Well done you! Happy Bloggiversary :)

The road has been a very long one for you, but even when you stalled, you started off again.

That staying-power and determination has paid off, inspired others to keep going, including me, and I am so pleased for you! :)

MB said...

Happy 3rd Blogiversary to you! You always make me wonder how you got inside my head and able to express my exact feelings so eloquently. I'm proud of all your success. My little blog will be turning 3 on the 16th. It's like we're growing up together ;)

Amy said...

Sorry I'm late congratulating you but I've been out of town and am just getting caught up on my reader.

I'm really enjoying your journey! I have 50 pounds to lose and you have inspired me to start.