Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Feeling Low

I feel really lousy this evening. Isn't that crazy? I can go from feeling fine to crashing in a day, during PMS week. Before the cramps arrive I know what week it is by the sudden tearful emotions that wash over me.

I have mentioned before that I used to have THE WORST PMS ever when my kids were all small. I would get so sick that my neighbor could tell when I had PMS because, as she said, my face "looked kind of green." I used to be almost incapacitated for several days. Yes, I tried medications. Yes, my doctor did all sorts of tests and put me on all sorts of supplements, birth controls, and even antidepressants. Nothing helped; in fact, I got sicker taking those things. Eventually I stopped taking anything at all and realized that if I stayed away from sugar and processed foods, the PMS was about 75% better.

Now, eating low carb and almost no sugar, the PMS is better. I don't get all nauseated and feel like crying all day anymore. I don't get migraines. But I do sometimes get cramps, and I do get this very noticeable drop in my emotional state. And I get hungry.

Anyway, I guess I just wanted to vent a little. I feel like going in a cave and blocking off the entrance for a few days so I can be alone. I feel like sleeping, eating, and watching TV all day (even though nothing is on). But I am making myself stay active, and hope to get out and take a long walk tonight after my daughter goes to bed. If something prevents me from that walk, I will probably cry.

I will be fine... I just wish I didn't feel so lousy right now.

20 comments:

Kimberly said...

You posted this as I was reading your blog, feeling much the same way you feel now I think searching for inspiration! So much in my life up in the air, finally reached 190.5 and thrilled with the progress, but PMS-ing and want to eat and cry!

Our hormones can make this even more challenging, right? Re-read your post about 'choosing your hard' and have a little cry if you need to.

Please know that your struggle and fabulous success is an inspiration to a large number of people - but the bottom line is to do it for yourself and your kids! Keep going and enjoy your skinny life!

Jack Sh*t, Gettin' Fit said...

This is a long, long road with plenty of ups and downs, plenty of stumbles and setbacks.

It's easy to keep things rolling along when you're feeling great. The real measure of how far you've come is how well you can deal with adversity, how strong you can be when you're not feeling all that strong.

Hang in there, Lyn. To quote Abraham Lincoln, "You've come a long way, baby."

Tammy said...

Lyn...There is nothing wrong with having to have a good cry. It is life!! On another hand, I know that you said your doctor has tried everything. Did you look into the Depo-provera shots for birth control? While you may not need the main protection from it, the side effects might work for you. For some person info, I had really heavy periods, and after taking the shots, NOTHING!!! No cramps, mood swings, nodda!! Just a suggestion. Hope it helps, and hang in there!

Kristi-Bisti said...

It has only been since losing 130 lbs, that I have discovered my hormones. When I was morbidly obese, I didn't even think I had a cycle and never had cramps, mood swings or a period for that matter.

Now, the few days before I start getting really cranky just out of the blue. I'll be feeling fine, and then all of a sudden, something someone has done will send me flying over the edge. Then I evaluate and realize that my period is due. D'oh!

Just a couple more days, and it will be better!

Shana said...

hey, I shared your poem on my Monday's blog. Check it out and thanks again! Also, hope you feel better soon!

http://www.100lbsandcounting.com/2010/08/motivational-mondays-eating-is-easier.html

Mrs. Thighs said...

The same thing happens to me when I get PMS -- I start crying over everything! But it'll pass in a few days; that's what I always tell myself. I hope you feel better soon -- sometimes it's just best to actually FEEL these lousy feelings and then move on.

spunkysuzi said...

I find i'm like that during pms and i do have to say this humidity is not helping at all!! Hope you get out for your walk."hugs"

Crys said...

I went through that before I was diagnosed with endometreosis. Now they've got all kinds of lovely names for it - dysmorphic disorder, etc. etc. Hang in there!

Lisa said...

Lyn - I have this problem also. It's usually about 1.5 weeks before my period starts. I'm learning to keep track of it so that I can remember why I'm feeling so crazy. It's the worst next to the extreme exhaustion I get some months as well. But that crazy day - oh my. Just put me in a time out, I usually hate everyone that day anyway. Fortunately it's only one day usually.

Lanie Painie said...

I have simliar issues and what we are trying now is a prescription NSAID painkiller that I start 2 days before my period is due and continue through the rough first 2 days of my actual cycle. It's really been helping!

Being aware of what's ailing you is a big part of dealing with it. It's good that you are so in touch with your moods and your body and ESPECIALLY the way they effect one another.

A few days and it will subside. You can get through it. Without chocolate.

Anonymous said...

O dear do I remember! I just started menopause this year and life is fabulous. Seriously. No more mood swings or crazy days. Who knew life could get so good in my fifties!

Take care dear. This will pass.

Ms. PJ Geek said...

I'm going through perimenapause, so , in other words..extremely irregular and when I have a cycle it is a humdinger. Just had one. I was a raving beyatch one day, whimpered and moaned another, raving beyatch another. then , after, following a lower carb diet had a carb explosion.

I have a headache and am pulling myself up from the bootstraps.
Hang in there. we will make it through.

Hope said...

Oh, I feel you. PMS makes me want to eat EVERYTHING in sight. Sometimes I do. Hope you feel better soon! We're all in this together. :)

Leslie said...

That Jack Sh*t! Abe Lincoln indeed...

I'm glad you posted about this Lyn. Just saying stuff out loud can really help the shift to a more positive "head space" begin. That's a lot of what AA is all about. This too shall pass, but it sucks while we're in it.

You're doing fantastic, and exactly where you're supposed to be. You're building a new eating/food/health history, and when this kind of feeling recurs again, you'll have it in your history to know you can get through without self destructing.

Tina said...

Sorry your are having a tough time. Have you read Women, food and God yet? It's really all about embracing your emotions and living with feelings without turning to food for escape. The author says that being sad "won't kill you" and to feel how the feelings feel until you are on the other side of it. It's really an interesting book.
Thinking of you!

Theresa said...

you might be suffering a bit more since you did have some sugar/flour in your system this month..... I've had a hysterectomy but still cycle and never know when it will strike. This month we were at a PRO football game, the anthem was sung by a 6 year old little girl. Yup. There I was balling my head off. Rather embarrassing.......
Hope this morning finds you feeling refreshed and ready to tackle the day.
:)

Lori said...

I'm sorry Lyn. I was diagnosed with PMDD after having very similar symptoms. When nothing seemed to help, I finally got a uterine ablation. After about three days of recovery from the procedure life was fabulous. I wish I had done it sooner and recommened it to everyone that is finished having children. Maybe it will work for you too, if you aren't planning to have anymore babies.

I know it is hard to realize while you are in the midst of it, but this is only temporary. Try to hang on to that for now.
Lori

Jennifer MacNeill-Traylor said...

You are an inspiration! Thank you so much and congrats:)

kristi said...

I do low carb all the time now and I notice my PMS is better than it used to be. Still I get emotional and sometimes I have backaches but I have consistently exercised the whole 5 days I am on my period for the last 2 months and that is saying a lot.

MB said...

I hope you got out for your walk and you're feeling better now. I used to have such bad cramps I'd be in the fetal position on the first day, all day. Now I don't have so much sugar running through my veins it's not so bad. Take care of yourself and know it's temporary.