Thursday, July 1, 2010

July 1, 2010: 198 Pounds

I dropped seven pounds in June. Good enough for me.

Good news! My little girl is 95% better. It seems the virus has passed (after 6 days of misery) and all that remains is a little fatigue and lack of appetite on her part. But she is finally happy again, which makes me feel so much better.

I also have gotten some answers and a tentative plan in place for my son. He has some testing to go through before we know how he is really doing. Cross your fingers and hope things go well! I am certainly hopeful... still worried, but not as frantic as I was yesterday. I hope to have some real answers within a week.

Other stuff is slowly resolving, or not resolving and I am just learning to tolerate more things I truly cannot change. I struggled with my eating yesterday... not nearly like I used to, but still, more than I have lately. I think my body is incapable of a binge without getting really sick since it has been months, so that's a good thing. But little things creep in to stall the weight loss, like yesterday I just WANTED comfort food in a bad way, so I scrambled myself some cheese eggs. Now, cheese eggs are not the worst possible thing I could eat for breakfast; in fact, they are even mostly on plan if I have breakfast as my protein source instead of dinner. I scrambled three nice, fresh local free range eggs in a pan and melted some low fat American cheese in them. Oh my gosh, it was heavenly. In fact my body felt so thankful that I figured maybe this time it was a good thing to listen to my body. But I ate some other bits here and there during the day, as I walked around in a sleep-deprived haze, and that, I am sure, was enough to put me over the top on calories and carbs yesterday. I am still really tired today even though I did get 6 hours of sleep last night, and though I am, so far, 100% on plan today, I still *feel like* going to the mall and eating a soft pretzel, just for the pleasure and comfort of it. Like I said, I am struggling. I think it is so much easier to just not detour from healthy eating, and just stay on plan. I will keep that in mind from now on.

Off to clean the house...

9 comments:

Julie Lost and Found said...

so glad to hear your little girl is feeling better!

Also, congrats on the June weight loss. That's pretty significant! You're doing fantastic.

Jack Sh*t, Gettin' Fit said...

I don't know if any of us will ever completely get over our troublesome eating. I just got home from picking up two gallons of fresh blueberries from my parents and probably ate a quart of them on the way home (delicious). Now I'm feeling a little sick and bluish...

Laryssa said...

I just got caught up on your posts for the past couple of weeks. Lyn, I'm wondering if what your little girl had wasn't food poisoning ... what she was going through sounds just like what happened to me 2 weeks ago. My doctor feels it was the hard boiled eggs I had eaten. Boy, did that give me a *run* for my money!

I'm feel so proud for you because of how far you've come on this weight loss journey. With everything that's happening, you could have so easily succumbed to your old habits. You not only learned how to eat healthier, you've learned to battle that monster we have in us that makes us binge. You've really learned so much in the past few months on how to deal with your emotions that it amazes me. I know I don't have anywhere near the problems you must be going through so you've given me strength to keep moving forward. If you can do it, then there's no reason I can't!

I've got you and your son in my prayers. And I'm even going to tell my sister to pray ... once she gets her church prayer warriors on it, you won't have to worry anymore! :D

Jennifer said...

Glad your daughter is feeling better. 6 days was our turnaround point too...until daughter #2 got it :( I am glad you are feeling more in control of your eating. Having been on Medifast I know just what you mean that eggs and cheese is a pretty good detour from the plan! And picking here and there is much better than a whole binge meal or even a binge day!!!Try to get some good rest tonight. Hopefully you will wake up rested and less dazed. Feeling dazed and exhausted really affects us many ways all throughout the day! I hope you get the answers you need with your son. I will keep you in my prayers.

Jennifer
http://wecanlosethepounds.blogspot.com/

Momma Hunt said...

Glad to hear your little one is back on track and congrats on your seven pounds in June!

Theresa said...

That comfort that you need is human companionship. not necessarily romantic.... but caring comfort just the same. There might be a support group for your son's condition. you might find a good friend. Just a suggestion.... I do hope you know that there are so many people online who care.

-J.Darling said...

Theresa has a great point!

Making friends (the face to face kind) and getting out there when we need a break (or are seeking comfort food)can be a great void-filler.

Ice Queen said...

I am so glad that your little girl is feeling better and that is good news about your son.

I think that you are doing amazingly well, considering the level of stress you are dealing with, right now.

Good for you, getting back on track today and you did lose, so you must be doing something right. :D

spunkysuzi said...

I'm so glad to hear that things are calming down for you!
And egg certainly do make an awesome brekkie :)