Sunday, June 6, 2010

Weigh In, and Perspective

This morning I weighed in at 201 pounds. I am pretty excited about this number! Isn't it funny how a number going UP the scale feels so much different than it does going DOWN the scale? Back in May of 1996 (has it really been 14 years??), I saw 201 on the scale for the very first time. It was the highest weight I'd ever seen, even when I was 9 months pregnant (and I wasn't at the time!) I remember how appalled I was at seeing 201... I felt super huge and sloppy and just plain FAT. I even took "before" pictures of myself as I started my new diet that day. I sure wish I could find those pictures to compare to. Anyway, I was so disgusted with myself and determined to get back to my "normal weight" of 145.

Fast forward 14 years, here I am seeing 201 again and I am THRILLED! I feel kinda thin, pretty, sexy, healthy, and proud of that number. Funny how time changes perspective. It's all relative. To some people, 299 is a dream. To others, it's a nightmare. But the same goes for 150. THAT is super skinny to ME, but insanely fat to others. It all depends on where your head is, and what you're used to, I guess.

Anyway, last Sunday I weighed 206 pounds. So I lost FIVE pounds this week! Granted, I had gained 2 last week so what I did THIS week is lost the 2 I'd gained and then lost 3 fresh pounds. Good enough for me! That makes a total of 77 pounds gone.

This week is my PMS week, and I woke up this morning feeling slightly PMSy already. I don't expect much of a loss this week but I will do the best I can. I did cut way down on diet sodas last week (I think I only had one, instead of 1-2 per day) and I will continue that.

Tonight I am roasting a turkey! I'll make mashed potatoes for the family and mashed cauliflower for me, and probably a pot of chard and maybe some green beans, too. I love the smell of roasting turkey. I only do it on Thanksgiving and maybe once more each year. But I am looking forward to the yummy smells as much as I am looking forward to eating it!

Have a lovely Sunday.

25 comments:

Becca said...

Congrats on the 5lbs loss!
Great idea about the mashed cauliflower, I'm totally gunna cook me up some for dinner. Yum.

Andra said...

I've been wanting turkey lately, I'm coming for dinner! :)

moonduster said...

Woohoo! You'll be in Onederland before you know it! :) I am so HAPPY for you!

Mom to the Fourth Power said...

Yay for you! I can't wait to see 201 on the scale. Good job. Enjoy that turkey and mashed cauliflower.. YUM!! I tried that cauliflower pizza last week and it is so delish!!!
~Margene
http://www.believingitspossible.blogspot.com/

Winner at a Losing Game said...

Nice job. I wonder if you worry, like I do about how we can keep this weight off when Medifast is done? I have been doing this for 7 months and lost over 70 lbs. I am so scared about gaining it back it seems to be robbing me of feeling good about success.

Lyn said...

Winner at a Losing Game~

Have you read the Medifast Transition & Maintenance Guide? It's on their website and it's a pretty detailed plan to get off Medifast foods and onto a regular healthy eating plan. That helps me feel pretty comfortable about the change, but yes I DO worry about the binges coming back. If that happens, I am in deep trouble.

georgiabe said...

WooHOO!

I totally get how time changes perspectives! When I think back at what I thought was fat for me, I appreciate how fit and trim I really was! 12yrs ago for me that I saw the scale rocket into the 200s …I know you’ll be celebrating to see that “1” as a first number again! Soon!

Anonymous said...

Hi Lynn, I have been reading your blog for a while now and I just wanted to say what an inspiration you are to me!! my situation is slightly different, I am a recovered bulimic (3months and counting) and I can definitely relate to the binging aspect of your struggle. Seeing you make huge changes and learn to love yourself is so uplifting and inspiring to me. Keep up the good work!
Kasey

Diana said...

Lyn, I love that you're doing so well. MediFast is really working for you and hopefully helps a lot of other people too.

I have a request. A picture of you you on your blog, with your face. I've been reading your blog for almost two years and although I feel like I know you, I have no idea what you look like. I love seeing the differences in people's faces, before and after. Just a request.

Lyn said...

Diana~

thank you :)
I am not ready to ditch my anonymity just yet... if ever. There is something slightly disturbing to me about future and post employers, coworkers, boyfriends, exes, friends etc reading about the amounts of food I used to binge on, and how much I weigh. Being anonymous allows me to post pictures of my body parts and be completely honest about things I would be embarrassed to admit to people who know me.

Maybe someday, when I feel like I have made enough progress to not feel like hiding the past so much.

Sandy said...

That's awesome Lyn! Keep it up! And thank you for sharing your progress with us!

SlenderSwan2B said...

W-O-W I am so very proud of you Lyn!!! I am so excited for you to be at 201 and seeing Onederland next week I am sure. I am just starting to get my mojo going with hitting stationary bike. (Today will be 8 day streak) I can't wait till I get back to loosing. I was so close at 204 but umm yeah some crept back on me. LOL My streak is my fight back! :)

Salted with Shadows said...

Congratulations Lyn! I can't wait to see 201 myself! :)

My Body In Motion said...

You are so, so right! When I finished my Freshman year of college, I weighed 150. I knew that wasn't fat, but it was much bigger than I wanted to be. So I joined weight watchers to lose a few lbs. Now I can't wait to get back down to 150!

rmslil said...

I am jealous of your mashed cauliflower. I made it twice with the precut cauliflower packages. Last week I made it by chopping my oen cauliflower and it would not mash. Hope yours was delish.

Lyn said...

rmslil~

I steam it and then add a bit of liquid (half & half, usually, just a tiny bit) and use my immersion stick blender to make it smooth. Works on even a small amount if it's in a small bowl. HTH!

✯FiTCETERA✯ said...

I'm going to break out the fireworks ...
this is a celebration I don't want to miss, Lyn!

Ice Queen said...

We were in the store today and Husband wanted to get a turkey in the worst way. I put the kibosh on that right quick. It is far too hot to roast a bird, this time of year. He only has to wait five months and it will be Thanksgiving. ^^ :D

Overweight in SoCal said...

Congratulations on the loss!!!

TheDiaryofaFatWhiteChic said...

congrats! I am a lil jealous this week! We are right around the same size right now...I weighed in at 204 today. When I was a sr. back in 2002/2003, I weighed 135. Most my friends were smaller (105-120 probably), but I felt great and that was all that mattered!

Brandipants said...

I don't really leave comments but I wanted to tell you how awesome you are and how much you have inspired me. I need to start leaving more comments but I have been reading your blog for a while and you impress me. No matter the struggle you still keep going. You have gotten so far! Congrats on your success! You are such an inspiration.

Lyn said...

brandipants~

Thanks! I am so glad you like my blog. Hang onto that inspiration! You have the power to change your life :)

Mad Woman said...

WOO! Well done! Next week you'll be into Onederland :-) That's so fantastic!

Someday..... said...

I am so proud of you - I have read up your two other more recent posts...but I am commenting on this one because I am starting "fresh" today. You could completely be my ghost writer...and I hope to have success like you..and know the hard work I am facing - but also the joys and healthier feeling -
Thank you so much for your blog!

MB said...

I was saying the same thing to a friend over the weekend. When I was at this weight heading up the scale I was depressed and miserable and now I'm seeing that same number going down the scale and I feel great. Congrats on all your progress. Keep up the good work and enjoy breaking into "onederland."