Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Brief Update

I just wanted to say, I am really not okay right now. Nothing is getting better that I blogged about the other day; in fact my daughter was sicker yesterday and the doctor I had lined up for my son has a conflict so I am starting from scratch trying to find him another doctor. I am also functioning (or NOT functioning) on 3 hours of sleep because I am up half the night with a sick child and then when I finally drift off, the neighbor's dog starts barking and wakes me up... which is why I started my day (unwillingly) at 4:30 this morning.

I don't have much else to say. I feel like my brain is falling apart, I have a massive headache and have this feeling like I cannot carry all this stress for much longer. Other stuff is going on that is not helping.

I didn't post this as a whine session but I know there are some wonderful people reading who truly care about me so I wanted to let you know why I am not writing a decent post today. I am, as of this moment, in control of my eating and not using food to de-stress. However, I am really not okay. Hoping for better soon.

65 comments:

Megan S said...

Lynn, Have been reading your blog for years now I think and of the many blogs I read I really feel for you the most. That is, I genuinely hope you are happy and do well. Please let us know if there is absolutely anything at all we/ I can do to help. I am so sorry for what you're going through right now.
Megan S

Anonymous said...

Oh, Lyn, I am SO sorry to hear all this! I am sending a huge hug your way and hoping that everything gets better for you and your children. There's nothing I can say to make you feel better I know, but realize that you are being amazingly strong and are a wonderful mom, your children are lucky to have you.

I am in a bad way with my own family too, unfortunately. No details, you shouldn't have to listen to anyone else's problems, but trust me when I say I know the feeling of emotional terror and the constant, constant worry. I am crying as I write this, and at the end of my rope right now, too. I truly feel your pain.

Hugs and and good wishes to you.

Lori said...

Lyn,
I'll keep you and your children in my prayers. Take pride in yourself that you are not using food as a crutch. Life will tempt you sorely, but you are stronger. Don't forget that.
Lori

Liz said...

I'm praying too Lynn.

luckiest1 said...

{{{Lynn}}} I hope things get better for you and your family soon. Stay strong!

Jack Sh*t, Gettin' Fit said...

Nothing piles on the stress like sick kids. Stay strong, Lyn. You'll get through this tough patch...

Tammy said...

I'm still praying for you and the kids Lyn. I hope things work themselves out soon...that your little one gets better fast, and that you can find a good doctor and a solution for your son's health issues as well. Never stop praying. Never stop believing.

Anonymous said...

Lynn,

I am praying for you and your family. You have been so inspiring and even in the face of tremendous stress you inspire us. I pray for relief for you and your family. These are the times that surely test our willingness to be willing to make permanent change.

Hugs,
Linda

A said...

Lyn, I am sending hugs your way. You are in my thoughts and prayers and so are your children. You are such an inspiration to me and so many others. Anonymous is right your children are very lucky to have you. Hang in there.

sabel said...

Lynn, I have to say that I find you to be an amazing woman. I understand your stress and I guess what comes to mind is "one day at a time." One sick child is a handful, two is overwhelming but I know you will handle the situation and be the best mom you can be for your kids. You have come so far, I am in awe. Please hang in there - saying a prayer for you and your family!

Happy Fun Pants said...

Awww...that IS a decent post. :)

I'm SO sorry to hear that things aren't going better. I can't imagine your stress load right now - and on not a lot of sleep wears me down faster than anything else. Add sick kiddos to it and I can't even imagine how you're feeling.

If there is ANYTHING I can do to help, please let me know.

In the meantime, take care of you and your family...the blog world will still be here - and you don't owe anyone anything.

((hugs))

NewMe said...

So sorry to hear about this stress. One quick question: have you actually taken your daughter to the doctor yet, or did I miss that? If you haven't--and you can afford to do so--please take her.

Wishing you all the best.

varunner said...

So sorry you're having such a difficult time. I hope that things will improve, and quickly. I know you don't really do blog awards, but I gave you one on my blog today.
Feel better.

Medifast said...

Lyn, we are all sending only positive thoughts your way! We sincerely hope that your children's health improves. We're very proud of you for staying in control; you're a strong woman.

Best,
The Medifast Team

Lyn said...

NewMe~

No. The nurse at my pediatrician's office said a virus is going around and to keep her home as long as she is drinking fluids and not getting dehydrated.

However, if she is worse again today, I will be calling the nurse again to see if there is anything else we can do.

bbubblyb said...

Hope the kids get better soon and that you can get some rest. I'm sure lack of sleep is a big part of you feeling so worn down. Hope things get better all the way around, I'm praying for you all.

Mishe@EatingJourney said...

hugs love. try to take five minutes for yourself if you can.

Jaclyn said...

I'm not generally the commenting type, but I wanted to let you know that I am praying for you and your family and everything that is going on. As a mother, I can hardly imagine what you're going through with your precious children.

Bobbie said...

Lyn, I am sorry to hear that today shows no improvement. But as you are learning by your own success, our bodies are amazing machines and I am believing that healing will come. I will continue to pray for you today because even though I haven't been following your blogs very long, I feel a kindred spirit through your personal battles and struggles and you have already inspired me in this short amount of time. I pray for healing for your children, and strength for you. I pray for total provision in every area of need. You take care of yourself too. One of my own personal things I would say to myself raising my children is "this too shall pass". and it will. I don't want to sound flippant, because I almost lost my son to ulcerative colitis (he no longers has a colon), so I understand your distress with the health of your children. As you can see, you have many "friends" online and we have come to care about you and we send you all the support we can. Be blessed.

Cris said...

Oh no.


I'll be praying for you and yours today. I hope that little one gets to feeling better soon and I hope you find peace and comfort today.


*hugs*

Margie M. said...

Hi Lyn: another blogger here keeping you and your kids in my thoughts and prayers. Hope your daughter seems improvement soon.

Margie M. writes at:
www.myhealthylivingthruweightcontrol.blogspot.com

Dinah Soar said...

I am praying that God will direct your steps and show you the next step to take. He can light your path and in effect say 'step here, step here, step here'--keeping you out of harms way, delivering you safely.

He is a sun and shield--that means he gives us life giving healing sun when we need it, and he shields us from the hot burning sun as well. Just say the words: "please show me what to do". He is Love and will meet your present need. And he will give you grace to endure the difficult times, if you will receive it. If you fail to receive the grace, that is 'kick against the pricks', you will only end up with sore feet. Believe me I know from experience.

As well here is some practical advice that has helped me in trying cicumstances:

When you don't know what to do, just do the next thing that needs doing, whether it's cleaning a toilet, sweeping the floor or taking a nap.

Think on 'lovely' things--don't dwell on the unlovely things.

Remind yourself that there is a limit to what you can and are able to do...do what is in your power, then realize the rest is up to the God. Trust that he is working on your behalf, for your good--even when you don't understand it. When we give up control over the things we can't control that is where/when we will find peace and rest.

Remember--the God of Israel, Jehovah God-- never slumbers nor does he sleep--he is always ready to hear and to answer.

Amy said...

Praying for you. Great job on not stress eating. That is incredible. Take it easy on yourself and concentrate on this kiddos. If miss don't exercise or maybe eat a bit off track give yourself that. Hope there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I was thinking about you when I heard of the kellog cereal recall here http://www.thestreet.com/story/10794821/1/kellogg-cereal-recall-product-details.html?cm_ven=GOOGLEFI
I don't know if that could apply to your daughter.

Anonymous said...

It's really difficult to eat on plan when you're just not getting enough sleep, I know from personal experience. Previously I know that you've used melatonin and gave it up due to possible headaches--but might I suggest trying it out right now, just to get you past this period of stress and attendant insomnia? Getting the sleep you need is so important for coping with all the other crap that life throws around.

Going through my own unhappy crap at the moment, but I'm pretty much desperately clinging to my routines of sleep, exercise, and healthy eating as the only tools I really have for coping.

*hugs*

WarMaiden / Sarah

Mary from Sugar Bush Primitives said...

nothing can derail us faster than when our kids suffer. I am going to say a prayer for you right now. If there is anything else I can do, please let me know.
Hugs,
Mary

Me, Only Better said...

((hugs)) and prayers for strength for you, health for you kids.

Autumnforest said...

Lyn;
You take care of yourself and the kids. If they are sick often, could it possibly be the house making them ill? I ask that because over time, doctors begin to look at the building and the pets in the house as possible culprits. It appears you need to have a talk with the neighbor. I have had this issue too and our city does nothing about barking dogs, so I put an anonymous letter in the mailbox that one of their neighbors was willing to sue them and that their dogs' barking would be recorded for evidence... You just take care of your family and your health and we'll all be here whenever you need your cheering section, sweetie.

Anonymous said...

You're in my prayers, hang in there, you will get through this

PaulaM

Jenn said...

Sending you and your family healing thoughts. Proud of you for not using food to try to get through this emotionally. Hang in there! You can do this!

BrendaKaye said...

I am praying for you and your family.

Hanlie said...

I'm thinking of you during this tough time and hope that things will get better soon. Thank you for letting us know and well done for not compounding your problems by using food to cope. At the moment that is of course not your main concern, but when you look back at how you handled this, you'll be very pleased.

Deanna - The Unnatural Mother said...

Hugs and prayers for you and your family

Shelley said...

I'm sorry things are so rough right now...thinking of you, Lyn, and hoping for a better day today.

Karen said...

Lyn,

I am SO sorry you are going through such a tough time. But you are SO strong and you WILL get through this all. One step at a time. One obstacle at a time. And in the meantime, treat yourself well and get some REST when you can!!!!

Debbie said...

I am so sorry that you are having a bad time. I hope things get better for you soon.

VeeGettingHealthy said...

You and your family will be in my thoughts. Can someone come over and "spell you" for a couple of hours? Maybe go sit in a jacuzzi or swim some laps in a pool? I love my Kid but when he had chicken pox, a good friend came over to take over for me so I could at least grocery shop and take a deep breath. It is NOT wrong. You'll be better able to care for your child afterwards.

Vee at http://veegettinghealthy.blogspot.com

abbysinthe said...

I'm a silent reader, rarely commenting, but I just want to know my thoughts,prayers & big big hugs are with you. I'm hoping you'll see better days ahead. I continue to be amazed by your strength, courage, fortitude, and determination. You're a wonderful, strong, intelligent woman and you'll get through all this. This too shall pass. xoxo

LHA said...

There is a saying: "A mother is only as happy as her least happy child" which can apply to illness too. We never feel better than our sickest child does. My heart goes out to you. If there is anyone nearby who you can turn to for help, please do. It is times like this that my friends have literally pulled me through. All of us out here in cyberspace are rooting for you and your children.

Anonymous said...

Here's hoping things look up for you soon! It's good to express your feelings. Sometimes that's all we can do.

Jennifer said...

Lyn-not sure if its the same but my daughter had a stomach/digestive virus (so the dr said) and it lasted 6 whole days. Six days of vomiting and diarrhea(sometimes),stomach pains and crying, not eating, lack of sleep(for us both). And with her virus it did seem to get worse at the end. Odd... How long has she been sick? I sure hope she feels better soon. I thought we were out of the woods but then my 2 year old woke up yesterday and threw up. The saga begins again...

I am praying for your son. Hang in there. I was just saying today that not being able to get out of the house (because the kids are sick) really plays mind games. It makes me cranky and I am sure that is part of your mood. Maybe just go outside for a bit and get some fresh air. Hopefully that helps.
Stay positive and congrats for being in control of your eating. And you are right...people on here really do care :)

Jennifer
http://wecanlosethepounds.blogspot.com/

MargieAnne said...

Hoping you get some extra ZZZZ during the day.

Maybe a change in Dr. for your son, while frustrating and stressful right now is for the best. I pray so.

Sending loads of love and good thoughts your way.

Remember the oxygen instructions when flying. 'Mothers put on you own oxygen mask before attending to your children.' This is so hard to do but essential if you are all to survive.

Blessings

I am a little hesitant writing this knowing your past religious experiences have not been good but I want to remind you God is good. I know it doesn't always seem that way but He doesn't send us the bad stuff. He does help us through. Loving your children as you do, helps to understand how much more God loves them, (and their Mum's), and He wants the very best for you all.

couturekitty said...

I am praying for you and your children.

SeattleRunnerGirl said...

Lyn, I'm so sorry you are having such a rotten time right now. I will be praying for you AND for your kids.

Ice Queen said...

Lyn, I am so sorry that you are under so much stress. I know that there isn't really anything I can do but I can send you a *hug*.

Hang in there, sweetie.

Megan said...

Know that my prayers are added those already sent up for you and your kids.
Hugs-
Meg

Pubsgal said...

Sending healing thoughts to you and your family, Lyn! That's the worst, when the kids are sick and one feels helpless to make it all better. Hope everything improves soon!

Anonymous said...

Lyn, you are in my thoughts and prayers as well as those of your hundreds of readers. We are ALL rooting for you! I can't say that enough! You have done so much for all of us with your thoughtful, thought-provoking, insightful, and heartfelt blog posts. You and your family are going to make it through this! You have been through a lot in your life, more than your fair share of hard times but you have always come out on the other side as a strong, beautiful, and compassionate person! Wishing all the best to you and yours.

M Pax said...

My best for full recoveries for your children and quick. You are strong and a good patch is on the way. Hope it comes your way very soon.

Lynna said...

Lyn,
How can we be community for you? (besides offering words of encouragement and prayers.) You have been so strong and have offered so much of yourself that has been edifying to so many, could we give back to you? If you were to set up an account, I'd gladly contribute to helping you get some temporary help. (Just somebody to come in and clean your house, or watch your daughter while you go for a walk, or whatever you need.) Please think about asking us for this and letting us be blessed to alleviate some of your stress. Much Love, Lynna

Stephanie Hill said...

Praying for you and your family.spr

Lyn said...

You are all so kind and it means a LOT to me to come here and read the kindness, prayers and support. I cannot thank you enough.

Lynna~

That is very sweet of you. If I ever had to ask the blogging community for anything other than prayers, it would more likely be if my son ends up needing a transplant. I'd beg for people to be tested to see if they're a match as a living donor (if my family wasn't a match). And for now I will just say:

Please say yes to being an organ donor, on your drivers license or however your state/country works. Heaven forbid anything happen to ANY of us, but organ donors (and blood donors) save lives.

Spaghetti Cat said...

((((((hugs))))))) so many hugs to you Lyn <3

Dee said...

Found your blog in search of weight loss inspiration. So sorry to hear of this stressful time and hope you get some answers soon.

Just wanted you to know how much I enjoy your blog and all the recipes and info too! You look amazing in your recent pics. Overcoming food issues is so difficult, but as you go through this period of stress don't punish yourself or your body by turning to food!

You look great! I'm sure you are feeling (physically) great too!

Anonymous said...

Lyn - you are stronger than you know - you've been thru tough times before and you know - the sun always comes up again tomorrow and will bring you warmth and courage to carry on yet another day. your kids need you to be strong for them and that you are!!!!.. this tough time will pass as they always do and you'll be amazed yet again that you've survived yet another ordeal.. xoxo Patty

spunkysuzi said...

Lyn you know my e-mail please feel free to e-mail me and vent all you want :) I have an open ear!!

Lanie Painie said...

As with everything, this too shall pass.

It's okay to be sad, to be frustrated, to be scared. We're hear to listen.

Lynna's post says it all.

Julie Lost and Found said...

thinking of you and said a prayer for you today. Hang in there!

Anonymous said...

Praying for you Lyn,

Mother of Many

Anonymous said...

Lyn..Just another reader who finds you to be an amazing mom and person as well as an inspiration of the highest order! Sick kids are the very scariest thing I can think of and do remember. You are not alone. We are here and prayers are with you. Ask for strength when you need it and you will find it. I promise.
Slimslampam

Anonymous said...

I'm seeing you in the Light, Lyn, and your family with you. Please keep us updated.

Marie

globalmom said...

Lynn--so sorry you're going through this. My daughter just had to have a root canal today and I felt like I'd rather it was me. I can't imagine what you're going through...I sure wish I was your neighbor and could come over and give you some relief! Take care of yourself--I'm sending good thoughts your way!

MB said...

I wish I lived close to you so I could be there to lend a hand, give a hug or a shoulder to cry on. I'm praying for you and your children and hope things start getting better soon.

Greek Girl from Queens said...

Lyn, I know that you feel that things and life are out of control at the moment, but also keep this thought with you: that this, too, shall pass.

Lyn, you are a loving, strong, generous human being with a kind and generous heart, and a loving, giving mother to your children, and you have been through so much turmoil and distress and despair, so feeling as you're feeling right now is completely understandable, compltely normal.

But I believe, just as I've seen it in my own life, that you will come through this, and you will get through this, even though it doesn't feel like that right at this moment. While I don't have children of my own, I do know, all too well, heartache, worry, despair, distress, hopelessness, anxiety, and feeling out of control within my own self.

Just try, with every bit of strength you can muster after all the exhaustion, to believe in your own strength, your own inner power, and of course, God's love.

As difficult if not seemingly impossible to believe when things are going so wrong and you're feeling so down and exhausted emotionally, physically and mentally, try your best to believe that things will get better. Hold on to your heart, to your faith, to your beautiful children - all that love will collectively help you through this. I truly do believe this, with all my heart.

I wish I could be there to comfort you, to hug you, to help you in whatever way I could. But do know that all of us are sending loving, positive thoughts and prayers your way, for you and for your children, that all will turn out okay for all of you.

We are here for you, collectively. God bless you, Lyn, and may tomorrow be a better day.

beerab said...

*BIG HUGS*

I'm keeping you in my prayers and wishing for the best for your family!

Anonymous said...

Is there anyone who can lend a hand to you while this is going on? Perhaps a good neighbor?

My thoughts are with you and your family Lyn.

hugs,
Theresa