Thursday, April 22, 2010

You, Too, Can Lose 0 Pounds in 20 Months (and be happy about it)!

This morning, I had a very exciting weigh-in. I knew it was coming, but oh, what a long time coming it was. Today, I weigh 214 pounds.

Here is a graph of my weight from August 4, 2008 through today: a complete picture of what happened with my weight for the past 20 months. I weighed 214 on both ends of this graph, and everything from 225 to 245 in between:


When I look at that graph, I see the struggle. I see that I never gave up. I worked, I lost weight, then succumbed to a binge and regained. Repeatedly. But for the first time in my life, I kept fighting. I didn't regain all the weight and then some.

Back in August 2008, I made a special post for my 1-year 'bloggiversary' in which I posted before and after pictures of me weighing 278 and 214 pounds. That was the year BEFORE the chart above, when my graph showed a steady downward trek totalling 64 pounds. When I look at those incredible pictures now, it is hard to believe I weigh 214 again. For twenty months I have wished and worked and wanted to weigh 214 again, sad that I let it get away from me, and wondering if I would ever be able to get back there again. And here I am. Wow.

What I want you to take away from this post and seeing this graph is that it might take time... a lot of time. It will probably take a lot of work and dedication. There might be a lot of ups and downs. But you *can* reach your goals. Really. It took me 20 months to go from 214 to... 214. But it was SO worth it. I learned so much about myself. My life is a hundred times better. My head is on straight and I *think* I am finally getting a grip on the whole binge eating thing (binge free for almost 8 weeks now). Think where I would be if I had given up. I will tell you where. I'd be about one hundred pounds heavier than I am now. I can tell you that because of my prior track record of losing and then quickly regaining ALL the weight and adding another 20 or 30 or more pounds to it.

In 2008, I weighed 214 for all of 3 days before bouncing back up into the 220s. This time, I hope to weigh 214 for a few days again... before leaving it behind and moving on to 213, 212, 211, and beyond. I am so excited. I love life :)

Thank you for being here to celebrate with me. Thank you!

49 comments:

Diana said...

Congratulations Lyn, you're doing so great! :)
And yes, perseverance is definitely the key here :)

Debbie said...

Congrats, you have really stuck with it. The graph really shows your struggle but you did great.

Laurie (GastricGirl.com) said...

The self awareness you are getting is invaluable, and will help you soooo much in the future!! I'm looking forward to seeing your chart drop more and more!
Congratulations!! :)

Hallie said...

Graph looks great from October on! Congrats, keep it up!

Stacie said...

congratulations lyn. you are doing this this time. you are worth the effort. it so inspiring to see that even though you may have gained, you did not give up.

fatlittleblackdog said...

You speak a lot of sense and I really believe that this time you can release yourself from the cycle. Keep it up.

BD

Shelley said...

I'm so happy for you!!! Congratulations, Lyn - onward and downward!

that TOPS lady said...

I read this at exactly the right time. See, we are going on a "date weekend" starting tomorrow and I have the CELEBRATE mentality and my brain keeps telling me to enjoy this time by not counting calories and by driving to sonic to get a big milkshake! BUT..........your post reminded me........of the struggle. I have struggled, struggled, struggled....still struggle with these crazy few pounds that are keeping me above 300. My first goal is to weigh less than 300. The closest I have gotten is 300.75 for ONE day, then I shot back up and fluctuate mostly between 303-310. One year ago I went to SRD for TOPS and I was losing well and I just knew that by this time I would have lost a TON of weight. However, this year's SRD is in EIGHT days and I'll be happy to just be below 300. STRUGGLE! So, what makes me think I can drink milkshakes and blow off counting calories and STILL make that goal? CRAZY and INcorrect thinking. THANK YOU for this post which woke me up from my milkshake dream. I have something to work for. Now I am going to get off my booty and go exercise! You are an inspiration!

Fluffy said...

Congrats. You are really enjoying life. You can tell by your blog! I am trying your lima bean recipe tonight. Go Lyn!

Lisa said...

Congrats! It is definitely better to not have lost a lot then gain it back plus more, the whole yo-yo thing. That is harder on your body than any weight is.

I can't wait to be down to 214 and hope to be there in a few months. Keep up the good work. You inspire me.

kathyj333 said...

I really needed your post. I have been struggling to get back to where I was a year ago. Thank you for showing me it can happen.

Jenn said...

I love today's blog title. I love that you have a great sense of humor and I'm so unbelievably happy for you! Congrats! :)

Autumnforest said...

You are so right. We don't learn things quite as quickly as we age as when we were little tots. We definitely have to allow that we're living adult lives with relationships, losses, stres, finances, work, etc., and still trying to live a mindful life when most of the time we'd like to just put on some blinders. So, yes, over time we should learn things in dribs and drabs. You are right!

Laryssa said...

Congratulations on 8 weeks binge free!! It's that determination you show each day that some folks who have never been obese don't understand. They figure if we didn't lose the weight after a couple of tries, we should just give up. Well, you're our example as to why none of us should give up. You'll get to your goal weight, though it will take longer than you had first hoped. The important thing is you haven't given up and your continued determination is now showing in full force.

This is your year, Lyn, so celebrate your successes!!

Theresa said...

Ringing bells, clashing symbals, hooting hurahs! :D

redballoon said...

Lyn,
Kudos to you!!!
And tell me, where did you get the nifty graph?!

Lyn said...

redballoon~

the graph was made on sparkpeople.com. It makes free graphs of weight, measurements, etc. Very cool :)

redballoon said...

Lyn,
Thank you. I'll check it out.
I am so happy for you and your success!

Barbara

wahoostampingirl said...

Congratulations on getting back to 214! I love that you have shared the past 20 months of struggle on your blog rather than just disappearing into cyber space. I can't wait to read your post about getting below 200!

Mishe@EatingJourney said...

I love this post, because it's exactly what I could write about my weight. I got down to 168 and then through bingeing, emotional eating, I gained 30lbs back. So, I am up at 198lbs right now. And you know what? I have learned SO much, just like yourself. Thanks for sharing this. I love LOVE your insight and determination. It's SO refreshing. You could have beaten yourself up, rather you took it as a learning opportunity and have moved on. Kudos.

Tara said...

Congratulations! You have the absolute right attitude Lyn... what is the alternative? Getting back up to where you were before is not an option! Keep soldiering on and you will make it! Just think -- where you are NOW is a weight goal I am trying to achieve!

Leslie said...

Beautiful! I remember when you got to 214 before - I'd just started reading you. When I read your title, I knew you were back there!! :D Very exciting indeed. So happy for you.

Lissa said...

I celebrated your triumph by eating spaghetti squash for the first time :) Congratulations, you're worth it!

Zoe Dunn said...

I'm so thrilled for you Lyn! It gives me so much hope - it's an awful feeling to have lost then gained again, never quite sure if you've got it in you to lose again. Thanks for your blog, I love it!

letterstokiki said...

Good for you! I love your attitude. I've been on the same roller coaster and I feel, like you do, that I've learned a lot about myself. I'm not yet where I want to be, but I am learning and working hard every day and there's nothing more satisfying than that!

MargieAnne said...

You've taught us all a great lesson in sticking to your ultimate goal when the going got tough.

I could have done with some of this determination over the years.

You are teaching me never to give in and I'm learning more every day about this 'forever' life.

CJ said...

Congratulations Lyn! You've earned it! Keep going strong!

Erin said...

Congratulations! You should be happy about it and proud of it. I've found that weight loss and debt reduction (our journey right now) have so many parallels. I needed your post...we've been off-track and on-track, but never quit working at it. Thank you for validating efforts that don't seem to show results but really show everything!

Tammy said...

I love your "never give up" attitude Lyn....you're such a winner. :)

Karyn said...

Lyn, I have tears in my eyes. Congratulations! You have come a long way, Girl...the scale tells next to nothing!

I'm so proud of you!

Dinah Soar said...

Yes you can be happy-- because you not only have progressed in losing the regained weight, but your knowledge has increased, you now understand what was tripping you up--the binges. Cutting back on calories and then going overboard is a wash, a sum zero. Like saving money for a month, then spending it all in one day, or worse spending it all and using your credit card as well.

You now KNOW you can lose..that there is not anything wrong with your metabolism. You KNOW your issue was behavioral--you've figured that out. You also KNOW that some of your previous food choices fed/fueled to some degree your cravings/binges.

"Know thyself" is crucial as you have discovered. Too many people don't take the time to figure out why they are overweight aside from the obvious--eating too many calories. But one must go beyond that simple equation and figure out his personal failings/particulars relative to the equation AND address them in a productive way--which means a way he/she can live with. You've done that.

Armed with your knowledge that you can lose weight like everyone else (I remember reading a post way back when, in which you lamented that you were unable to lose weight like others did--I think we've all felt that way at some point)--and what triggers your cravings you have the weapons to fight the battle of the bulge and win the war.

Results Not Typical Girl said...

Hi! I'm new to your blog. I read about it on Shelley's. Thanks for the honesty and humor, it made me smile. We've never met but reading your post made me feel like I was catching up with an old friend. Best of luck and hugs. I'm a blogging newbie (1 month). I'd love for you to stop by and say hi sometime! ;) Have a great weekend and thanks again! -Kirsten

www.Results-Not-Typical-Girl.com

✯FiTCETERA✯ said...

Lyn, I remember all of that. I'm so happy for you that you're in this good place and succeeding!!!!
You deserve ALL of this and more ... and you will go all the way this time. You have it in you to do this.

georgia said...

Lyn, CONGRATS! I've been following you for a while now, but this post really hit a cord with me! You know what they say; it's all about the journey! You are doing so well and have inspired me in so many ways. I relate to every word you type! And I’ll be cheering you on as you continue to see the numbers drop, but more importantly in your journey to get to where you need to be!

ClistyB said...

[nudge, nudge] gonna post some recent pics now? The transformation is SO very neat to see.

Sheilagh (60 x60) said...

I love your attitude:o)
I love your perserverance:o)
I am learning so much from you:o)

Thank You

Badger said...

Amazing news! Keep going - I know you'll be seeing onderland before you know it.
I admire you x

emmabovary said...

Cool chart!

Look at all your learned! That is essential to this journey and you seem to have truly integrated the lessons the past 2 years have given you.

I keep a post it in my daytimer: "The recovery has to cost you something so you are never tempted to go back there again". You've understood the cost of the behaviors over the last 2 years and now you will never go back...bravo!

Keep going...keep feeling this high. Remember it.

Deniz said...

Said it before and I'll say it again. You are one wonderfully inspirational lady, Lyn.

I can hardly wait until I see you hit the 'ones' and that's going to happen real soon :-)

Fat Grump said...

I am REALLY pleased for you Lyn! You deserve such a big pat on the back for showing us that it IS possible to keep on keeping on even in the face of adversity. I am sure many of us would have thrown in the towel when our weight started creeping back up.

YOU have inspired me, and many others I am sure, to keep trying,to keep going and to be open to our emotions and what it is that is keeping us overweight. That graph is an amazing testament to your strength. I want to hug you.

Not only do I send you my congratulations, I also send you my thanks. You are amazing. x x x

Kel said...

Just wanted to say I love your blog, been following it for a long time, first comment. Keep going!

Jessica said...

You're on an amazing journey and I'm so proud of you! Contrats, enjoy, be happy! Happy Friday!

Renee said...

We're so very proud over here! Your progress has been so steady and amazing to watch.

Can't wait for more photos and a Medifast two month review!

Renee
PR Coordinator
Medifast, Inc.

Lyn said...

ClistyB~

I took some pictures last week when I hit 218. They're posted on the sidebar under "60 Pounds Gone...Again!"

More coming at 208 :)

happyfunpants said...

Congrats, Lyn! I can't wait to see you get out of the 200s! :) What a big milestone that will be! :)

Laura said...

Lyn,
This post made me cry. I hope to possess the insight and heart of thanksgiving that you have witnessed to in this post. THANK YOU.
I will take this tool that you have passed on and put it to good use.

stephseef said...

incredible, lyn. you're my hero today. totally.

The Fat Chick said...

congrats Lyn!! Good on you for sticking with it. Onwards and downwards

Christina S. said...

This is wonderful and I hope that you never give up. This is proof that with hard work and dedication you CAN achieve your goals! Thank you for all that you do in sharing your journey with people. It makes a real difference to know that there are others out there dealing with similar struggles and it's always a great pick-me-up to see someone else's success!