This morning I weighed in. I have completed 6 full weeks on Medifast. I stepped on the scale and saw 217 pounds! Last Sunday I weighed 220, so that is another 3 pound loss for a total of 17 pounds in 6 weeks. That made me very happy! I have longed to be this weight for over a year and a half and finally here I am, enjoying life and feeling amazing. And then the little voice started:
"Yeah but you didn't lose ANY weight last week. You should've lost way more this week. Not 3 measly pounds."
"Yeah but you weighed 219 on April first so that is only TWO lousy pounds gone so far this month. Two pounds in 11 days is NOT good. Failure!"
"Yeah but you coulda lost two pounds in a day just going potty. Hahahaha! Two pounds is nothing."
At this point I shut YeahBut down, put the little voice in a bottle like a bothersome genie, corked it, tossed it, and said to myself, "Self, I am so proud of you. You have stuck with your plan for six weeks straight without fail. You have not binged once in six weeks. And you even strength trained your upper body TWICE this week. Yes, self, I am very proud of you!"
And then I smiled and gave myself a hug.
I feel wonderful. This morning I fit into some jeans that did not fit me at all last month, and wow, they look great on me! My butt even looks good! I am getting a lot more interaction and attention when I go out. At first I wondered if it was just my confidence drawing people in, but several times I have been obliviously loading groceries into my car or scanning shelves for an item I wanted when men just walked up to me and struck up pleasant conversations out of the blue. That never, NEVER happened to me at 278 pounds. I hate that weight makes such a difference, but it does seem to, and I have to admit it is nice to be treated like a "normal" person out in public. Too bad people can't treat everyone the same. But I do feel good. I also started taking a sublingual B vitamin complex this week because my energy has been pretty low for a couple of weeks... actually, since last fall. It has made a world of difference in both my mood and energy! I take one dropperful a day and am feeling like myself again.
I see a lot of people who get upset when they don't lose a lot of weight each week. No matter what the eating plan is, we all want results. Just like on the Biggest Loser, where we see people crying because they "only" lost 4 pounds that week, we set up expectations for ourselves and if we don't get what we want, we might feel like it isn't worth it. But you know, it is worth it. Because it is about getting healthier and not eating junk and conditioning our bodies. It is about LONG term results, not one week or one month. It's about not having unrealistic expectations and accepting that weight loss can take a really long time. I see people on Medifast who think that because *some* people drop 5 or more pounds every week on the plan, that their "measly" 2 or 3 pounds a week is a failure. I see people quitting all sorts of plans and going off and going back to eating junk and regaining weight because they aren't losing "fast enough." Actually, I think it is a sign of maturity to NOT always base your actions around what the scale says. Sure, if you have a long plateau it is wise to examine your eating, switch up your exercise, and perhaps tweak or change your plan, but what sense does it make to give up and eat junk because you "only" lost one pound this week?
So I see my loss, I see my weight, I feel good, I am happy. Even if I lose 5 pounds a month that is awesome! It will get me to my goal. Quitting will not.
Life is so good and I am very pleased with myself. My arms are getting stronger. And I can't wait to make some yummy cauliflower pizza for dinner tonight!
*FTC-required disclosure: Medifast provided me with its products for my personal use for free. Medifast states an "average weight loss of up to 2 to 5 pounds a week."*
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