Thursday, April 8, 2010

No Fried Potatoes: on Food Addiction

I have a problem with food, it's clear. When I was regularly bingeing, it didn't really take much to set me off. I could see a commercial or a magazine ad, or someone could mention the word "brownies" and that was it! I was off making huge bowls of brownie batter and eating it as fast as I could. I had my favorite binge foods that I turned to regularly. I'd alternate sweet with salty and then back again. My typical binge foods were:
Pizza Rolls dipped in Ranch
Hot fresh bread & butter
Cakes, cookies, pastries, candy bars, donuts, cookie dough, brownie batter, brownies
Pringles, Lays potato chips, crunchy Cheetos
Fast food (mainly McDonald's Big Macs & fries)
Cheddar cheese, cream cheese, any cheese
Hot dogs on rolls, salami & mayo on white bread
High fat ice creams like Haagen Dasz or Ben & Jerry's

Don't get me wrong, I could binge on anything. When I kept all those kinds of food out of my house, if I got an overwhelming need to binge, I would mix up flour or Bisquick or anything with a white flour in it, make a rough dough, and deep fry it in canola oil, eating it slathered with butter and honey. Or I'd make myself a bowl of croutons and cover it in Ranch and eat that. If I wanted to binge I would use anything I could find (although I rarely binged on fresh fruits & veggies).

But look at my list. It's all simple carbs... refined stuff, processed stuff, super-salty-greasy stuff. The combo of FAT and SALT and SUGAR made me high. I never understood that this effect was REAL and not imaginary until I read The End of Overeating.

When I was eating a healthy, whole foods diet, I sometimes included some of the things on that list. I'd have some dark chocolate once in awhile, or a pudding that had sugar in it. I'd have baked chips occasionally. Once in awhile I even ate a hot dog. I love cheese; it is one of my favorite foods, so I would enjoy an ounce with crackers once in awhile. And they did not trigger me.

I know what triggers me (besides thoughts of an addicted mind). Exposure to food triggers me when it hits a certain level. I have found that I can be in a restaurant and see others eating stuff I shouldn't have, but I am ok. On vacation I watched my daughter eat a bowl of ice cream for a half hour (she is a painstakingly slow eater AND only has had ice cream a handful of times in her life so she savors it) and I was okay. I can bake calzones or homemade pizza for my kids and I am ok. I can go grocery shopping and walk past all the ice cream and *usually* I am ok. I say usually, because it's like I have a saturation point for food exposure, and once I reach that point I have to get away or I will flip out. It's a phenomenon that is most easily identified when it happens in the grocery store. I'll be going along, la de da, doing my shopping. If I take a few minutes in each aisle and glance around, I start to notice things: the new cookies I have never tried, the pizzas, the million kinds of ice cream. I see rolls and donuts and cakes. And if I *look* at the stuff too much, about halfway through my shopping I start to feel anxiety rising in my core. I suddenly feel like, "I have to get out of here." The exposure to all those foods is just too much. I literally have to leave.

It happens if I see too much food at once, like when I was on vacation. I was surrounded by pizzas and cookies and ice cream. Everywhere I went people were shoving free food at me. I was smelling waffles and sausage and freshly baked cookies at every turn. Even when we were outdoors the vendors came with their hot dogs and nachos. I was FINE at the time... I honestly just breezed on by without even considering eating any of it or wishing I could. They did not bother me AT THE TIME, but then when I came home and had to go grocery shopping and see all the food it started to build a little, and then when I got a graphic email offering pies and candies of every sort, I had a fit. I wanted to binge in the WORST way. It was all just too much... the exposure. And remember, I had shopped for Easter candy earlier in the week as well. So I guess my food exposure limit was reached that week and it made me a little crazy for an hour or two, but I came and blogged instead of bingeing and I got through it okay.

What to learn from this? I learned I must be more careful about exposing myself to the objects of my old binge desires. A recovering alcoholic cannot succeed if he goes to bars every night and tries to practice abstinence, nor can he do well if he surrounds himself with bottles of vodka at home. I need to be aware of my limitations, avoid the bakery counter in stores altogether, and try to keep my food exposure down to a tolerable level. If that means shorter shopping trips and skipping some aisles altogether, so be it.

So what about the fried potatoes? Well, I had a revelation. I have been binge free for 6 weeks now. A new record, I think. So this gives me time to think with a 'clean brain' about which foods are a problem for me.

Ask yourself: what food sets you over the edge every time? What food can you NOT control yourself around?

Obviously for me I am ok with a bit of chocolate or even a small slice of homemade cake once in awhile. Even cheese, which is a HUGE binge food for me (I have eaten half pound blocks of cheese in one sitting EASILY. I think I have eaten 3/4 lb of cheese in 20 minutes before, with crackers) is something I can *carefully* enjoy in moderation. One ounce of cheese doesn't make me nuts.

What makes me nuts? Fried potatoes. Fried white potatoes, in any form, make me insane. They are like the pinnacle of my food addiction. They are my crack. NOTHING spins my head like fried potatoes: chips, french fries, hash browns, potato skins, whatever. Take a white potato and deep fry that sucker and Lyn is gone and a crazy addict is in her place, eating everything in sight. I cannot stop at ONE french fry or chip. I have eaten INSANE amounts of fried potatoes:

I'd go to restaurants that have "endless fries" and eat plate after plate after plate until the waitress's eyes were popping out at me as I asked for more, more, more. I always dipped them in Ranch.

I'd pay my kids to walk to 7-11 and bring me back 2 cans of Pringles and I'd eat both cans in one sitting.

I'd drive thru two different McDonalds in one day just to get two super sized fries and if the fries were not HOT and perfect I would drive BACK through and ask for more (after I had eaten half the order).

I'd slice up 3 or 4 big potatoes at home and fry them in oil, top them with melted cheese, salt, sour cream and bacon AS A SNACK.

I'd cut up 3 or 4 large potatoes and deep fry them and salt them, eating them ALL dipped in mayonnaise and ketchup.

I'd take potato skins, fry them in oil and then make nachos out of them.

I'd buy a bag of Lays chips... a BIG bag... and eat every single chip by myself in one sitting.

I'd go out to breakfast and order "loaded stuffed hash browns" which are a gigantic plate of fried potatoes stuffed with cheese and sour cream and bacon.

I have a real problem with fried potatoes. And I KNOW it is a *real* issue. I can eat a baked potato, even with butter and salt and sour cream, and be fine. I can eat half and leave the rest. I can eat BAKED french fries and be okay. I can eat baked potato chips and have no noticeable effect. I can eat sweet potatoes, no problems. Boiled, mashed, steamed... all other kinds of potatoes are yummy but NOTHING and I mean NOTHING affects me in the way that fried potatoes do. Like I said... crack. They affect me ten times worse than candy bars, cookies, or pizza.

Second runner up for my personal crack is: donuts. I don't even LIKE donuts that much, but they *do* something to me. I have bought 6 donuts at a time and eaten them one right after the other within minutes of leaving the store, only to want MORE. I am NEVER satisfied with donuts. I always want more... not ONE more, but many, many more. And thus the "fried dough" issue I mentioned before: when faced with a sense of *needing* to binge, I'd turn to homemade fried dough. EVEN if it didn't taste good, I'd eat the whole batch. Donuts and fried dough do something similar to my brain, but nothing, NOTHING is as addicting to me as fried potatoes.

Kessler, in the book mentioned above, talks about how a combination of sugar, fat, and salt has a profound effect on the opioid circuits of the brain. It behaves very similarly to the brain of a drug addict. When you FRY a potato, it is infused with fat. The potato breaks down quickly into sugar. And there is ALWAYS salt on that potato. I don't even *like* unsalted fries or chips. The salt is essential for the effect I get when eating it. I am sure I am much more sensitive to some of these foods than most people are; plenty of people eat chips or fries and don't binge into oblivion. I come from a long line of boozers; I quit drinking when I was 17 because I didn't want to become "like them" (the alcoholics in the family, my mother included). Maybe my brain is more sensitive to those kinds of stimuli; I don't know, but I am not willing to start drinking a bunch of alcohol, smoking dope, or eating french fries again to find out.

So when I had this revelation, I make a decision: no fried potatoes. Ever. I think this is one food I have *got* to put in the Completely Off Limits bin (along with Taco Bell and McDonalds and probably Coke). I am pretty sure I have never eaten fried potatoes moderately. In fact when I think of them I have a weird "oooh I want to binge" vibe that goes on. That doesn't happen with cake, or pizza, although I *can* binge on them. It's the fried potatoes that seem like they could grab me and drag me under, back into the abyss of morbid obesity and binge addiction.

No fried potatoes. I am pretty sure that if you ever see me eating a fried potato it will mean I've had a relapse. And I don't want that to happen. I want to be in control of myself. I AM a food addict, but I am NOT addicted to carrots and chicken breasts and brown rice. I am not addicted to spinach and almonds and peaches. I DO NOT have to expose myself to foods that I AM addicted to, and neither do you. If you have a problem with food, it is not *every* food. Make a list of the foods that send you spiralling out of control, and abstain from them, like an alcoholic from alcohol. You CAN be a food addict and eat without losing control, *if* you do not try to put the "addiction" blanket over every food in the world. There are very specific foods that give you problems, and you can be abstinent from them.

This whole thing... the binge eating, the compulsive eating, the addictive eating... it is HARD. But I truly believe it can be overcome with a lot of hard work and self analysis. I know I could end up regaining the weight I've lost if I start to binge again, so I am trying to be mindful of ALL my triggers, mental and physical. It's a lot of work but SO worth it. YOU are worth it. We all are.


Kyle Gershman said...

Perhaps we should look at food allergies a bit differently. An allergy is a reaction to a specific agent. While you don't have hives, itching, swelling from fried potatoes, you have an insatiable craving that develops. Perhaps you are really allergic in a very strange way to fries and are having a reaction. Just a strange thought that popped into my head.

Since I have allergies to walnuts and brazil nuts, its easy to say no to those foods and foods made with them. I have to.

I totally know where you are coming from.

I'm allergic to buffets. I can overeat at a salad bar. Pretty much any venue which provides a mass quantity of food that I feel the overarching need to get the best "value" I can for my money.

I don't go to any buffets/smorgasboards and I'm even thinking I can't even hit a salad bar without it becoming a contest in making the owner regret offering "all you can eat" style eating.

I'm very controlled in almost any other situation.

Oy vey.

anne h said...

When I get off track -even a little bit - I get so depressed that I can't stop the tears....funny - I'm not even sad - just can't stop crying.
Must be coming off of ketosis?
Insights can be great when they just come to you.

Diana said...

We are worth it, for sure.

I don't know if I have a specific food that makes me want more. I love bread and do try to eat it only once a week, just because it's so calorie heavy and I'm afraid I'll want more once I have a piece. But at the same time, because I don't react as strongly as you do to your "trigger foods", I still eat it because if I deprive myself that'll be worse.

But I agree completely. If some foods lead to that kind of behavior the best thing is definitely not even having it in the house.

He Took MY Last Name said...

I have the same problem in the grocery store, especially the aisle of candy or the bakery. I usually drag my husband along, and I close my eyes, have him take my hand, and guide me through the aisle. I avoid the frozen pizza/ice cream aisle because they are one and the same, so i just skip on by. The baking supplies is a hard one for me too. I want frosting so bad. LOL

Julie said...

an insightful blog lyn. thank you for making me think about this. when i go to the supermarket i say away from the inside aisles because that's where the junk food is.

Beth said...

I read your blog all the time- I am about 280 pounds and miserable, but I am exactly the same way with the binging on fried potatoes. Sometimes I actually feel like a drug addict, when I drive through to get some fries, or pick a restaurant where I know I will get fries. It makes me feel terrible- I'm "happy" for like 5 minutes, and then the guilt steps in. My weight has gone up and down over the past 4 years- I can trace the binging back to a time of severe depression, but I've had weight problems since middle school. Last year, I lost 45 pounds, and since have gained it all back (and then some).

It is a constant struggle, battling food addiction. Because, unlike cigarettes and alcohol, we all NEED to eat. We can't just cut out food, cold turkey- if only it were that easy! But as I struggle with my relationship to food, your blog helps to get me in the right frame of mind. You are an inspiration, so thank you!

Jack Sh*t, Gettin' Fit said...

Off limits is the only way to go, and you know it. Even a little bit of that kinda crap just primes the pump for more, I've found.

You've come a long way, Lyn (tho I'm still awaiting the topless shot).

Sonogal said...

This post really made me think. Thank you. I don't know that I have any one specific food...I don't really binge. I graze. A bit here, a cookie there, lets try this, that didn't work, try something else. Although I have been known to eat half a loaf of homemade bread, a thick slice at a time.

MargieAnne said...

I'm glad you've identified your major trigger food, and like others have said it is a kind of allergic reaction. Apparently when you have a 'food intolerance' ie. a food that does not openly make you sick, but sets you up to want more, (cravings), that is a reaction that shows there is something in that food you are allergic too. Don't ask me the science but many allergy specialists recognise it.

One reason I don't go to WW is their motto, "Everything in Moderation." It makes me angry because I know there are foods I will never eat in moderation so need to be banned. That phrase drives me crazy and keeps me away even of they do have a good, tried and true program and help many, many successful people

Trisha said...

I am so with you. I am a food junkie. I binge eat, emotional eat and just plain over eat. For me cheese of ANY kind is the devil. It has taken A LOT of therapy and a rubber band on my wrist that I used to snap when I thought I wanted to eat. I snapped my self so much for a while my DH thought I would cause nerve damage.

Now I pray. I pray some days more than others. I blog. I tweet. I call my mom. I think of my older sister who was once a Butter Butt and who now is a Barbie Doll that does triathalons.

Keep your head up and remember we are all in this together.

Anonymous said...

I finally understand the title of your blog. I finally remember my own binging, very clearly. Weird. I won't name the foods because I don't want to trigger anyone. I haven't binged for years, and yet I am still FAT. How is that possible? I feel that binging wrecked my body's ability to process food. Without the binging, my body *thinks* I'm starving, I suppose. I believe this happened because I went on one diet too many. I hope to god you never give in to your overeating again because you might not be able to change your body without EXTREME deprivation...and that is just another prison, but one from which there is no ESCAPE.

Bless you.

CJ said...

Just yesterday I let my binge win and bought a bag of Lays! After controlling for almost 9 weeks. I felt so guilty and without self worth later! I am still feeling all that. Your post really made a connection. I now know what I ought to do. I already know the list of foods that trigger binging in me.
Thanks for the great post.

Anonymous said...

i can commiserate with the food satuation, i can be soo good... for even months.. then it seems to go in overload and i binge big time. I don't think my binge trigger is a set type of food, its an emotional link, where i emotionally say I GIVE UP, here stuff your face ( i will even eat foods i hate, just to eat ).

funny i spoke to a friend earlier today, and she is trying to get back on track and said "i am past it... physically i am over the hill and cannot come back . she is 34 and only overweight and her mind has given up before shes even started .
then she pointed out some close friends who are big, and said "so and so, just figures bugger it, why bother with diets and excercise i want to eat what i want when i want"
which is the way i feel when i binge.. it is purely GIVING UP.
i don't want to give up, i love being fit, i am so close to normal weight now (bmi of 27.7, coming from a bmi of 41) and yet those thoughts still consume me regularily.. give up, give up, eat what you want, why are you bothering.

Anonymous said...

You've outlined some major points here which I've found to be true and which aren't examined enough in the mainstream obesity literature, mainly that we can be food addicts but that doesn't mean we are addicted to "all" foods. Just as a drug addict isn't addicted to all drugs: in detox a drug addict will have to stay off the heroin, but he can still have an aspirin with no triggering effect. (So the oft-cited analogy of "food detox is harder than drug detox because we *have* to eat" is actually erroneous. We do have to eat, but we don't have to eat our trigger foods, which you've stated brilliantly here. Fruit and vegetables are rarely trigger foods.)

I also find that visual cues of certain foods are triggering (again, not photos of fruit and vegetables but of my triggers which are the fatal fat+carb+sugar combos you write of). This is a tough one because I am a food and travel writer by profession and am exposed to massive amounts of food visuals during my work day.

I have found, however, that as long as I am abstinent I am less-triggered by the glossy photos I see on the food blogs. I take that as a good sign. But I know that I shouldn't view these things when hungry or tired, because they can set off my cravings.

A great insightful post which adds some new ways of viewing addiction, rather than the same old cliches we read everywhere. Thanks.

Leslie said...

Great insight. Knowing which are the truly triggering foods for each of us is vital. Your post came at a good time. I've had a good week but tried one of the new Yoplait Delights yogurt cups I've been reading about last night. It really set me off for craving sugar. Siiigh. Live and learn.

NAN said...

Hmm interesting!I don't believe I am a food addict but my portions are too large. I'm also a food snob- I really only crave homemade things except for kettle chips which call my name and ice cream. However, for Lent this year I gave up ice cream and all alcohol and really didn't have any problems. I haven't had a regular soda since Tab came out in the 60s but I do enjoy a couple of caffeine free diet cokes daily. I do know crunchy peanut butter is a red flag for me. I did well with Jenny Craig and Nutrisystem foods because of the portion control but alas, I always seem to go back to my set point weight drat it. Right now I'm concentrating on exercising more and staying out of the kitchen as much as I can!!!

Fat Grump said...

Another one of those posts which has made me think about my cravings Lyn.

I can relate to what Anon above wrote. Just recently, the other day, I was guilty of stuffing my face with foods I don't normally crave (it was ice cream and chocolate in my case.) It was as though the whole "You really shouldn't eat that" thought had to be put down...destroyed. I had to break free from this restriction so I went mad and just ate.

I know there are lots and lots of typical 'binge' foods which just don't tempt me at all. My monster is the one which tells me it's not fair that I have to limit my intake of calories. It takes over and it's like I want to spite myself and say "So there! I ATE that cake! What you gonna do about it? Ha!"

In fact, if I eat without thinking about 'dieting' I am fine. It's the 'restriction' thing which turns me into a raving, munching looney.

Diana said...

This post definitely hits home. To be successful with losing weight, I KNOW I need to eat foods that I like, but do not love. Even so, I still make the mistake and buy things I love, thinking that I will be able to control my portions. Doesn't happen. Instead it sets off the binge monster.

Enz said...

I just started reading The End of Overeating last night and could not put it down, I'm about half way through and am nodding my head and having AHA moments all the way through.

Dreidl said...

Thanks for posting and leaving those of us just beginning to tackle our overeating many things to think about. I know that as part of my process I have made a list of "never" foods and yes, fried potatoes are one of mine too. So is full fat ice cream and cereal right out of the box.
We will do this, because you are so right, we do deserve it!

mindy@thesuburbanlife said...

Just found your blog and boy am I glad I have! You are certainly informational if not extremely inspirational! I completely relate with your post and would say I'm more inclined towards an addiction with 'eating' than I am toward a certain type of food. But I am working on it. Day by day. Thank you for your encouraging words! This suburban mom with two young kids who swears she can actually *hear* Cheetos calling for her certainly needs them! (The words, not the Cheetos.) Keep up your awesome work! :)

Anonymous said...

Interesting. I used to think the same thing, once a month I would inhale a bag of potato chips, and I mean a 13 oz bag. And then... someone explained menstrual cycles and hormones and hunger. It's not the fried potatos, it's the hunger is higher and my body will find calories. If it needs to find those calories in bananas or rice, it will do that. It was a major breakthrough to realize that stress management, i.e. sleep and exercise, are huge. Still helps to eat things lower in calorie density, higher in protein and vitamins.

WaistingTime said...

I love your honesty in this post. And I agree with you! Just like any other addict, we need to avoid what we are addicted to.

edysdoll said...

Thanks! This has really put me to thinking about my own addictions, and has really helped me out!

Moongirl said...

Thanks for this post. This gives me some clarity I have been looking for. I have always thought it was sugar in general that I was addicted to, but that's not true. I can eat a piece of chocolate, but I have to eat ALL of the brownies. And donuts, too. I will definitely make this list, like you suggested. Bless you.

beerab said...

Congratulations on the 60 pound loss!

I 100% feel you on the potato thing. I literally have cut them out of my life the past few months. At first I missed them terribly but now I can pass on them :) Specially when three weeks ago I had a SMALL fry with my meal and then didn't like how I felt afterwards.

Anonymous said... are so on the money it is scary, it's just a shame it usually takes all of us so long to figure it out! In my case, 47 years!!! As of January 1, this year I have had zero sugar (I mean not even regular ketchup!) and no gluten, which bascially means, no carbs. I follow The Metablosim Miracle, which literally ended my addictions....I do not even think about those foods, let alone think about bingeing on them. NO SUGAR and extremely low carb, not even fruits because the sugar literally sends me spinning!

Shan said...

Lyn - you aren't alone. I've realized that one of my big issues is with fresh white bread. I can't stay away from it.

There are probably other things, too. I'll have to think about it for a while.

Thanks for your honesty!

Ness said...

I understand your drugs of choice. My danger food is chocolate, in any form, block, bar, cake, biscuit, slice, egg. If it has chocolate in it, it has to stay away from me.
donuts too. I have particular favourites. I stay away from those stores as much as possible.
My savoury drug is cheese, any type, love the stuff.
Sometimes I find myself craving your butternut squash macaroni and cheese!! lol, it is soooo good!!
I love reading your blog. It makes me stop and think about things. Keep on bloggin' :-)

Karen In Tennessee said...

Amazing insights as usual, Lyn. And WOW you look INCREDIBLE in your new photos. You are gettin' to be ONE skinny chick!!! LOL!!!

Keep going girl...we are all cheering for you!!

401sue said...

RE: Yesterday's post....I like that you match your socks to your shirt. IN BOTH PICTURES! I can't even find socks that match in this house.

Lyn said...


LOL!! You guys crack me up! Several commented about the matching socks and I didn't even NOTICE that they matched both times! So funny. The ones in the green pic are actually yellowish (GoldToe) socks and the ones that are pink are Thorlos! I have dark blue ones too so I will have to make sure I wear them with a dark blue shirt in the next pics just for kicks :)

Anonymous said...

I'm like you Lyn, I love fried potatoes but have quit eating them or any kind of white potato. We used to fry them up with onions and put them in a home made biscuit, then set comatose for an hour or so and sweating - now I know it was a trigger food -and the realization of the effect it had on the body - Congrats on your weight loss - keep up the good thoughts.

Vegemommy said...

I've never been a binger in the traditional sense of the word but I'm a chronic over-eater. I have always eaten large amounts of whatever tastes good to me: pasta, potatoes, salad slathered in Annie's Goddes dressing or blue cheese, pizza, nuts, and chocolate. That said, I am gaining control over my portion sizes thanks to Sparkpeople. I thank you again for that suggestion! I started at 244 pounds and I am happy to report that I am 238 right now at 12 days into my "life change." :) Keep up the good work, Lyn. You are awesome. Let's run a marathon together someday! -Heidi

courageforpeace (formerly flyingwoman) said...

Oh Lord... fried potatoes. Just typing the words makes me want them, particularly on a difficult blue night where the world has not gone according to plan.

They are my top trigger food, too. French fries, especially chip truck or fish 'n' chip fries can lure me over the edge so easily. I'll do a double order or a super large.

I finally cut chips out of my life about four years ago. I could eat a full family bag in a sitting during the afternoon and then dig into another at night. Somehow I managed to flip a switch in my head that made chips = evil and I've never bought them since. I wish I could do the same with fries.

screwdestiny said...

It shows that you truly care about your weight loss journey and about being healthy that you're willing to give up your most favorite food forever. Very inspiring.

Cynthia said...

It's funny how different we all are, yet in ways the same. Fried potatoes aren't a problem for me, because well, they are OK, but I don't like them all THAT much. I usually do not order a meal when I order fast food, but if they do hand me fries, even fries that I have not been charged for, I usually just hand them back.

Ice cream is also not a problem. I like it, I eat it a few times a year and that's enough.

But if you offered me the choice of a million dollars or giving up pizza for life, I'd have to think about that. Hard!

Yet, I don't binge on pizza exactly, I just eat 'til I'm full and then I'm done. I just eat it too often sometimes, because when you are tired, it's so nice to have the pizza guy just come and bring you FOOD!

Buffets can be a problem. I used to love salad bars. We don't have any here. It's not a salad kind o' town. But one of our friends is a Thai chef and she has recently been featured at the local casino buffet one night a week. So we go to support her. I find that I've adjusted my buffet eating, instead of stuffing myself full of everything, I just select what I want most and take a portion of each of those items. I'm still a little out of control with dessert, but I'm doing better than I used to, so I name it progress.

I think my addiction is not to any one specific food, but rather to overeating itself. I can binge on crunchy PB... and I can also eat it normally with portion control. I can binge on whole wheat bread and butter, but I can also have it in the house and not binge.

I once binged on fresh cherries. I have binged on nuts and dried fruit. I've binged on dried fruit alone. On occasion, I've eaten massive quantities of vegetables. My trouble is I like a lot of different foods and I like quantity. I can think of a zillion different things I've binge eaten in the past.

I'm working a lot on portion control lately. I do know that I binge less, and eat less when I binge than I used to do. And some things that I used to eat all the time, like Doritos chips, I never eat now, and not out of restriction, but because I simply do not want them anymore. So maybe there's hope somewhere in that. Perhaps I'll outgrow Reeses' PB cups next.

Anonymous said...

For me it's not about which food, it's about the physical, feeling sickly full. I look forward to big meals so I can feel sick-full afterwards. I purposly order the food that will make me feel full the fastest and then I eat it until I can't breathe. It can be chips (I tend not to crave salty) cookies, brownies, cake, pie, rice, pasta, ice cream, mexican, salad, veggies, fruits (I ate an entire watermelon once)... I just have to feel sickly full to be 'done'.

I've discovered this is my weakness after really paying attention to my thought process over the past few weeks when knowing I am either hungry or going to go to eat. I almost get giddy inside thinking about getting to eat. I don't know really what to do with this information now that I have it.

RedPanda said...

Interesting... Some of us definitely do have trigger foods.

I bought Mr RedPanda some fancy-ass Belgian couverture chocolate for Valentine's Day and he couldn't stop raving about it - said it was the same chocolate the Aztecs gave to their human sacrifices before they threw them in the volcano. He had to exercise great restraint not to eat it all at once.

I bought him some more for Easter and it's sitting there in the kitchen, in plain view. I am Not Remotely Interested.

But I am a complete ho for roasted almonds. I will seek them out and eat them, so he knows to hide them well - or eat them all before he gets home, more likely!

And yeah, there are many foodstuffs we no longer keep in the house.