Monday, February 22, 2010

The Clothes in the Closet

I have a lot of clothes in my closet, like most women do. And like most people who've lost a lot of weight, I have a wide variety of sizes. But it's not what you might think.

I started out this journey with a closet populated with clothes in sizes 22, 24, 26, and 28. I had tops in 2X, 3X, and 4X. And every day I would get up, see the smaller sizes and sigh as I shoved them aside to reach for the faded, worn 26/28's and 3-4X's because nothing else fit me. I had gone up the hell scale from 245 to over 280. And none of my "smaller" clothes fit me anymore. I dreamed of the day I'd be able to wear those cute 22's and 24's. It seems like just that: a dream, not a possible reality.

Eleven months after I began this blog, I had lost 64 pounds and weighed 214. I'd whizzed through those 22's and 24's into size 16 jeans and 14 (large) tops, and all of those clothes that once used to look so small were ridiculously huge on me. They went into the Fat Clothes Box and off to Goodwill or Craigslist, because I was certainly never going back *there* again. Some of the 18's and XL tops still fit relatively well, even if a little baggy, so I kept those. I sent some into the empty Fat Clothes box to be gotten rid of later.

It wasn't but a few months later that I was regaining some of the weight I'd lost. I got into the 220's and stayed there. I kept working my plan but was slipping up here and there and it just was not enough to stay under 225. I remember the day my size 16 jeans were too tight, and my size L tops a bit snug. I sadly delved into that Fat Box to retrieve the size 18's and XL's. I felt a little sad about that, but not defeated.

That was almost 18 months ago. For the past year and a half, many of you have watched me go up and down, losing and gaining the same 10-15 pounds over and over and over. It's not for lack of trying; I've blogged consistently, counted calories and eaten well 80% of the time, kept exercising unless I was injured. Giving up was never an option. It never will be.

But there's something about the clothes in the closet that is rather personal to me that I haven't shared before. After I purged my closet of Fat Clothes, I gleefully started watching for sales so I could stock up on Thinner Clothes: the smaller sizes I would need as I continued to lose weight. If I saw size 14 jeans in a style I liked on clearance, I'd buy a pair. When there was a big sale I'd stock up on size medium shirts. I even bought underwear and bras in smaller sizes so as I lost the weight I'd have super cute, nice clothes to try on and look forward to.

The Thin Clothes started taking over my bedroom. Maybe I went a little overboard, but I was so excited to be shrinking. I bought a couple of Rubbermaid tubs and neatly folded the new jeans inside them: 12's, 14's, 16's. Pretty sweaters, jackets, and blouses hang in my closet in size 10 and up. And every day, I go to my closet, see the smaller sizes and sigh as I push them aside for the faded, worn 18 jeans and XL tops because nothing else fits me.

Eighteen months. Those clothes ARE getting faded and worn. I am starting to see tiny holes in my favorite size 18 jeans, but I wear them because nothing else fits. I refuse to buy bigger sizes; I'd frankly rather go naked than do that as it is a mental "I give up" to me. But it is a heartbreak every morning when I see all those pretty new clothes in smaller sizes that are just barely beyond my reach.

I've made a decision that might not be popular, but I believe it is best for *me.* And I have to do what I believe will help me, even if I am wrong or if it isn't popular. My whole focus over this two and a half year journey has been to get to a more 'real food' diet based around the Farmer's Market and local foods. And that is *still* my long term goal. It is still what I will do for the rest of my life after I lose weight, and the way I will continue to prepare foods for my family forever. But sometime this week, I am going to start Medifast. Please hear me out, and don't think I am reaching for a Magic Pill, because we all know there isn't one. I would never have thought to do this on my own, but when Medifast contacted me and offered me their program for free, I had to consider it. Let me tell you, I get 'diet' offers every single day. Pills, potions, herbs. special equipment, everything you can imagine, and I turn them down because my policy is not to use or try anything I believe could be harmful. I get offers of hundreds of dollars *cash* to promote diet products or have links on my site to diet product websites and, even though I could use the money, I say no. This blog is about me, my weight loss journey, and helping others who are struggling. So at first I was sending the Medifast offer to the trash bin, because I know I could NOT do a liquid diet. But then I looked at the site. I won't go into details, because this is not going to turn into a "plug Medifast" blog (and they did not ask that of me), but the plan has no drugs, herbs, special potions, extra super-secret ingredients, or dangerous additives. It's just prepackaged food, period. High protein, low carb diet. And the food is stuff like chicken soup, beef stew, chili, puddings, oatmeal... not just shakes and bars (although they are available, too). What clinched it for me was that you also get to have dinner with the family, what they call a Lean & Green meal which is 7 ounces of lean meat and 3 servings of vegetables. When I saw that I'd get to have up to 3 cups of fresh veggies, I thought, hey, I could do this. This is simple. This might help me. They also offered to set me up with a nutritionist. So I decided to give it a go.

It was a tough process for me deciding to do it, but here is what I think I may gain from it:

1. A break from food prep. I have gotten *so tired* of thinking of what to eat, shopping, prepping, measuring, and counting calories for two and a half years. I think a break will do me good. Since the food is pre-measured I do not have to worry about counting calories. I just have to measure my dinner. I often have wished I could have someone just BRING me healthy foods so I could focus on other things, and this is about as close as I am going to get, unless one of you wants to move in and cook for me.

2. Focusing on other things. Instead of spending so much time and energy on food buying, planning, measuring and prepping, I think Medifast will free me up to focus on other things, like the emotional/mental reason I have not gotten below 225 in over a year. In fact, I think being on this plan and losing weight may force the real issues to the surface so I can deal with them. I still believe something is going on mentally that is the reason I haven't lost more weight. I don't know if you can understand this unless you've tried and worked to lose weight and struggled for a long time, but there is more to it than just 'eat less move more'. Some of us are paralyzed, in a way, by fear or anger or whatever other mental thing is there that keeps our hand reaching for the donut, even when we don't really want the donut.

3. Physical relief. While dropping 50-ish pounds has done wonders for my mobility, it is not enough. My knees are in very bad shape (says the orthopedic surgeon) and I need to get more weight off them *now.* I am getting injured more and more often, and if you read my blog for long you know I am in pain every single day. In order for my knees to even have a chance at healing and to stop the degeneration, I have simply *got* to get more weight off them. This is not a matter of vanity. This is a matter of mobility. I believe doing Medifast will get at least an initial chunk of weight off relatively quickly, which will be of great benefit to my knees and joints and may free me up to be more mobile and in less pain, which will in turn facilitate my weight loss in the long term.

4. The clothes in the closet. It would be such a HUGE boost to my self esteem to fit into *any* of those clothes that I have been staring at in my closet for the past eighteen months. I am tired of being sad when I look in there. I want to pull that soft, blue velour sweatshirt out of there and wear it, but I never have. It's brand new, beautiful, and too small by about ten pounds. There's a pretty green shirt in there with a defined waist that I think would be so flattering to me, but it, too, is ten pounds too small. The size 16 jeans, the blue blouse with the pretty lace in the front, the sexy black top that would flow over my body so nicely. I want to wear them. It has been long enough. The only clothes I fit in now are wearing out. I am tired of looking at my clothes and wishing. I am going to do something about it.

I hope I'll have your support in this decision, and I plan to keep writing just as I always have. I'll definitely share my experiences with Medifast and how the food tastes, but I'll also continue posting the recipes and meals I eat for dinner. If this new plan sucks, so be it. I will give it a try for at least a month and then reevaluate. Eventually, I'll work my way back to a whole foods, natural, organic meal plan. But for now, I need to do something different. Including, hopefully, posting some new progress pictures in some of those clothes in my closet.

78 comments:

Deanna - The Unnatural Mother said...

Lyn, you have to do what is best for you, your family, and your life. If this option is good for you at this point in your journey, GO FOR IT - and with much success. This might be what you need to get you over the hump. No risk no rewards! Best of luck!

Caitlin said...

As long as you're being honest about what you think of the program, good luck! You are doing what you feel is best for you, and your family, so GO FOR IT!

Tiffany said...

Good luck...
Hopefully this will be what it takes to push you down the right path.

phelpsvj said...

ridiculous.

Lori said...

I know you are probably going to hear some flack about it, but you are doing this for you and no one else. Any diet program is a tool and if this is what you need right now- go for it. You can always stop if it just doesn't seem right.

Chrissie said...

It sounds like you've really thought this decision through and you're not just looking for a quick fix - more of a jump start to get yourself ready for a life long healthy lifestyle. I've been reading your blog for a while wothout commenting, and I have admired your commitment to achieving your goal with 'real food' and exercise all this time, but if it isn't happening quickly enough for the health of your knees, I say you need to do what you need to do! I really hope this is the start of a change (for the better!!!) in your weight loss journey and that being able to focus on what's going on emotionally helps as well. Speaking as someone who's lost weight through calorie counting that was initially was helped along by Slimfast (I know, but it was a few years ago!!!) I see no problem or fault in using any and all tools that are available to you and fit in with your beliefs.
Lots of luck, I look forward to reading about your experiences and opinions of the program - and watching you celebrate each new outfit you bring out of the wardrobe!

Shelley said...

So excited for you - I wish you the best of luck and much, much success! Looking forward to seeing you in your new clothes!!!

claire said...

preparing all that food in and of itself is stressful, so shedding that stress will help immensely!

wish you the best of luck!

Cathy said...

All the best to you! I think it will bring relief, and great motivation!

I look forward to watching you do this! Good luck!

Theresa said...

100% behind you in your efforts Lyn!!! I've got clothes in my closet with tags on them too. Keep us posted of your thoughts and challenges..... I think it will be refreshing to just look the other way for a short period of time and not be so focused on every morsel you have to choose to eat.
:)

Anonymous said...

Fasting is a tool, in whatever form it takes. It can be a lifestyle. It can be a break from being exposed to food, food addictions, food behaviors that one may need to get under control. Use it as a tool to achieve a goal. Cherish the goal once its reached and treat it as a real possession that you never want to lose or misplace. Does this sound to simple? No matter the motivation (cute clothes, better health, more fun...) visualize where you want to go, where you want to be and do what it takes to stay there once you arrive. I fasted two days a week to enhance weight loss, cleanse my body and soul and to feel the hunger. Hunger is no longer my enemy. I still fast when I feel overwhelmed, exhausted and in pain, to feel the hunger when things are too disorganized, to get back to peace and purpose. It centers me and my pain goes away? And no, I did not become anorexic, I am too much of a foodie for that :-)

The cute clothes, better health and more fun were my motives. With that came more love, deeper faith and new purpose. Good luck!

Ruby Leigh said...

Despite the fact that you might see my opinion as irrelevant (ie. I'm not trying to lose weight), I wanted to share - because I hope it will be encouraging. Also, I read your blog consistently.

I think this is a smart, well cautioned, responsible idea. I don't think medifast - while a branded diet plan is in the same camp as a "magic pill type plan" . In fact it's more like a focused version on what you are doing already. Also ancedotally - I have a friend who started this same plan, She is older than you - and she has lost around 10 lbs in the first two weeks. I know you are not looking for a plug but it seems to work.

The point I think I'm making is don't worry about the naysayers - whoever they are, they are mostly likely jealous, elitist, or out of touch. You clearly thought about this a lot and you owe it to yourself to try. Best Wishes, and I look forward to hearing more about your journey however it might progress.

Autumnforest said...

I think your decision is a very honest one. The incentive you'll get from losing fast will help you, but then the last time you went down to smaller sizes, it wasn't enough to keep you out of bigger sizes again, so I suspect that like Oprah on the liquid fast diet, it'll be back again. I'd like to see you do something like Jenny Craig or even better Nutrisystem with the low glycemic foods. The key is to learn to eat those size portions and live on it comfortably. Over time, those sizes seem perfectly normal to eat and quite satisfying because as you get smaller, your body need less calories.

I totally get the clothing thing. Isn't it wild how women hold onto the skinny sizes forever but throw out the "fat" sizes the minute they go down? I hate my size 16 wardrobe sooooo much! I never ever want to have to go into Avenue or Lane Bryant again and I never want to have to buy clothing with the key desire to cover my flaws. I miss when I was skinny and I could just wear what I liked not what hid me. I finally threw out the skinny clothes but mainly because part of the fun of getting skinny again is being able to shop for new clothes. Just got into 14s now and I'm anxiously buying some new jeans. I did buy myself a goal bikini and hung it up as a reminder that I vowed on 4th of July I'd get some bikini pictures of me done. It's hard work, but I consider losing weight as kind of a second job. I just have to be as serious with it as I am with my paying job. I do hope you consider a meal plan--I think in the long run it'll teach you a lot and help you lose fast.

Drina said...

Do whatcha gotta do!

Kyle Gershman said...

For me, the greatest gift is to be confident in your own decision regardless of what your blog followers may think. You know from past comments, that you have my support, though it should be irrelevant. I hope you find the courage to believe in yourself. Believing in yourself is the true power behind getting healthy.

Weighting Around said...

Whatever it takes... that's what I believe. You will make it because you want it badly enough. Go for it, girl!

Anonymous said...

my only comment on the medifast decision is that i think the best that can come if it = another lesson, that might ultimately help you succeed at what you're doing right now anyway

i assume you won't be on it forever. that means you'll be back where you are now, at some point. you will be either better or worse at it than you were before.

i did a two-week liquid fast once, knowing it was not for weight loss and that it would not help in the long run, and when i was finished, i had a completely different (very positive) relationship with food. it was tool that was helpful.

part of the reason it was helpful is that i suddenly could not obsess about food any more. what was i going to eat? nothing. simple. bored? tired? stressed? had to deal with it- food was OUT. decision made. i had to look around and do something else with my brainpower, and realise just how stupidly small my universe had been when i was always thinking about food. very psychologically challenging, and helpful. also learned, as another comment says, that hunger is not the enemy. the only things i wanted to put in my body after the fast were clean, wholesome foods. i became a vegetarian, cut out sugar, cut out fat, cut out all white flour. felt amazing.

about a year later, i was still eating well but not as skinny as i wanted, so i decided to do another fast. it was a nightmare, i didn't get the same spiritual benefit, and a month later i was up 5 pounds. soon as the fast was finished, i was binging. on crap that i hadn't eaten in ages, that i never thought i'd touch again. very interesting. motivation matters.

i find it interesting that you're looking at all those smaller clothes, and you're sad because you're comparing yourself to them... from the same place you wished you could get to earlier. funny how we always buy more, and there's always a new comparison. that's why i don't think the buy-smaller is ever healthy. always encourages being unhappy where you are.

TAMMY said...

I wish you all the best with this new plan. Only you know what will work for you. I am new to reading your blog and I can't wait to see your continued success.

Karen in Tennessee said...

Oh Lyn, I totally support this for you. You need something to get the weight loss started again and I think this might be just the thing to get you moving in the right direction. Best of all, the rest of us get to see how it really works for YOU in case we have entertained the idea of trying it (I certainly have). I am 100% behind you and will be cheering you on all the way. Ignore any rude comments you get (I mean really, HOW DARE THEY anyway???). If they don't like it they can start their own blogs and open THEMSELVES up to endless scrutiny and they can do their weight loss plan their own way!!! I say GO LYN GO!!!!!!!!!!!

Emma said...

HI Lyn - I read your blog every day and you have my full support! I've often thought of signing up for a pre-packaged meal service for the exact same reasons as you. I absolutely know how to cook well, I enjoy booking and I know I can do it. But sometimes, when thing are tough, you need a break. I live alone and just broke up with my boyfriend and finding the energy to cook well, not binge *and exercise* seems like a tall order. Perhaps just 30 days or so of having someone else cooked well balanced meals might be a good idea! I'd be very interested to see how you go - especially making a transition back to cooking for yourself. Best of luck!

J. said...

I'm so excited for you!

Benita said...

This just may be what you need to get those extra pounds off so you can concentrate on staying healthy rather than losing weight. I think this is a wise move and I wish you the best of luck.

RedHead said...

If you read my blog, you can read about my program I started. http://kateonedayatatime.blogspot.com. It's called a PSMF (Protein sparing modified fast). It's 5 protein supplements each day (kind of exactly what you described). High protein-low carb. I started 14 weeks ago and have lost 64 pounds. That's almost 5 pounds a week average! The absolute BEST thing about this program, I don't have to make a single choice or decision. Everything is laid out for my everyday. I don't have to decide which option is healthier. I don't have to count any calories or figure out calories. It's all just laid out. I've tried everything and this was the only thing that worked- Because there is no thinking involved. Good luck and I think you'll do great!

Dinah Soar said...

Sometimes you come to the fork in the road and you have to make a choice. You did that.
You could have said forget it, I give up-- and settled for staying fat. But you chose the other path..to try something new, that you have not tried before.
This may be just the thing that will help you break through this ceiling that you can't seem to break through.

To continue what you've been doing with no results is crazy isn't it. Obviously something is not working--so changing things up just might make the difference. I hope this change will be just the thing that makes the difference for you.

-J.Darling said...

Hi! I'm new to your blog and a Medifaster.

I've used the program to both maintain and lose. My mom actually runs the obesity program at a clinic and she's been counseling Medifasters. It's a GREAT program! It is NOT a "quick fix". YOU DO have to do the work to change your life. While you will lose steadily if you stick to the program, you will NOT lose it all overnight. Like others have said, if you use it as a tool to discover and retain a healthy lifestyle and BREAK FOOD ADDICTIONS - You'll have lots of success. Be strong and do what is best for YOU and YOUR BODY. :)

- J. Darling, Medifaster and PCOSer.

Shanel said...

Good for you... I read the whole post and you've put a lot more thought into this... more than most people who are just looking for a quick fix... I think it will help you reach your goals and I wish you much success.

Hopeful said...

I can't speak for Medifast, but I use Optifast, and it has been a great tool for me. I think the best thing you can do is make a decision, and stick with it as long as it works for you. Good luck!!

happyfunpants said...

I am *so* proud of you! I was busy reading your other posts and commenting that I just saw that you wrote this one.

I think your solution is GREAT and I couldn't be happier for you. I also think that your outlook of "if it sucks, oh well!" because I think that that attitude is healthy too.

I love that you're doing what you want to do. I love that you're trusting yourself. And I love that you're still going to tackle the harder issues.

I'm cheering you on for sure. :)

Thrice Blessed said...

I think its a good idea, especially since its free! It may be the change your body needs right now to get it going again.

I for one am considering a fast later this week to boost my body back on the path it should be on. I have liquid protein from an old diet, and I might as well use it for just a few days.

Lauren said...

Exciting stuff, Lyn! I advocate any kind of food/exercise experiment that isn'tdrastic or dangerous--no matter the outcome, you'll certainly learn something about yourself!

Best of luck. I know those smaller clothes are right around the corner for you!

RLibby said...

Seriously, most supportive readers ever ...

BrendaKaye said...

I think this is fantastic!! I would do it in a heartbeat if they asked me and it was free! I have been thinking about this for awhile myself, and I think sometimes we just need something to help us get to our goal. We need the encouragement of succeeding. Something different and new might be just what you need. And I had to smile when I saw this post because I just started cleaning out my closet today...it must be that time of year! I boxed up a lot of smaller things and hope they will be unboxed in the near future!

rusty61 said...

I'm behind you all the way, Lyn. I know you've put a lot of thought into this and I respect your decision. i'm looking forward to hearing about your experience!

Anonymous said...

I've been on TSFL (Medifast) for 4 months and have lost almost 40 lbs. I see a pretty consistent 2 lbs a week loss and I love the program. Super convenient and it is helping me get control of the cravings that I used to have. I wish you the best!

Camille said...

As long as you keep writing I don't care what program you do.
Your blog is a motivation for me and reminds me that there are others out there doing the same thing I am as I try to become healthy.
Thanks for always being honest and telling us what you're doing.

Fattie Fatterton said...

You have to do what's good for you and no one should judge you on that. You are the only one who can live your life.

I support any choice you make.

Leslie said...

I am really happy for you Lyn, that you've made a well thought out decision to try this. Why not. I think it is a sound plan, and could be a great way to help you recalibrate your chemistry in a way that can help to break cravings and eating behaviors. I'll be really interested to get your impressions, as well as to hear how it goes with weight loss. This is very exciting!

Denise said...

I'm new to your blog but just had to write to support you in what you're trying to do. I've been using HMR meal replacements for four weeks now and have lost 15 pounds in that time, but more importantly, I haven't binged nor am I battling constant food cravings, either. I've started to exercise (program asks for 2,000 calories burned each week).

Rina said...

Right behind you. You deserve a break, and this sounds like just the thing. You are very knowledgeable and if you decided that this is healthy, then I'm sure you've made the right decision. I'm really looking forward to seeing your progress!

Lyn said...

I am really just in awe of the wonderful, kind, supportive people who read my blog. I am so honored to 'know' you folks this way. You are SO appreciated. It means so much to me, truly. THANK YOU.

Fallon said...

Sometimes we all need a jumpstart on our weight loss to truly recommit and finish the process. Something has to make the "click" in our heads that will allow us to get going again. If this is what you need, then this is what you need and it's what you should do. Plus, as you said...it's all natural food, it's not about chemicals, etc, it's about taking the work out of your portioning. No crime there!

Leslie said...

Have read your blog since you started and am 100% behind you....GO FOR IT!!! You've worked your butt off for a LOOOONG time and hopefully this will give you the jumpstart you deserve!!!!

WOOOHOOOO - how exciting - I cant wait to read about the weight you lose!!

Ms. PJ Geek said...

Good luck..I think it's a great opportunity and if it doesn't work or you want to go off it ..that's ok too. It's good to shake things up. I eat a meal delivery system of fresh prepared mels 1200c cal a day and I do my own snacks. It helps me to realize that it is just food. I may not like it sometimes. And I can see the reality of what my meal portions should be.

MargieAnne said...

I'm adding my whole hearted support. You have done the research and believe it is safe and will work for you. That's all you need. Look forward to seeing how you progress.

Totally understand the clothes. I'm in pretty much the same position. Refusing to buy anything while my fat clothes are wearing out and some nice clothes are waiting.

Ido hope you enjoy the change and I envy you the nutritionist as well as free program. Wow! Only an idiot would pass this up.

Tammy said...

I totally support you in this decision...100%. :)

Jamie said...

Lyn, Hun do whats best for you. If you feel that this is what you need then go for it. I have a friend that has lost 60 pounds on it. She loves it. Your not loosing weight for us your loosing it for you so do what you need to do not what you think we are going to like!

Rebekah said...

I hpoe this works for you, and I think the plan will actually help in regards to your schedule especially with your daughters medical issues. Best of luck I will continue reading your blog to hear how you feel about it

Larkspur said...

We will be cheering for you! It takes all kinds of hacks and tips to make this work-- everyone's road is different. Can't wait to applaud your progress!

MsMagnetism said...

You know I will always support whatever you decide unless it's really off the deep end and I need to talk you down. You do what you need to do and as always I'm here for you..

(((huggles)))

Love ya girlie!

ClistyB said...

dont feel like you need to explain yourself. you do not.
now get on with this thing :)

Diana B said...

I feel bad that you felt you had to justify your decision to your readers. Only you can possibly know what is best for you. And you have the right to do whatever that may be without judgement or someone trying to influence you. That is the one issue I have with blogs. People open up their lives to possibly help others and suddenly some of those people feel they can tell the blogger what is right or wrong. If you feel this is right for you, I would make a guess that it is going to be very successful. Because what we BELIEVE will work, usually does. I'm looking forward to reading about your success.

Margie M. said...

Whatever weight loss plan or program you or anybody chooses is a personal matter. In the long run, the ultimate goal is to be healthy. Achieving that end result is the most important thing. Blog support is great, but you really just have to do what is best for you and for your family! I wish you all the success in the world, Lyn.

Margie M. writes at:
www.myhealthylivingthruweightcontrol.blogspot.com

Lyn said...

This post was not about justifying my choice to anyone. I choose to blog, and I have chosen to make this part of my life (weight) an open book. I like it that way. So I wanted to give my reasons, my thoughts, etc.

While I totally love the feedback I get here and respect the thoughts of others, all the decisions are ultimately mine. I like to explain why I am making the choices I make because, well, that's what this blog is about. And maybe it will help someone else who is struggling with a similar decision.

I am so pleased to have such wonderful support here, but if I didn't, and everyone hated my choice, I'd still do Medifast because I believe it will help me. I would regret it if I never even tried and then ended up weighing 230 or even more a year from now.

NewMe said...

Wishing you all the best. I hope it works for you!

spunkysuzi said...

I am totally behind you with this decision!! Whatever you decide to do is what you believe you need to do for you, and that's all that really matters.

M said...

I hope this helps you. We all need to do different things to lose weight.

Chibi Jeebs said...

"...but I believe it is best for *me.*"

That's it, that's all. This is all that's important. It sounds like you've done your homework and weighed your options: *you* are the only one who truly knows if this is going to be good for you - everyone else should respect your decision. :)

showmethechocolate said...

You go girl! You're doing what's best for you, and it's a great way to jumpstart further weight loss. It's important to mix it up and try new ways to lose if you feel you've reached a stalemate. Much good luck.

Anonymous said...

I'm behind you 100%. That's the one thing I hate the most about dieting, all the lists, and the writing down, and the planning, there is no way not to think about food every waking moment. I'll be eagerly awaiting to hear how it goes. I tried their shakes a long time ago and they weren't bad at all. Best of luck!

PaulaM

Zoe Dunn said...

That's great Lyn, when do you start? I look forward to hearing about it!

Lyn said...

Zoe Dunn~

I'm starting as soon as the Medifast meals arrive on my doorstep... hoping for Thursday!

globalmom said...

You might as well give it a whirl--I read your blog every day and would love to hear your experiences with this--I haven't really heard about it before. I think you have the nutrition down, and have incredible knowledge about healthy eating--you just need to ease up on your knees quickly! Best wishes!

Pink Panda said...

Good luck with the new plan Lyn. I hope it works out for you in the long run.

Claire said...

First of all (((((((big hugs)))))))). I am a new reader, and find your posts inspiring and uplifting. Thank you for being so honest. I haven't yet started to fight obesity again...in fact, recently, my weight has gone up to my highest ever, and I am just broken over it. You do what you have to to get healthy, Lyn. That's all that matters, and I think you have a great attitude.

Anonymous said...

Lyn,
I see nothing wrong with you trying something new. Maybe your body has just settled between this weight you have been losing and gaining for the past couple of months. The nutritionist here told me that if I get "stuck" I just need to try something different to get it working again. I think you are very open and honest about your weight loss journey on here and I wish you much success with the medifast system. I look forward to hearing about it as I have not heard of this before.

-Sarah Lownsbery

Anonymous said...

"I still believe something is going on mentally that is the reason I haven't lost more weight. I don't know if you can understand this unless you've tried and worked to lose weight and struggled for a long time, but there is more to it than just 'eat less move more'. Some of us are paralyzed, in a way, by fear or anger or whatever other mental thing is there that keeps our hand reaching for the donut, even when we don't really want the donut."

Y'see - you've done it again. You could be me....or I suspect any of us who seem to have no control, despite all the self-talk and dietary knowledge we have. Those foods that tempt us, the ones we are trying to wean ourselves off can't be avoided forever and sometimes, stupidly we seem to NEED them. I have no idea where that mentality comes from but despite my best efforts I crave foods I am trying to avoid...I include them in my eating plan, but I still have days where I lose the plot and eat rubbish. I don't want to, and I know it won't help me lose wight when I do this...so WHY do I sabotage my own efforts like this? It's crazy.

Good look with this eating plan Lyn. I think it's a good idea...and I'd do something similar myself if I could afford it. Here in the UK food plans similar to the one you are going to try cost a fortune. Like you wrote, wouldn't it be wonderful if we could employ chefs to make our low calorie, healthy meals for us...and be there to shove a healthy snack - ready made of course - into our hands when we plan to go out to the shops to buy something sweet, fattening and tempting beyond endurance!

My dream is to win the lottery so I can go to a health farm...lounge around all day in a robe and do exercises when the mood took me....rest lots, be pampered lots, have beauty treatments galore and have healthy meals prepared for me. I feel that lifestyle, for a month or so, would kick-start a real attempt to lose the blobby rols of fat that cling to me. I despair that I lose some weight and then seem to lose my motivation to keep up the good work, even though I know my weight-loss campaign has to be a long-term thing.

Lyn..I feel for you and understand completely that trying a different approach to weight loss is needed for you right now. I am sure some of the strain of 'being good' long term will be removed, and I hope it goes well for you.

Good luck! You've worked so hard and have certainly inspired me. It will be interesting to see how you get on.

DBDee.

Anonymous said...

Sounds like a sensible, well-reasoned plan. It seems wise to try something new since you've been doing the same thing for quite awhile and you've kept getting unwanted results.

Also, it's not like you're marrying it! ;-) If this plan doesn't meet your needs after a certain point, you can always try a different option, or add another tool to your arsenal.

Keep growing healthier, keep learning what you need to nurture yourself. You are worth it!

Coley said...

I wish you wonderful luck on the program. Hey, we all have to keep going, keep moving and if something isn't working, we'll try something else. Even if it's just a learning experience, losing weight in that way seems healthy - it's not like just a liquid fast, so I say - go for it, and achieve the success. Who knows where the program will take you, but it's a learning experience as well. Keep us up to date on how you're doing :)

401sue said...

Team Lyn!

mommygonemilf said...

Lyn, I think it is a great idea. It works to change things up to get your body to release a plateau. Besides that it also removes sugar and wheat from your diet. You may notice less joint pain from that as I mentioned in my e-mail. You have already changed your eating habits so you already have great healthy habits to return to after medifast.

Momma Hunt said...

Congrats on your new undertaking. I am with you on the clothes, when I got married a few years ago I got thin enough I never had to shop in plus sizes and I loved it. It broke my heart when I couldn't maintain that super thin weight for me. I think they taunted me after the birth of my son when I gained 55 pounds and it took me two years to loose it. I have gotten rid of most of my "thin" clothes because it was a constand reminder of what used to be and now as I am pregnant with my second, what may never be is too much. I wish you luck on your newest journey!

Miss Marvelous said...

I think that this could be a great decision for you. I lost over 60 lbs on Jenny Craig, and found that it really helped me to have the food prepackaged and to learn from the portion sizes. It can be kind of comforting to let the food think for you, so to speak. It's just another tool that you can have in your arsenal.

baritweet said...

I spent a year going in and out of Dr supervised liquid diet, was even on a metabolic syndrome physician program liquid diet with a lean and green. Are you a candidate for the gastric sleeve surgery? If you are, I recommend against any liquid diet, unless it is part of bariatric surgery. It is severe and can do crazy things to your metabolism. I am preparing now for the sleeve and wish I had not taken the liquid detour. If you go through with the liquid, I recommend www.liquiddietdiscussion.com as a support. Health to you! rdc

Lyn said...

baritweet~

I won't be doing a liquid diet; Medifast is preportioned food for 2 meals and 3 snacks, and then I make dinner myself (lean protein and 3 servings of veggies). The Medifast food *can* include shakes but most of it is stuff like chili, soups, eggs, bars, pudding, stew... that kind of thing.

screwdestiny said...

Well, I don't see anything wrong with it since it is real food. If you think this is what you need to do to lose some of those stubborn pounds, then go for it! The only concern I'd have is that you'll gain the weight back, but as long as you go back to your diet of healthy foods afterward, that shouldn't be a problem.

I hope you'll be able to rock those clothes soon. :)

Diana said...

First, I think this is a great idea. I'm all for whole foods and a natural diet, but I'm also all for whatever works. If this jumpstarts you into get healthier faster, than I say go for it and give it 100% of your efforts.

Second, it's not easy. One of my best friends did Medifast. I started Weight Watchers and she started Medifast almost on the exact same day. In seven months we both lost sixty pounds. Both of us had a lot of our hair fall out, but that always happens when I lose a lot of weight. But it grew back.

We were both healthier and thinner and happier. She didn't suffer any except I think her way was harder, but then again, maybe my way was harder. Truth is, it's all hard.

I got a day by day account of the MediFast diet. My girlfriend followed it perfectly and the weight fell off. I followed Weight Watchers perfectly and the weight fell off. We both started screwing around at about the same time and after each of us had lost 80 pounds, we both gained back 20 pounds.

My point is, it all works and I certainly don't think any less of you for doing MediFast. I know it'll work for you, you just have to follow the plan. But same with WW, you just have to follow the plan. They ALL work.

Good luck Lyn! I expect to start seeing consistent losses from you now. :)

Anonymous said...

Sounds like you are really ready this time - best of luck, plus FREE DIET FOOD - that's awesome!!! I really hope you can do this!!

Bella said...

It's almost a year since you wrote this post, but I happened upon your blog today, right before I'm about to begin Medifast for the 2nd time.

The program offerings seems to have gotten a lot more diverse since the last time I tried it, back in 2008. Or maybe I was just oblivious to anything but shakes & oatmeal, because that's all I bought. And that got old quickly.

Your blog is awesome. I love your writing style, honesty, and "realness." I find it really fortuitous that I found your blog right before I'm about to start my own Medifast journey (toward a bigger journey).

I'm really encouraged by your blog, and I look forward to the progress I'll make on Medifast.