Saturday, November 14, 2009

Random Stuff

Just wanted to ramble about a couple of random things:

*My size 18 jeans have gotten super baggy and I have to dry them on high heat to shrink them to fit. Then they get baggy again by the end of the day. But I cannot wear 16's yet because they strangle my middle. So I bought a pair of Levi's "Curvy Jeans" online in a size 18. I have never owned Levi's before and I knew they'd run smaller than the Venezia's I've been wearing, but I hoped they'd fit right away. They came in the mail today. I held them up, ughh. Super thin. Way too small, no way they are even coming up past my thighs. I decided to see how high I could get them and use them as Progress Pants. I looked again, way too small, no way. Well can you believe I not only got them on all they way, but got them buttoned and zipped! Now there is NO WAY I could wear them for any length of time without damaging myself, but wow, they look good on me. They are strangling tight though. So they ARE going to be my progress pants, and I'll try em on every couple of pounds until they fit!

*I weigh 230 pounds today. I have lost 4 pounds so far this month... 15 since October 1. That makes me very happy. I feel like an entirely new woman.

*Today's dinner was an old family favorite: sloppy joes. My kids have LOVED sloppy joes since they were small. Back in the day (when I was in poverty) I had a hard time affording meals. But when ground beef went on sale, I'd splurge and buy a pound and a pack of buns, and I'd make sloppy joes. But it was never quite enough to feed the five of us (even though the children were small) so I started adding beans to the meat. Everyone loved it. And now it is everyone's favorite dinner. I make it with extra lean ground beef (or sometimes half ground turkey), tomato sauce, seasonings, and beans. The kids eat them on buns, and I eat a Sloppy Joe salad (basically bagged Romaine salad tossed with light Ranch and topped with the bean/meat mixture. So good!) We have baby carrots as a side. It's so nice to enjoy a good meal with the family and have it fit into my meal plan just fine!

*I had a HUGE cinnamon roll with frosting for breakfast!! It's ok, pick your jaw up off the floor! I ordered them from a local bakery, and they were made from freshly ground whole wheat flour AND I cut mine in half to share! It was a nice, indulgent breakfast: coffee, half of that huge cinnamon roll, fresh strawberries, and a hard boiled egg. Ahh, I really had a nice eating day. Stayed well within my calories. And am going to bike 7 miles in a few minutes. I love life!

*Yesterday we went to the store and my 17-year-old son went off on his own and bought a bag of Sun Chips and a container of frosting (!!!!!!!!!!!) I just don't buy junk anymore, and honestly the kids just don't eat much junk so I sort of laughed when I saw what he'd bought himself! Anyway, he asked if he could eat some Sun Chips in the car on the way home and share them, and I said yes. Well, let me tell you. The smell of those Harvest Cheddar Sun Chips permeating my car almost made me abandon the steering wheel and jump over the seat headfirst into that bag in a feeding frenzy! But a funny thing happened. I was driving along smelling those chips... listening to the crunching... salivating... when I noticed I was very tense. I was feeling almost a mild panicky emotion. I had a running dialogue in my head, a frantic voice saying, "No, you CAN'T have those, oh my gosh, they smell so good, I want them, I want some, I could have a FEW, how am I going to get through this, the smell is killing me, this is torture!" And when I recognized THAT, I consciously relaxed, took a breath, and told myself to SMELL THE CHIPS. I calmed down, inhaled, and I am telling you, I must have one heck of a food memory because that smell was almost like eating a bowl of Sun Chips. I thought, hey. This is almost as pleasant as EATING them. They smell so good! And smells have no calories! So I drove along, smiling, inhaling, enjoying the yummy smell of Sun Chips. And I was okay. I didn't need to eat one. I was already enjoying them enough.

That's all for now... have a super weekend!

22 comments:

Autumnforest said...

You're right. I used to work in Dunkin Donuts and to this day--the smell of doughnuts makes me sick. You smell enough of something and it you feel like you've eaten it all day. Some weight loss people say to keep peppermint essential oil around and sniff it frequently to quell cravings. I found cinnamon works better for me--is more homey and comforting. I also brush my teeth and chew mint sugarless gum to get my mouth not wanting other tastes. We learn the tricks as we go. Good idea to keep the jeans. I think you'll be in them by Xmas easily!

Chubby Chick said...

This isn't just random stuff. This is random HAPPY stuff! Way to go, Lyn! :)

rachel said...

As I sit here in my sugar fog, I am teary eyed for me and so happy for you. I know exactly how you feel! I lost over 100 pounds from aug 03 to july 06 and went from a size 28 to a size 16 in juniors. I can literally feel your freedom, your love of self and your immense joy that comes from truly living. I unfortunately gained it all back plus about 25 since I got pregnant in Dec 06. I am at the hopeless, why bother, I'm probably gonna die young and leave my son an orphan, stage of weight loss. Not a good place to be. Your story gives me hope and I want you to know that I am thankful for your blog.

100in12 said...

that's so great about the sunchips. i get panicky too when i smell food or am around food that i want but probably "shouldn't" eat...i should try relaxing, like you! :-)

also i know what you mean about the jeans, ESPECIALLY venezia. they are the worst for stretching like literally five minutes after putting them on. so frustrating! i was thrilled when i gave mine away!

congrats on so many happy things in this post! love it :-)

foolsfitness said...

That was modivational! I have a pair of shorts on my bathroom door I use to try to remind myself of where I want to go.

Gee, I think I'd give in to the chips still. I've been trying to get it down but I've been fighting against those whim temptations for about a month and caving in time after time. I have made some better choices, yet not consistently the way I want yet.

I'm trying to find that zen state around food where I acknowledge it's presence yet am not focused on it. I have a goal to hit a chinese food buffet and just have a single reasonable sized plate and be satisfied... I've got some work to get there though. You are an inspiration!

At Foolsfitness we try to cut down on chips... and just eat the dip with a spoon from the container!-Alan

Candace said...

That is so awesome about the jeans. That is such a nice feeling~ Way to go~

pgor said...

Isn't it great that smelling does not cause swelling in the hip area. Great job practicing discipline!! Pat yourself on the back and enjoy those new jeans.

Louise said...

I just wanted to say Hi. So, "Hi!". I've been lurking in here for a while now, and I am totally amazed at the change in you over the last little while - you are such a different person.

I even signed up on SparkPeople because you mentioned that it helps. And it sure does. Just being accountable for every little thing that goes into your mouth; I think the hassle of having to log junk has put me off eating a lot of it!

Totally agree with the smell thing. Our noses are way more sensitive than our taste buds, so we should exploit that. There is a lolly shop right next to the supermarket in town, and all I have to do is walk around the shop breathing deeply, and my sugar cravings are subdued.

Love those jeans.

Anonymous said...

I almost "gave up" on reading your blog because I was always so sad to hear that at the beginning of each month you kept gaining weight.

I am SO glad that you're on the way down again! You are doing so great and seem to be chugging along just fine!

Keep up the good work!

South Beach Steve said...

Lyn, even though you can't wear the pants for any length of time yet, it must feel good to get into pants you thought were way too small. That is an awesome victory.

I loved reading the sunchip episode also. It reminds me of some thoughts I have had.

karen@fitnessjourney said...

What a great idea to add the beans to the sloppy joes. I would never have thought of that. You are adding extra protein and fiber. I can't wait to try it and see if I can trick the kids.

So glad I found your blog. I'm new to blogging about fitness and have been discovering that there is a whole world of people out there who want to live a healthy lifestyle and are writing about it.

Heather said...

I noticed that about levis jeans as well. try not to get discouraged - to find the perfect pair of jeans is no easy task. I know I try a bunch on and think I will never find a good pair but I just keep looking. I know they are out there!

Chibi Jeebs said...

Congrats on both the jeans and the 15 pounds - you're doing great! :)

Foodie Girl said...

Now that is POWER girlfriend! Good for you!

stephseef said...

this really encouraged me today. thanks!

Larkspur said...

I've had good luck at Avenue and also Lane Bryant has three different fits depending on your body type. When I got to a 14 I went on a rampage to find jeans I could wear as a 12. Found some Levi's and the Walmart Riders work great (17 bucks!)

screwdestiny said...

WAY TO GO on fitting into the pants and on resisting the chips! That's so awesome! The difference in sizing for women's pants is hella annoying by the way, and I'm sure you'll find yourself fitting or not fitting into a range of sizes at any one time as you continue to lose weight.

Salted with Shadows said...

Lyn, I'm at about 219 now and I can't button any of the 18s I've got. (I carry the majority of my excess weight in my midsection.) I have my own personal clothing exchange happening right now and I'm frustrated because I have a ton of pants that ALMOST fit but don't yet. Keep fighting the good fight and I will too! You never know who you may be inspiring. :)

Anonymous said...

Hi Lyn,

I hope you're doing awesome, it sure sounds like it. I've had the same experience, where just smelling the food was as good as tasting it, for realz, so I just smelled it really hard, lol. Well, keep posting ur recipes b/c u have good ones.

Theresa said...

What awesome news for you Lyn! I agree it won't be long before you're tossing those jeans out because they're too baggy. :)
Also,
Someone commented they almost stopped reading your blog because you were gaining. I won't stop reading and we BOTH won't stop trying..... what else have we got for options right? <3

Anonymous said...

I'm going to second what Theresa said. If anything, I was glad that you had the perseverance and courage to continue blogging even though you had some setbacks in your weight loss journey. After all, this is a marathon, not a sprint and there are going to be ups and downs along the way. Thank you for being honest with yourself and with your readers by logging your successes AND your struggles...not many bloggers have the "intestinal fortitude" to do that. Thanks again!

-T

NutriAngel said...

I know the feeling! Just smelling something is good enough for me. I used to drink coffee but I no longer want it, but the smell is divine.