Monday, November 23, 2009

Here We Go! A Fresh New Week.

Good morning, folks. Are you looking forward to Thanksgiving this week? All that FOOD! Are you going to gain some weight? Hmmm?

For the past 2 years I've done the same thing for Thanksgiving. I use the recipes I've posted on my blog, I eat what I want in moderation, and I make Thanksgiving *one meal.* Not a whole day, not a week. One meal. Because even if you screw around for one meal you can moderate any effects by eating lightly before and after, and getting in a little extra exercise. Here are my recipes for all the delicious things I'm making: Recipe for Thanksgiving Success. I also may make a pie... a real, rich, fatty, sugary pie... or I may not, in light of this weekend's insanity.

Yes, I had a rough go of it this weekend. Saturday night I had a binge. There wasn't a whole lot of food lying around that are triggers or anything, and I didn't make a store run, but I did overeat quite a bit after a good solid healthy eating day. This really concerned me and after I was done, I sat and blogged and thought and wrote and went over things in my head and came up with some new observations. I am still working through them, so I am not ready to post that bit yet but I will soon. I think I figured out the bottom line for me.

Sunday I had another lapse. It was ridiculous what set me off. I got up in the morning, all determined and happy to make it a great, low calorie day, when my husband reminded me we had plans to go out to dinner that night. OMG. I'd forgotten. The plans were not really cancellable, and dinner was already pegged to be salad, lasagna, sausages and meatballs, bread & butter, and cheesecake. I'd agreed to this particular special occasion back a week or so ago when I was running a calorie deficit daily, so I had it all planned in my head: drink water, eat lots of salad, a SMALL piece of lasagna, a meatball, and a shared piece of cheesecake (meaning I'd have a bite or two). It can work. But it can't work if one has just come off a binge and wants a low calorie, low carb type of day.

So I sort of paced around all day Sunday, feeling a bit out of control, having a bite here and a sip there, worrying about the dinner, adding the calories up and realizing there was no way I'd stay within my calorie limit. I thought about feigning illness to get out of the dinner. I thought about eating a huge plate of broccoli before I went. But at some point I threw up my hands, ate a bowl of crackers and cheese out of anxiety, and resigned myself to another high-cal day. I didn't binge, but I nibbled a lot. At this dinner I *did* drink only water. I did eat quite a bit of low cal healthy salad. I did restrain myself to ONE small piece of lasagna, one meatball *and half of a sausage* which is pretty reasonable. The bread got me, though. Soft, freshly baked, white, warm. Bad news, big trigger for me. I bet I had 400 calories in bread and butter. But I did okay with dessert. I did share, but my husband wanted to get his own, so I ended up eating half a slice of cheesecake.

I wasn't stuffed when we came home. I didn't have to unbutton my pants or anything. I was *terribly* thirsty though, as the salt was quite apparent in the sauce. I drank a ton of water. I felt like I had not had enough veggies and fiber so late at night I warmed a bowl of pumpkin, added a bit of brown sugar and ate it. Broccoli woulda been a better choice...

So. Rough weekend, scale is temporarily up 3 pounds, which is not the best precursor to a holiday week. But you know, I feel okay. It's also PMS week, so maybe it would be best *not* to make a rich, fudgy pie for Thanksgiving. Just asking for trouble, eh??

Anyway that's my weekend, and I do have another whole post written regarding the base *issue* I've uncovered and I am working on that as well. You'll see that post another time. Right now I am focused on getting the water bloat to leave, burning some extra calories over the next week, and eating healthy.

Let's plan for success this week!

18 comments:

Sue R said...

lyn,
This too shall pass. It won't sideline you. You are strong. No one is perfect. You however are wonderful.

FatFitnessFood said...

Its great that after a rough weekend you have a positive outlook for the hioliday this week. Good for you.

Sarabei said...

Have a great week, Lyn! Your positive outlook sounds great!

Leslie said...

It was a tough weekend for me as well. I think I'm having pre-emptive holiday angst over all things food! But I'm committed to a sane day today, and will deal with tomorrow when it arrives. yesterday's long gone.

Vickie said...

GOOD FOR YOU in not having trigger/responce food in the house and not making a store/drive thru run - that is HUGE!

You are a good chronicler and that is important and empowering.

spunkysuzi said...

There is no such thing as a perfect week, we just learn and move on!

Tathi Mitchell said...

"Some days are better than others" ;-) Keep on going...

screwdestiny said...

Eh, you've still got three days before Thanksgiving. I'm sure you can get those three pounds off by then. Sorry you had to go to a restaurant when you didn't feel like it, but you did well.

As for the pie, you could make a pumpkin one. It's the best kind of pie for you (if a pie can be good for you at all), and it's delicious.

Larkspur said...

Sounds like 2.75 sodium pounds and a quarter of a real one :) Stay loose and have a great week.

Anonymous said...

sue m
lyn
your eating seems to remind me of mine. once i start it is difficult to turn it off. you are doing great keep it up
one day at a time

Theresa said...

big hugs. It's done, now you go on. :) Tomorrow starts the same way no matter what happened yesterday. <3

Margie M. said...

What about making crust-less pumpkin pie? I do that and everyone still likes it. The idea of a "one-meal" celebration is what we're planning also. No leftovers to keep calling me from the refrigerator this year.

Ms. Geek said...

I needed to read your posting and now I need to re=read it as well as the weekend posts. So often what you say rings true for me. It is a minute by minute process sometimes. Sometimes, I'm strong. Other times, I just want to sit and allow myself to have what I want. I take a walk on Thanksgiving and enjoy time outside with my dogs (cooling off from the heat of the kitchen). I look forward to that time of reflection. I actually look forward to some of the holidays' rituals rather than the food. And then sometimes it is the food.

Taryl said...

I'm sorry you had to deal with some binges, sweetie! That is just the worst feeling.

Still, bravo to you for catching yourself BOTH DAYS and not letting it go further. I would say you exercised pretty wonderful control given that you were set off. It's all a progression and a journey, right? Keep truckin' and I wish you the absolute best this Thanksgiving :)

Anonymous said...

Hey Girl,

Sorry to hear you had a rough weekend but per usual, you are conscious of your activities and sometimes, that's the best we can hope for as we traverse this "weighty" journey...myself included. I am leaving today for vacation so I will not be able to check in periodically this week so this is my preemptive well wishes to you this week! I hope this week is positive for you, in all aspects of your life! Happy Thanksgiving!

-T

Amelia said...

It sounds like you have a balanced and healthy attitude about what happened! It's good that you aren't going to let it destroy the rest of the week. Good luck!

Damjana said...

Have a nice binge-free week!

Tricia said...

If I overeat I just have to remind myself to just move on from there, learn from it. Sounds like you have a positive outlook on Thanksgiving. Have a great one!