Monday, October 26, 2009

Blah

I am feeling kind of "blah" and "ick" today. It's raining and cold and when I took my daughter to preschool, I got soaked. I usually go walking twice a week while she is in preschool, but today I came home and sulked instead. I'd have walked if not for the rain, but I resigned myself to an evening bike ride (indoors) instead.

I looked at the calendar and saw that yes, it is in fact PMS week. It's just barely creeping up on me, though... no cravings or insane emotions yet... just a general "eh, blah" sort of thing. Plan to get more rest, drink more hot tea, and spend time taking care of ME.

I ate well yesterday and this morning the scale showed a pound drop, so that's a good thing. I am eating well today, too. I found a chunk of ribeye in the freezer and am thawing it on the counter. I plan to cook it up with lots of veggies and have a moderate portion for dinner. Ribeye is fatty, so I'll watch my calories on this stuff plus stay low carb for dinner.

Blah, blah, blah. Maybe I will lift weights tomorrow. I am doing fine on the eating front, though. In fact, in looking a little closer at the blahs, I realise it is more of a desire to just be still, rest, and sip tea. It's not a sadness. That's a good change from times past, when I felt uncontrollably sad and desperate in the PMS days and spent many hours trying to find just the right food to assuage my feelings. Now I feel mildly happy and content, dampened by a blanket of blah hormones.

Have to run, kid needs a time out.

5 comments:

Mary :: A Merry Life said...

Sorry you are feeling blah. That's never fun. I freakin hate the blah hormones. I wish they never came around. Just do those things you wanted: be still, rest, and sip tea. Hope it passes soon!

ArleneWKW said...

Staying on track when you're feeling the blahs is a great achievement. It sounds like you've got both insight and perseverance.

Paula said...

Oh I can so relate to this as I'm sure most women can. I agree that staying on track is an accomplishment during this time. Take care of yourself as you are doing...this too shall pass. ;)

Georgia Mist said...

Oh, how I relate.

Autumnforest said...

You have a really good insight into yourself. That's so critical to understand what makes you tick. You mentioned that it was more of a stillness inside and not a depression and that says that without the ups and downs of carb overload, your body is reacting better to that time of the month. Just another reason to keep doing what you're doing. You're mastering the connection from body to soul.