Thursday, September 24, 2009

Power

Last night I was reading a favorite message board when I saw this: One year ago today, I said to myself "I WILL lose 100 lbs." Holy moley. Is that inspiring or WHAT??

There is another woman on the same message board who I have watched go from 377 pounds one year ago to 226 today. I read these things and my head spins. I know it is possible with HARD WORK for ANY of us to drop our weight. A year went by really fast, didn't it? What can we do with one year?

We can change old bad habits to new, good ones. We can be strong and persistent. We can be healthy. We can lose weight.

Yeah, I have a binge eating disorder. I think that does complicate matters but because I have spent the entire last year dealing with the mental side of binge eating, I think I have a pretty good grip on that behavior now. Now, it's a matter of controlling what I put in my mind, what I put in my grocery cart, what I put in my mouth. That and some good old fashioned exercise will get me to where I want to be.

Where do you want to be in a year? Close your eyes. Picture the possibilities. If weight loss is your goal, imagine yourself in one year at the same weight you are today. How do you feel about that? What are you thinking when you step on the scale in one year and weigh the same? Now imagine yourself in one year, 40 pounds heavier. How does that feel? What do you wish you could tell your former self, one year ago? Tell yourself now. Finally, imagine yourself lighter, by whatever amount YOU would like to lose in one year. How does it feel to be 40, 50, 100 pounds lighter? Was it worth it?

I would *love* to lose 100 pounds in a year. I think it *may* be a bit of a stretch for me, but stretching is good. I teeter between 238 and 242 lately. What if I weighed 142 in a year? When I think about that, I remember the last time I weighed 142. I was very young. It's been about 20 years. Maybe I will be happy at a higher weight and decide to stop at, say, 165, but what a wonderful thing to realize that *I* get to set my goal, and *I* can work to reach it.

I own me. You own you. No one is forcing the Ding Dongs down your throat. No one is making you eat Big Macs or chips or whatever other junk you're eating. People around us *can* make it hard, by buying junk, offering it to us, even trying to insist we eat it. But ultimately YOU are in control of your body. I am in control of mine.

I feel such a great sense of power rising up from within. I am shedding my weaknesses and taking the steering wheel of my life. I think it is an awesome thing to transform that kind of inner power into something tangible: not only the will to eat healthy foods but also the actual, literal MUSCLE that forms on my body when I am working hard. I love translating my inner strength into real, solid power on my body. That's why I love strength training!

I really, really love who I am becoming. Each one of us needs to be able to look in the mirror and say, "I am living to my potential. I am living the life I choose. I have the power."

Now make it happen.

18 comments:

Diane, Fit to the Finish said...

This is a very true post. We are in charge of our own destiny. Being able to visualize myself 150 pounds lighter wasn't easy, but it did help me get started making good choices.

I love the message.

Friend of the Bear said...

Hi Lyn. Great post. It makes me think. Because I am not strong enough at the moment to even imagine where I will be in a years time. I'm too scared to look that far ahead.

It's great that you are so in control. So positive about the future when you have been through so much recently.

You are very strong.

Best wishes,
Bearfriend xx

Katie J said...

Hi Lyn!

Long time reader first time commenter. This post really hit home for me.

"I" am chosing to lose 100 lbs in the next year. I have lost 51 so far this year but plan on being at goal by next summer. I feel more in control of my future now then I ever have in all my 43 years.

Sandra said...

Absolutely fantastic post and hits straight through to the heart. Thanks for sharing.

Leslie said...

Go Lyn! You sound so good. And you're so right that no one is forcing the crap down our throats. That thought will help me stay on task today.

Great questions you posed for reflection. The thought of weighing 40 pounds more in one year makes me cringe and recoil. I can't even imagine weighing 40 pounds less. But thinking of it will help me get used to the idea as I take this one pound at a time.

Sugar Bush Primitives said...

I needed to read this post today. Thank you!!!

Hugs,
Mary

Vickie said...

I loved the pictures attached to the first link - thanks for posting it.

she is my height and our numbers are not far off (I didn't get on a scale until 6 mos after I started - so I don't have my highest number).

AND I am writing to say it took me 4 years to do what she has done in one year and it feels just as good.

there is no prize for speed. Slow and steady does it too.

moonduster said...

Woohoo! Another great post!

I've decided to work towards all of my dreams, not just my weight loss ones. It's why I've joined NaNoWriMo this year. :)

Kim's (Girl Who Clicked) Fat Loss Blog said...

In one years time I will weigh 75 kgs (165 pounds). One year ago I weighed 128 kg (282 pounds). I am right on track for this goal. Although some of the work is physical (exercise) and of course good nutrition, the first thing to get right is your head. My friend who is a personal trainer had me visualise 5 mins each night before I went to sleep and it was not in the future tense, it was to be in the PRESENT tense ie "it is Oct 2010, I weigh 75 kgs and I feel ***** because ****** (fill in the blanks and play with it and how it really feels. This really worked to the extent my subconsious really believed I was 75 kg and I got quite a fright when I saw the bigger current me in a shop window one day, LOL! Hope this tip helps all of you on the journey.

{ALL} for a Better Life said...

I am so there with you! You got me thinking...

We are in control of our own destiny and I know you can make your goal in a year!

Stacie said...

Thank you for this. Perfect timing too -- because I really wanted to eat, despite the fact I already had dinner. A year from now, I WILL be below 200 lbs.

Melissa Venable said...

That is so awesome! Thank you! I am so motivated & encouraged right now. I was telling someone on their blog the other day that it was never a lifestyle to begin with if you quit. And then it hit me how true that was. I mean, i've always done it right, but i've always quit! but it can't be a lifestyle change unless it's for life! & if it's for life, you can't lose! i mean, eventually the scale has to go the other direction! thanks so much for your encouragement!

screwdestiny said...

Great post. One of my favorite quotes goes something like, "Don't worry about the time it will take to accomplish something. The time will pass anyway." This is something that everyone should remember 'cause I think a lot of the time if we know something's going to take a while to complete, it can seem daunting, but the time's gonna go by so you might as well use it for something good. Thanks for reminding us of that.

By the way, I gave you an Honest Scrap award on my blog.

rachel said...

Thank You. I think you are awesome.

Madeleine said...

I've been reading your blog off and on for a very long time and I thought it was time I spoke up. You know, I have a "similar" problem to you and your posts/words have helped me more than you could ever know. I have an eating disorder (anorexia/bulimia), at the moment I weigh 34kgs and I'm finally starting recovery properly, for and from myself. Even though I may seem the complete opposite, I can relate to so many things you've written and I admire you so much. I wish you nothing but love, success and happiness. You are a beautiful, beautiful person and I hope you know that.

thankyou so much for having and keeping this blog.

Certifiably Fit said...

Very good post. Very inspirational and motivating. Love your blog and have been reading for a while. Keep up the good work.

EricaAnn said...

Amazing, thank you Lyn for articulating those truths!

Anonymous said...

Lyn - you write so well! Everything you mention seems to strike a chord with me. You also seem such a positive person too.
Right now, I am feeling a bit down. I caught sight of myself in a mirror tonight - when I was all dressed up and had done my hair and make-up...and all I could see was a big woman, with round shoulders, fat arms, rolls of fat where a waist should be and even my wrists looked chunky.

I am home now, and it's the early hours of the morning as I write in the UK. I have been sitting at my PC feeling miserable, fat and ugly. I am not ugly but it's impossible to feel good sometimes when the 'fatness' seems to be what I am all about. I was just about to go and make some tea and in my despair, and as a sort of act of anti-diet rebellion, raid the fridge (because I am worth it! *shakes head*) when I decided to catch up with your blog.

Thanks for your wise words. I know I sometimes lack determination and knowing I must lose at least 80lbs I often feel disheartened, like I'll never do it...and will slip back into old ways of eating, but I know deep down my future is at stake and that I am able to have more good food days than bad ones.
This time next year I will, if I really, really want this, look different when I catch sight of my reflection in a mirror.

I am having a glass of water and going to bed now. Thanks Lyn.

Best wishes,

DBee x x x