Friday, August 14, 2009

Home At Last

Good morning!! I am so so happy to be home. Thank you for all the kind words and welcomes. Sleeping in my own cozy bed last night was fabulous, even though my daughter, still functioning on east coast time, was up at 4am bouncing into my bed with a cheery "good morning!" I convinced her to lie down with me for another hour and a half since it was still dark outside. This time change thing might make a true morning person out of me! Not.

If you missed my update last night, check that out for my August 1 weigh in. This morning's weigh-in was not especially thrilling, but honestly not as bad as I expected: 244. I am *very* bloated from sitting for hours in airports and on planes over the last two days, plus all the salty stuff we ate. Going back to my pre-trip weigh-in, I see a gain of 6 pounds over the past 3 weeks. I think it will *all* come off within a week or two. In fact I am sure of it. I have never felt so excited to get back to my regular eating and exercise routine.

Some of the "healthy lifestyle" obstacles that I faced on my (wonderful, exciting, joyful) vacation were:

Staying in a home where no one likes vegetables. My family was so sweet and went on a special trip to the store to buy me some broccoli ("that's the stuff that looks like the cauliflower but green, right?") which was the only veggie I saw that week!

Staying with folks who don't like water and had well water that tasted like sulfur. I did go to the store and buy bottled water, but still didn't get anywhere near my usual half gallon or more per day I drink at home.

Delicious, homemade dinners like spaghetti and meatballs with garlic bread, teriyaki chicken, and fresh deli perogies with sausages. There were several burger and hot dog cookouts, and I figured out where I got my sweet tooth from: a dessert every night after dinner seems to run in the family! Special baked cakes, cookies, and treats made for sweet endings to meals. I indulged a bit but you know how it is. You never, ever binge in front of people. Especially not family. So I was fine with small tastes, and never once raided the kitchen at night for a sugar binge. Couldn't risk getting caught, and besides, I was quite enjoying my visit *without* focusing on the food. Although that spaghetti was amazing...

Eating out. We did a bit of driving between homes and airports and visiting my hometown, with no room for a cooler in the trunk. I bought some healthy snacks like nuts and bananas and whole grain crackers, but overall, honestly, I just said forget it. I am on vacation. I am not going to stress about my calories. I had a couple of cheesesteaks and some good pizza. When my son and I ordered salads from a "nice" restaurant, I took a few bites and then watched as a bug CRAWLED out of my son's salad, hopped off the plate, and dashed away. UGH!!!!!!!

You remember how I was stressing before I left, because there were *so many* foods and restaurants I wanted to revisit to "reconnect" with my childhood and my parents? I had a list a mile long of restaurants I felt like I *had* to go to in order to make my hometown trip complete. It was very odd. "If I don't go to this specific restaurant and eat a Reuben sandwich with pickles and cheese like my father always did, then life will be incomplete." I thought it was essential. While I was there, I took some time to think about this some more. And I realized it was not the restaurant nor the sandwich I wanted. It was my Dad. I wanted to travel back in time and be sitting at the restaurant with my father across from me, talking, moving, breathing, being my Dad. I didn't want to be an orphan anymore. I thought if I went there, and sat in the same room at the same table of my memories and smelled that Reuben sandwich, maybe my Dad would reappear and sit with me and we could talk and hug and visit. Well, not really. But it felt that way. And once I addressed that desire and came to grips that that was *not* going to happen, I didn't even want to go to the restaurant anymore. I wanted to keep my sacred memories, intact and perfect in my mind, unadulterated by a new color of paint in the dining room or a new set of tables or different stuff hanging on the walls. I wanted to just remember it the way it was, and embrace the memory of my Father and I together, back when I was a little girl. Back when he was alive.

Of the foods I did try, just a taste was suffucient for most of them. And none of them tasted as amazing as I had expected. The only thing that was as good as I remembered was the peanut butter Tastycakes... sooo good... but I only ate one 2-pack serving. Much improved from the last time I had them, when my mother died and I tried to drown my pain by eating a dozen BOXES of Tastycakes (there are 6 or 8 2-packs in a box. Yes, I ate that much. No, it did not stop the pain, nor did it bring my mother back).

This morning, I got up and had my big glass of water and my hot tea and then set about the task of unpacking and beginning to clean house. I got the fridge scrubbed out but it is very empty now... no produce at all... so a trip to the Farmer's Market will be happening very soon. I can't wait to fill my body with fresh, ripe, juicy peaches, watermelon, cantaloupe, beets, and Lima beans! My breakfast choices were limited by the lack of food this morning, so I had a bowl of Raisin Bran with skim milk while my son made pancakes and my daughter ate 2 huge bowls of cheese tortellini. I'll be riding my bike in between vacuuming, mopping, and laundry in a huge cleaning marathon today punctuated my pain medication and blog reading during breaks.

So very good to be home!!

17 comments:

beerab said...

Glad you are back and had a great time! A few pounds on vacation will be gone quickly anyways :)

Skinny Minny said...

So happy to hear about your vacation! And way to go! You're just getting right back on the bandwagon. :)

Diane, Fit to the Finish said...

Wow, you covered a lot of ground. Just get right back on, and those pounds will come right off.

Sue said...

You were missed....

skinnyhollie said...

So glad you're back! Been thinking about you!

elife said...

Sounds like a great trip and I am extremely impressed by the no-night-sugar-raids. Victory!

Steelers6 said...

Lyn, I love that you have never felt so excited to get back to your reg eating and exercise routine! Impressive! Sometime when you have very little to do (haha, yeah right) you will probably enjoy rereading your OWN blog and see how far you have come! Even on your vacay, you enjoyed your trip, ate what others were eating, but it does seem like you thought about what you were eating, etc. You so have a new lifestyle, woman!

Good job on avoiding those Tastycakes, & not eating too much of the desserts that were constantly before you. I mean, GOOD JOB!! You should be proud of yourself. I know those sweets can seem to mess w/tastebuds and then I want more, & before we know it we could be totally off the wagon.....glad you didn't give in.
It seems like you utilized your self control and are headed right back to your focus now that you are home.

All the best, and here is to lots of energy for you as you settle back in.
ChrissyS

Chubby Chick said...

Sounds like you came home from vacation with a fresh burst of determination! I can't wait to read about your successes in the coming months! :)

Tony said...

Awesome! Sounds like you had a great trip. Foods and memories go together. It's good that you really thought about why those associations came into place.

Greta said...

Your positive outlook is appreciated! My post today deals with getting "back" on the wagon when someone has fallen off. Your post is a good example of HOW to do it.

Isn't it amazing that some households truly do not consume ANY fruits and veggies? This always is stunning to me....

Sounds like you did some good "processing" while gone....thank you for sharing your insights, they are helpful!

South Beach Steve said...

It sure is hard to maintain control while traveling, especially in an environment where others don't share our same eating values. Your story about realizing why you wanted to eat at the particular restaurant was touching. I am glad you came to peace with it.

Tammy said...

I'm so glad you finally realized what it was you were missing and wanting and that the memorable food wasn't the answer. You had me worried when I first read that post. It's just awesome that you found your own way to the truth. :)

Betsey C. said...

Yay! It's so good to "see" you! What a wonderful vacation you had, it's so good to re-connect with family. It gives you such a lift! I recently had this very same experience, I reconnected with some cousins via Facebook and was invited to a wedding where I had a reunion with them. It was awesome. It was a month ago, but I still feel "high" from it!

So, good for you for making the effort to get this vacation accomplished -- which is no small feat with all your kids.

I'm so glad you're back and blogging!

screwdestiny said...

Oh my gosh, did you complain to management about the bug in the salad? That's disgusting! Anyway, glad you're back!

Lyn said...

screwdestiny~

yeah, I mentioned it. They brought him a new salad but, uh, neither of us finished our food after that. Will be writing them a letter shortly...

Karyn said...

It makes me very happy to hear you had such a fullfilling trip. Your insight into why you wanted to go have that Reuben and then the decision not to go was a huge milestone! Congrats!

Sounds like you did pretty well, weight-wise and made many good decisions in difficult situations.

Glad to have you 'home'! I've missed you.

Anonymous said...

missed your blog Lynne - so glad you had a great time and experienced all the things you had dreamed of - you were so missed - i kept checking every day to see when you'd be back... glad you had a great family vacation.. xoxo Patty