Friday, May 1, 2009

May 1, 2009: 130 Pounds

See? See?? I told you I would come back 100 pounds lighter!!

We got home a few hours ago and I am absolutely THRILLED to report that my daughter's test went SO WELL that even the expert nurses who did the test were surprised. "This is the fastest VCUG we have ever done!" It was about 15 minutes long rather than the expected 45+ minutes. The sedation went perfectly, no complications whatsoever, and the only time she showed ANY sign of pain was at the beginning of the catheter insertion when she said, "ow!" once. That's it, then back to watching her movie (a therapist brought a little DVD player into the testing room!) She was totally loopy and couldn't walk for a couple of hours afterwards but she was back to normal the next morning. And when I asked her how she liked her hospital trip (to see what she remembered) she said, "Good. The nurse gave me crackers and a Popsicle!"

And the very best news of all... my daughter's kidney reflux... which was a grade 2/3 previously... is GONE. Completely healed on its own! ZERO. The x-rays looked great, and not only will she NOT need surgery, but the urologist took her OFF her daily medication completely and discharged her from the clinic! I was so happy and relieved when they told me there was no reflux that I felt like melting into a puddle of relief! I sat there in the recovery room, rocking my girl and I honestly, physically and completely felt 100 pounds lighter. It felt like lead weights were lifted out of the pockets of my soul. I cannot even describe it.

It's a burden of worry I have carried for my little daughter since before she was born. From the day I was admitted to the hospital because my unborn baby was in danger, I have been the Mother Of A Sick Child. I remember lying in that hospital bed, day after day, listening to her heartbeat on the 24/7 monitor. It would be beating along just fine and then suddenly... kathunk.................kathunk...............................kathunk.......(big pause) and I would flip out and panic because her heart was going SO SLOWLY and each time it would beat I would wonder if it was going to be the last. It was torture.

When she was born she was quite early and quite small. Two and a half pounds of tiny, sick baby. Ventilators. IVs. Blood transfusions. Oxygen. Heart, lung, eyes, kidneys... specialists galore. Medications, monitors and oxygen tanks were my 24/7 life. She's done very well, but this one last thing was hanging around, making me worry. I was so scared something would happen to her. We had so many close calls already. I just needed her to be okay.

And she IS okay. She is off that blasted medication, FINALLY, after years of taking it daily. I am sooo happy. My baby girl is well!

Thank you all SO much for your thoughts and prayers. My life feels so much better now! I can't believe how much this was weighing (literally) on me all those years. So yeah, in actual pounds I gained 3 in April, but that's okay with me, because I lost a hundred pounds in worry and I feel like a whole new woman!

(Now, maybe I can get my focus onto making these thighs a little smaller!)

45 comments:

Anonymous said...

Your post gave me chills. I can't imagine what you went through but thank God it's over! I hope you can find some peace, and I know your little girl will grow into a strong, lovely woman, just like her mother.

Tena said...

I am so happy for you and your daughter! What a miracle! And it surely is a weight lifted.

Hanlie said...

I am so happy for you! I can just imagine how relieved you must be...

MargieAnne said...

Hurray! Rejoicing with you.

Sara said...

I'm really glad to hear she's okay :)

Lori said...

Hooray! That is wonderful news!

~TMcGee~ said...

Lyn, I am so happy for you and your little one. Nothing is worse (IMO) than watching our child(ren) suffer. I think this was the "break" that you deserved and needed, the ray of sunshine in your storm. God bless you, dear friend.

TNelson said...

I read your posts everyday (you are one of my favoite bloggers - your writing skills are so amazing!)but I don't post replies often. I can't tell you how thrilled I am for you and your baby! I have a 4 year old granddaughter and I know what precious bundles they are. I just heaved a big sigh of relief when I read your post. Bless you all!

fatty McButter Pants said...

Never doubt the power of prayer and positive thinking. I COULD NOT be happier for the both of you. So glad they sedated her, and that she doesn't seem to remember it. So glad the weight has been lifted from "the pockets of your soul". LOVED THAT!

Kathy said...

I can't describe how happy I am for you, my dear!! And what a good...no great...mother your daughter has.

Juice said...

Praise God! So glad to hear your little girl is healed!!!! I'm I'm so glad for YOU that your days of worry are behind you.

Deb said...

So happy to hear this.

new*me said...

As a mommy, I can totally feel the relief that you are feeling. Worrying about a child is the worst kind of pain.

Soooo glad it is all good news and you can move forward with your little girl and family with one less worry!

Dawn said...

I am so happy for you and your daughter. God is still in the healing business :) Miracles do happen thanks to God

Megan said...

Hooray! What a huge relief. Congratulations!

~ugly girl with a beautiful heart~ said...

In tears I'm so happy for you...

♥ Dee ♥ said...

Oh, I am so happy for your entire family!

skinnyhollie said...

I am SO glad to hear she's okay! It is like a burden that is lifted from you, I know the feeling. I am also a "mother of a sick child". My son was born 15 weeks preemie (2lbs 2 oz), and I went through it all with him, too. He's now 8 and healthy as can be! But I will never forget how sick he used to be, and will always be thankful for the miracle he is.

NewMe said...

Congratulations on your fantastic news!!

Lea said...

That's so fantastic! Yay!

Shelley said...

What wonderful news!!! So glad everything went well and how awesome that your daughter is healed!!! I totally understand that "burden lifted" feeling...you must have felt light as a feather!

Ria said...

Lyn, I am so happy for you and your daughter!

elife said...

I am thrilled for you!!

Chubby Chick said...

Oh my Lord, Lyn! I am SO happy for you and your daughter! That is absolutely wonderful news... an absolute miracle! I can only imagine how happy you must be right now! :)

Karyn said...

Hallelujah!!!!

I'm crying, so happy for you both!

SeaShore said...

That is the very best of news! I'm so happy for you & your little girl!

Theresa said...

here's to a brand new May!!!!!!!! I'm so happy for you and your daughter. You will look back on this and be amazed at your incredible strength. Way to go.

bbubblyb said...

So happy everything went so good for your daughter and that she has a clean bill of health. I'm sure it does feel like a big weight off you. Sounds like things are looking up for you these days.

HiddenJewel said...

Losing pounds is great but losing this kind of weight is priceless. I'm rejoicing with you!

Madame said...

This is a blessing, so happy to hear that your daughter is HEALED!

jules4422 said...

Lyn - what great news! Here's to a great May!!

spunkysuzi said...

I'm so glad that things are going well for you and your family :)

Karen In Tennessee said...

So happy for the wonderful news for your baby girl. :) Its almost summer now...I bet you will be one skinny chick by the end of summer. :)

Ang said...

I am so happy for you..A time for celebration!

IRJessica said...

Talk about being worth the trip!! I am so glad this procedure/test when well. My tears practically well up just thinking about how you described the last one... my baby is three- so I know the 'mommy just hold me' cries and looks.

And then to get such good news too!! Amen... or something else people say when they feel light, relieved, and crammed full of joy!!

Khris said...

How exciting for you and your family to finally have some relief from all these things you have been going through...hugs Khris in Oz

Lynn Haraldson-Bering said...

{{lyn}} SUCH good news. I can only imagine how relieved you feel. You may not always feel this way, but damn, you're one strong woman.

Susannah said...

Lyn, I am so happy for you! I teared up reading your post. What wonderful news. Many kisses and hugs to you and your beautiful girl!

Anonymous said...

good for her and you!

My dd was on the meds for 7 years and had 3 corrective surgeries for the obstructions and reflux, im so glad you wont have to endure what we did!

Michelle said...

Hugs! That is great news.
Ok let's work on making our thighs thinner together LOL!

Ceres said...

Oh my goodness, Lyn, these are such wonderful news! I am so so very happy for you and your daughter! What a great start to the month :-)

Mike579 said...

Congratulations! That's wonderful that she is better from that illness!

Bethany said...

YEA! God is good...I'm so happy for you all. I know that is a massive relief to all of you.
Bethany

Cold Spaghetti said...

Wonderful news!

My Sensei said...

What great news!! Am very happy for you and your daughter! :-) What a weight off your shoulders!!!!