Tuesday, March 31, 2009

April 1, 2009: 227 Pounds

How about that? I officially managed to lose *two pounds* this month. It might not seem like much, but if you've been following, I GAINED eleven pounds the first week of March. So, in fact, I had to work pretty hard, change my plan completely, give up sugar and white flour 100% (which I have succeeded in doing so far) and walking a mile every day to lose that eleven pounds I gained *before* I could tackle those two new pounds. And for me, a total loss of 13 pounds in the final 3 weeks of March makes me very happy!

Tonight I am writing from a hotel about 3 hours from my home. I made the trip this morning with my children; my youngest son has a doctor's appointment here, and it's spring break for my kids, so we are staying at a pretty cool hotel with an indoor water park. We've always had to make semi-frequent trips for three of my children who have chronic medical conditions, so I made it a habit early on to stop and do something fun as a family when we make these trips. Sometimes it's a few hours at a zoo or aquarium; other times, we hit a museum or just stop and play at a nice park. This time, we are having a ball swimming, sliding, and playing together. It makes the medical stuff less stressful.

On the way here, I was driving along listening to my children yapping away in the back. There was music and lots of laughing. At one point I was moved to tears of joy just hearing their happy voices and laughter, and I thought, "There is nothing more wonderful than the sounds of a car full of content, happy children. How blessed am I?"

Maybe sometimes it seems like I am hyper-focused on weight. It might sound like that is the be-all and end-all of my existence, the way I write sometimes. But that's so not true. The weight loss is not FOR *weight loss.* The weight loss is FOR my children. It's for the *content* of my life to be richer. How much joy is there is sitting on the sofa, stuffing your face with Cheetos while your kids play video games in another room? None. NONE! I am losing this weight for my LIFE. I am losing this weight so I can swim with my children. I went down a TUBE water slide with my daughter today! I have never gone down a tube water slide... or, in fact, ANY water slide... in my LIFE. And 2 years ago, I darn well would've gotten stuck in there had I tried! But today, I got in that little tube (made for the smaller kids, but she was scared to go alone) and I slid down, not once, but twice, with my little girl on my lap. What joy! How wonderful. And I walked all around the water park without problems. I went up and down several flights of stairs with my kids several times. I FIT IN THE BOOTH at the restaurant. I enjoyed every living, breathing moment instead of being a spectator to my children's existence. THAT is why I am losing weight, and THAT is where my focus is.

I have not seen 221 pounds since last August. I'd like to get there this month, and I'll do my best. But if not this month, then the next, because I am never giving up, not on me, not on weight loss, and not on my life.

Food for today:
Breakfast at home before leaving: Chai tea, Egg Beaters scrambled with mushrooms and 1 low fat turkey sausage, green tea.
Snack on the road: sugar free vanilla iced coffee, a few cashews
Lunch on the road: choices were limited on this route. We had several fast food choices or ONE sit down choice. We went sit-down, and I had a chef's salad: romaine, tomatoes, hard boiled egg (I ate the white only), grilled chicken, bacon (I only ate a bit of this), ham (I ate about 1/4 of it), shredded cheese (I left most of this), black olives, and Ranch on the side (I dipped my fork in this and used about 1T)
Snack in the hotel room: a handful of cashews and almonds. No pistachios due to the recall, darnit.
Dinner at the hotel: this was pretty limited too, so I got another salad: romaine, red onions, mushrooms, green peppers, black olives, tomatoes, and grilled chicken with a packet of ranch. My kids got a pizza, and I ate a few sausages off the top of a slice. Sooo good!

A really enjoyable day. And more to come!


Caitlin said...

Awww, I'm so glad your kids are so happy! Sounds like the day ended up being a lot of fun.

I wish I had your willpower when it came to foods, I hate dressings so salad is kinda bland to me :(

Carol said...

Go girl go. Lyn you are doing so so well. Carol

Deniz said...

All I can do is echo Carol's sentiments, and add that I reckon you are one amazing lady.

You are doing an wonderful (and damned hard) thing for a fantastic reason. What's more, *your* reason is going to keep you at it whatever setbacks are dumped in your path.

Go for it! And big hugs from a sunny UK morning.

Betsey C. said...

This is a great post -- this post is a reminder to you, and to all of us, why weight loss should be our first priority. To enjoy life! These are the things memories are made of, and I'm so glad you and your kids are having a blast this Spring break. What if you had GAINED 60 lbs instead of losing it? Can you imagine what you would be doing during this Spring break? You would barely have been able to walk a few steps. I am so happy for you!!

Shelley said...

Woohoo, you lost "fresh" pounds!!! Congrats!!!

I totally hear ya on the restaurant booths - one less thing to feel embarrassed about!

I like your idea of breaking up the medical tests with some fun stuff - the indoor water park sounds like a blast!

Gigi said...

Sounds like you've got the really important things in life figured out. Glad you and your kids are having some fun.

Vickie said...

I absolutely have never thought that you were over focused on the scale.

I totally realize that THIS (blog) is probably your only place to get your feelings out - and that WE are probably the only ears (in your life) that really understand.

THIS (blog) is your place to share and to focus. So at least once a day - between your food logs and your thoughts - you have a place that is yours.

Tina said...

Lyn I'm so proud of you!!!

Lindsay said...

Keep going Lynn! Keep fighting for your life and your family. I am very happy for you.

IRJessica said...

You are doing so well- you're amazing! Don't you wish you could bottle up those happy sounds? Then when you're feeling low, or unmotivated you could crack open the bottle, and let it refresh your spirit? I would love love love that!!

spunkysuzi said...

I think you had an awesome month of March :) And here to a great April!!

Lucrecia said...

Very well said! And you kicked but this month! I love how you didn't let the gain defeat you!

Rhonda said...

I just wanted to let you know you are an inspiration to me. I have read almost all of your story from the beginning because of your great writing skills, your heart...it is inspiring!

I am starting about where you started. I know it will be a long journey with lots of ups and downs, but I am ready for this journey....I can't weight!

skinnyhollie said...

I had that same joyful moment with my kids last week. We have been taking walks around the neighborhood, and it's so fun for us! My children and their laughter keep me going every day, and they are the reason why I want to be healthy.

Great job on the food choices while out of town!

Deb said...

I am really happy for you.

I hope the dr. appt went well.

Caroline said...

I am a fairly new admirer of your blog - your posts never fail to strike a chord with me. I can feel your happiness and energy in this post - congratulations on today!

Karen In Tennessee said...

You are doing great, Lyn!!!! You will definitely see 221 soon!

antgirl said...

To engage in life fully is the best reason there is to get and stay healthy. It keeps me going. I am so happy to hear how much you enjoyed those precious moments with your children. It's inspiring.

13 pounds! Wow! Sounds like you've found your mojo. :)

Sugar Bush Primitives said...

I am so happy that you are having a wonderful day! It's nice to count our blessings. Great job on recovering from the 11 pound gain.


Anonymous said...

Good for you! Your accomplishments are awesome! That water slide sounds like so much fun. I'm glad you were able to do that and make some memories with your kids!

Krista "Phoenix" said...

AMAZING loss! WAY TO GO!!!! I'm new to reading your blog, but I'm rooting you on all the way!!!!

Karyn said...

congrats on the loss!

So glad you are having a good time, in spite of the reason for the 'holiday'!

GREAT attitude!

Heather said...

great job this past month!

Ria said...

Lyn, you go girl! You've got the best motivation in the world. I'm so proud of you for making this a great month despite a rocky start - as always, you inspire me!