Wednesday, March 25, 2009

An Animated Stall

I've been looking over the last year of progress on my weight, and I had a bit of a surprise. One year ago, on March 16, 2008, I weighed 237 pounds. And this year, on March 17, 2009, I weighed 236 pounds. Wow. What the heck have I done in a year?!? I thought I was working hard on losing weight! I can't believe I was stalled for that long.

Or was I?

Sure, I went in a pretty straight line down from 278 pounds to 237 pounds in just 7 months. Sure, there was a bit of a plateau over the holidays, but no big gains. That first 40 pounds came off in one big slab.

So what have I been doing from last March to this March? A LOT. I got down to 214 pounds last July. I was still 214 pounds in August even though I'd had a bit of a regain and taken it off again. But after that, it's been a whole lot of up and down, like so:


Anyway, it's not a straight line across, even though I weighed the same this month as I did one year ago. If you look at the bigger chunks of weight loss/gain, there was a whole lot of action going on.

From August to October, I went from 214 to 237 (+23 lbs)
Between October and December, I went back down to 222 (-15 lbs)
Then from December to February, went from 222 to 237 again (+15 lbs)
And of course last month, I went from 237 back down to 228 (-9 lbs)
Then earlier this month hit 240 (+12 lbs)
And now I weigh 229 again (-11 pounds)

That's a lot of dynamic for a stall... up 50 pounds, down 35. And that doesn't even count the dozens of 3 to 6 pounds gains and losses in between.

I didn't give up over the past year, and I didn't fall back into my old habits. I struggled, I learned about myself, I dealt with a lot of emotional issues and fought off the binge monster more times than I can count. Yes, I went wacko with the food a few times, but I never stopped fighting. That's why I do not weigh 300+ right now.

So now, when I look at the numbers, I remember that this is not about a destination. It's about a process. I'm learning a whole new way of living and being. Finding new ways to deal with stress. Breaking ingrained habits and forming new, healthier ones. And you know what? I am pretty proud of myself.

I think I am on a good downward trend right now. Being off of sugar has been very helpful to me so far. My goal is to power through the spring and summer (my best months) and lose weight as best I can. I'd really love to see 199 by my birthday in July. If not, then at least by the end of summer. That would make me sooo happy!

Anyway, try not to get discouraged if you stall for awhile. Just don't let the little ups and downs get to you. If you have to lose the same fifteen pounds over and over before it finally sticks, so be it. It's better than slapping 15, 30, 45 pounds onto your body and letting it take up residence permanently.

All the work has been worth it. It takes effort but the results are so life changing. This is a journey of a lifetime... one that won't ever end. And that's just the way I like it.

21 comments:

Bethany said...

Wow--I've pretty much done the same as you--some ups and downs, ups and downs. Right now I'm slightly up from my lowest point, but I haven't given up either. Congratulations on hanging in there and for seeing the success in the graph! It could be so easy to get discouraged. I like your positive outlook! I'm hoping for your 199 by your bday. That would rock! Go for it!
Bethany

Anonymous said...

and remember...it's a LIFE...not a chart full of numbers. I think you rock!

Doug said...

Good work so far :)

Keep it up. Imagine how you would feel if the chart had you gaining back all the weight and up in the 270s again...

Pandora said...

Thank you for this post Lynn, I'm really struggling right now and this is just what I needed.

Carol said...

Remember, it's a marathon, not a sprint.

Lauren said...

thank you for this post, I have been feeling pretty down about my recent eating habits and weight stall/gain/loss pattern. Would it be ok if I linked to this post on my blog?

Sherre said...

I'm in this EXACT same boat. I've not lost anything in about four or five months after the prior four or five of losing consistently to get 50 pounds off. So, thank you for this post and putting it in perspective. We're both in better places despite what the scale says.

ani pesto said...

Riht now I'm doing everything I can to get back to where I was just a year ago. In a few months time I hope to be able to look back at my own "dynamic plateau".

I could sure learn a thing or two from your attitude. You're not punishing yourself but gently praising your achievements, recognising you're in a better place than you might have been and most importantly learning from the past.

Sara said...

It really is a journey. I have been on the same path, up and down...but you're right, it's better than going up up up. Thanks for the reminder and the motivation!

Twix said...

I would say that's my story as well. But I'm so ready to get rid of the next 50. We cannot give up on ourselves! :D

athenaintraining said...

I started at 270 also, and I hung out at 200-215 for an entire year, too. I'm now down to 190, less than I weighed in high school. I have found that I really have to eat cleanly to keep making progress.

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Scale Junkie said...

This is what I've been doing as I deal with my "baggage" along the way.

The important thing is that you stop and remember to LIVE your life as you make this journey the numbers will catch up with us eventually.

Lady Downsize! said...

That is exactly what I noticed about my first year anniversary of blogging. My weight barely changed. However, if I go back a year from now, I've gained 15 pounds...sometimes looking back is not always a good thing. Now, what are you going to do going forward? That's what I asked myself.

Anonymous said...

I think it's good to lose some weight then hang out for awhile at one weight. It gives your body a chance to adjust.

To have gotten to 236 is already such a great achievement--I really admire you for getting there. Focus on how great 236 is, not how great it would be to be 200, etc. Then, once you've stabilized there for a few months, it will be easier to rev yourself up for another big weight loss.

You are awesome!

Karyn said...

You are so right....it is about the process, the journey, more than it is about the goal.

You have achieved SO MUCH this past year! The true changes do not happen on the outside, but on the inside. And on the inside, Lyn, you have had tremendous success!

Anonymous said...

Sounds like you are on the right track! I think giving up the sugar/white flour is turning out to be a huge plus for you. So much science these days seems to be pointing to the conclusion that these foods (and the processed foods into which they are incorporated) lead to all kinds of health problems. I have limited my intake of these foods for some time and feel so much better (and my sugar cravings have been almost non-existent, although who knows whether that will continue). And it's good that you are able to keep your weight loss in perspective -- it's not only about the number on the scale, it's about learning and growing. I agree to some extent that you need to focus on how great it is to be 236 now, but, at least for me, it's also good to have a goal in mind . . .

You are laying the groundwork! Keep it up!

Becky

Anonymous said...

Lyn, it is so awesome to me that you have kept at it. I've struggled many times in the past with the all-or-nothing mentality: either I'm charging full steam ahead, losing lots of weight, or I'm binging and struggling and gaining. Good for you for fighting on! Net result: you aren't slapped with a big net gain a whole year later! That IS something to be quite proud of. Thanks for the inspiration about keeping on!

Jen

Heather said...

i think thats a great way to look at things! you have done so many great things the past year, so to focus on weight alone would just be overlooking everything else and cutting yourself short.

Anonymous said...

wow, lyn, it seems you've learned so much over this part year, so chin up! even if that is a 1 pound loss total, you've had so many non-scale victories and are on your way to not relying on binging. from your posts, it just seems you have improved so much! i think this is a great job and at least you are at 236 instead of 280 lbs or even over the 300lb mark.

Ria said...

I can totally relate to this - our paths may wander, but we'll get there eventually!

I lost 56 lbs in the first year of my fitness plan. I actually lost 71 pounds during the six months out of that year that I actually was "on plan," which were broken up into three separate blocks of time. During the rest of the year, I didn't journal or exercise regularly, although I tried to remain conscious of what I was eating. I actually gained a total of 15 pounds during the "off plan" periods.