Friday, January 16, 2009

Temporary Insanity, Seasonal Affective Disorder, and Giveaway Winners

Oh boy, did I *ever* have a moment today. I was almost overcome by the crazy fat lady who lives inside me. I was driving home from errands with my daughter when I suddenly "decided" (without even thinking) that I wanted fast food for lunch. I wanted McDonald's of all things (this is how I know it was not me but was the crazy fat lady). I got in the drive through line and saw "buy a Big Mac meal, get an extra Big Mac for $1." This was music to the old me's ears. I always used to want an "extra" Big Mac when I got a meal. Then the craziness got worse. I started considering buying some cookies, too. And then I went totally whacko, and thought, "Hey, if I am going to eat 2000 calories, I may as well get what I *really* want: a Dairy Queen bacon double cheeseburger, large onion rings dipped in tartar sauce, and a soda. And since it's Dairy Queen, ice cream. (DQ is like 2 blocks from McD's). Yes, all this insanity was racing in my head as I sat in the drive thru line. I'd already promised my child some chicken nuggets. Somewhere in my head there was a sane person trying to get control. I closed my eyes for a minute and just said, "what do I *really* want??" I wanted a hot drink. Coffee or something. It was freezing cold outside and I got chilled pumping gas. I also wanted *relief* from stress. My toddler had a rather cranky morning, you see. The kind of morning that involves anger at sock seams and throwing one's teeny purple shoes across the room. And being late for appointments. I was tired of her crankiness, and I wanted food to fix it.

After I got her nuggets, I just relaxed the fat crazy chick. I put her in a box or something and I let the sane parental figure take over and simply drive home without any other options. When I got home, I made a cup of nice, hot tea. I scrambled some Egg Beaters with spinach and turkey sausage and made a breakfast burrito for lunch on a whole grain tortilla. I wanted to feel like I was having a nice meal so I also put some pineapple chunks and Clementine sections on my plate, and then I toasted half of a whole grain English muffin and spread it with tart cherry preserves. The resulting plate was beautiful, looked indulgent and was comforting. I didn't even finish it all.

And when I had eaten, my daughter finished her milk and said, "I'm done, you can eat the rest." She left 2 nuggets and half a bag of fries on the table. But I didn't even want it. I put it in the fridge for her for later. And then we sat on the couch and snuggled, relieving much of *both* of our crankiness.

I feel much better now. I think I've been struggling with a touch of SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) lately. I just have *no* energy. I feel like a lump, I don't want to move. This happened to me about this time last year. Wow, now that I look at it, it was exactly the same time and symptoms! Check out that link if you're interested. If you have no energy and just feel blah, this could be the issue.

I've never been diagnosed with SAD, but I know enough to realize what's happening. So today I got out my Day Light full spectrum light box and ate breakfast in front of it. I love that thing!! It always makes me feel like it's a spring day, even when it's grey and gloomy outside. It does take a couple of days to see big results, but it worked so well last year. I just had breakfast with it, 20 minutes each morning, and before the week was up I had my energy back. I had no more of those winter comfort food cravings and didn't feel like hibernating anymore. I felt like I generally feel in summertime: lighter, more hopeful, and more energetic. I'm hoping for similar results this year because I can't take being a slug anymore.

I also want to take this opportunity to announce the winners of the last 2 giveaways. The winner of the copy of The Amazing Adventures of Dietgirl is quarterlifegirl, and the winner of the EatSmart Digital Scale is Sherre. Both winners have been notified and have given me their info, so their prizes are on their way! If you didn't win, don't worry. I have SO MANY very cool giveaways lined up! I plan to do at least one each week, so check back this weekend for the next one.

Have a wonderful, sane, fun filled weekend.

32 comments:

Me, Only Better said...

Good for you for getting back control! You must feel soooo good knowing that you didn't give into that stressful craving!

Kimberly said...

I've got days like that too. The fat, crazy lady needs to go find someone else to haunt.

And I have been diagnosed with SAD and it is just a bitch. I start feeling like that immediately upon the time switch in the fall and don't feel good again until January. I am just now regaining my former energy levels. To make matters worse, I work in an office with no windows! There are some days I get like 10 minutes of sun and that is it. I can't wait for Daylight Savings Time to kick in.

HopeFool said...

Oh, save me from the SOCK SEAM tantrums! I have a 7 year old son who will STILL pull off both of his shoes wherever we are to fix a crooked sock. At least, he doesn't still cry about them. He just whines.

I suffer from SAD too. I have a light for it but have not even pulled it out this year. Thanks for the reminder.

Laurens_Closet said...

WAY TO GO, Lyn! And when that crazy woman is locked up, you can look back & realize you made an EXCELLENT decision & have nothing to regret! AWESOME!!!

Amy
rebuildingamy.blogspot.com

new*me said...

imagine how you would be feeling now if that lady took control! Way to go and thanks once again, for inspiring us to think through it. I liked what Oprah asked last week, "what are you hungry for?"..........most of the time it isn't food!

My 3 yr old has many moments like that lately. I think the terrible 3s are worse than the 2s......but she's going to be 4 next month! This morning it was a loose thread on her sock while getting dressed for preschool....oh.....the drama :)

Congrats to the winners :) Woo-hoo!!

gadgetgirl said...

I'm a fellow SAD sufferer. I bought a light box last year and use it each morning with breakfast.

Another thing I recently started doing was upping my Vitamin D intake (5000 IU) after reading how lower levels can trigger SAD.

It has been about 1 week now and I'm feeling MUCH better despite our insane winter (it never got above 0 yesterday - today's high was 2).

Refer to: http://heartscanblog.blogspot.com/2008/12/high-dose-vitamin-d.html

for more information about Vitamin D levels.

Rebecca said...

wow you are so strong! I will think of this post next time I am in the car and wanting drive thru!

Nancy said...

I was wondering if one of those lamps were any good for S.A.D... Good to know that it worked for you. I'm going to go out and get one now!

Ron said...

Congrats on another successful trip thru the Mcdonald's drive thru!!!!

POD said...

It almost became a day like that for me too and I did the same as you. Got a grip on the fat chick and showed her who's the boss.

Joania said...

I had one of those days last week and it was also McDonald's!! DAMN RONALD MCDONALD!!! Anyway, good for you for staying strong!! keep it up!!

Bethany said...

Lol at the fat, crazy lady! I am personally acquainted with her too!

Seriously, you are amazing for ignoring that destructive voice. I am so impressed and I hope I'm able to do the same when McD's is drawing me like a magnet!
~Bethany

Stages of Change said...

INcredible job pulling back the reigns on a potentially disasterous fast food bing! That is SO damn hard.


As for SAD, my sister had that when she used to live in my home town of Juneau, AK, where the winters are dark, the cloud ceiling is insanely low all the time, and SAD (and general depression, and alcoholism, and other things that people do to cope with the horrible weather and the fact theres no road in and out) run wild. She used to use that Day Light light which really was a help for her too.

Anyway, great job today!

Vickie said...

I smiled at the 'anger at sock seams' - I had one of those toddlers at my house too - he is now 19 . . .

Kelly said...

Vitamin D! Cheap and will naturally raise your spirits in a couple days! Start with 6,000 units and work up to 10,000.

Cheapest, healthiest fix to S.A.D. you'll ever find besides moving to Hawaii!

Katschi (Karen) said...

Whew! What a relief not to give in & live with the regret afterwards.
Good going, Lyn!
I've used that same insane 'logic' of "if I'm going to blow it I might as well REALLY blow it".
I'm so happy you told fatlady to shut the hell up!!!
Today was a beautiful sunny day here and I had a sense of summer. It really boosted my mood. I'll have to look into the light box as I think I may have a touch of S.A.D. too. Anything to help keep the peace in our heads.

Pamela said...

Congratulations, Lyn, on fighting through that urge to splurge. I know how hard it can be. I still treat myself to McDonald's sometimes, but try to confine it to a six piece mcnugget. I hope you start feeling better soon!

Michelle said...

Lyn,

Congrats on the WIN for yourself today. Wow....

Re. Vit. D supplements - yes, many people are low in it, but please be mindful of a couple of things if you decide to take it:

First, Vit. D3 is more effectively used by the body & closer to what is naturally produced than Vit. D2, which is also on the market.

Second, Vit. D in both forms is fat soluble, NOT water soluable. You won't pee out any excess you take of it; it builds up in the body. 10,000 IU is the high end of recommended dosing. Please speak with your doc or in the least a good pharmacist before choosing a dosage, if you decide to try Vit. D out. Vit. D will also assist with absorption of calcium, so combined with your strength training, might also do good things for your bones :-)

Take care, & I hope your daughter is well.

Hanlie said...

And did you feel deprived? Of course not!

It was so funny, the other evening we were driving past McDonalds and my husband teasingly asked whether I would like to go through the drive-thru (we've never eaten McDonalds in the almost four years we've been together). I said, with feeling, "I'd rather run down the street naked." And I meant it!

Bobbi said...

Congrats on staying strong... but now that you realize that McDonald's isn't good for you, why do you feed it to your daughter? Maybe she is at a normal weight and doesn't overeat now, but why get her hooked on that crap? Yeah, it's fast and easy, but so is popping some frozen organic chicken nuggets in the oven when you get home while you're cooking YOUR OWN healthy meal.

Lyn said...

To everyone who suggested vitamin D~

Thank you!! I am reading up on this. Someone earlier had suggested vit D for my joint health so I've been taking 400IU and ordered a case of it online. Now I am thinking I need to up the dose a bit... gradually... and see if it helps over the winter. Great info, thanks again!

Bobbi~
I wasn't really going to respond about the why's of what I feed my daughter, because I don't want to get into her health complications here. But I also don't want anyone assuming I am a thoughtless, lazy parent feeding "crap" to my precious child either. So I'll just say... 1) she is not a normal weight; she is quite underweight, and if I could get her to drink heavy cream with oil mixed in, her doctors and nutritionist would be thrilled, and 2) her issues are complicated, and I'll always do everything in my power to help her be well. It may *seem* not to make sense to include fast food at all, but try to remember that there are more pieces to the picture than meet the eye.

Kat said...

Are you still doing your monthly calorie budget plan? Can you update us on how that's working?

Lyn said...

Kat~
I have something kinda new and cool going on! I'll update on Monday :)

Jennifer said...

You did so good! I failed yesterday and wished I could have done as well as you...

Sabs said...

Wow, that is excellent willpower!

Karyn said...

Good for you, to put that crazy fat girl in her place! I'm so proud of you!

You'd be so pretty if... said...

That is quite an accomplishment! I also resisted last night when I took my kids through McDonalds!

Dina said...

Ooh, I want one of those light boxes!

And awesome job on overcoming the fat urges!

"4 oz" said...

Bravo! You put the crazy lady away! This is my first time on your blog, but your writing has caught my attention. I'll definitely check back. I also have an inner fat girl that tries to ruin my efforts - sometimes she's successful, sometimes she's not. I just started blogging and am looking to meet other people going through the same drama of weight loss. Check out my blog if you get a chance!
http://4ounce.blogspot.com

LDHLS said...

Every New Years, many of us make a resolution to lose weight. Ironic isn't it that Mickey D's has a promotion for 2 for 1 Big Macs in the beginning of the year as well? Next to The Oil indusrty, fast food has to be the second slimmiest, greasy, crooks on the planet. I'm glad to read you were able to maintain control! I made a resolution to NEVER eat McDonalds again, your entry all the more solidifies my stance. thanks much, and way to go!

deb said...

Thanks so much for sharing that...it really encouraged me. Also, I realized that it is the crazy fat lady in me talking, and I don't have to listen. I will think of this time she speaks up; could be in an hour...and I will think about what to say to her. I appreciate you.

Juice said...

Lyn, you inspire me!!!! Seriously I am so moved by your honesty and integrity. Way to go with identifying what you really need. That is something I need to work on...