Monday, January 12, 2009

Big as a Fridge

This morning, I woke up to a broken refrigerator. It's been on the fritz for awhile now; it's 13 years old so, as you can imagine, it's ready to catch a break from the years of endless opening and shutting and the cumulative hours (years?) of my longing stare as I stood gazing into its depths for something to fill the yearning. Ahhh. It's almost like saying goodbye to an old boyfriend.

Anyway, I went looking at fridges today: side-by-sides, freezer-on-bottom, freezer-on-top (my favorite position... heh). When I came home I went online to check dimensions and pick which one would fit in The Space. I was browsing the nice, big, 21 cubic foot fridges. I need one that is 5' 6" tall... which just happens to be the same height that I am. Suddenly as I was scanning the specs, I saw this: "Approximate shipping weight: 219 pounds."

WHAT??? I weigh *more than a fridge.* I can't believe it. I walked out to the kitchen, looked at my big ol' 5' 6" fridge, stood my 5'6" self next to it, and thought, WOW. That is seriously crazy. My body weighs *more than* an EMPTY fridge. Sheesh...

Let that sink in a bit. Think about how heavy a big fridge is. I think this is the first time I realized just how *heavy* I am. I mean, I know how BIG I am... when I try and fit places or do things my size gets in the way sometimes. But the sheer weight aspect... heavier than a fridge. Even *after* losing over 50 pounds.

Don't worry. I'm not being too hard on myself. I'm not down about it, and I'm not hating on my size. I just found this realization so profound that I *had* to come here and share it. Sometimes the strangest things open our eyes to truths that we *need* to understand.

Thanks for listening. This fridge is shrinkin.'

21 comments:

elife said...

Your "longing stare" just about killed me!

Ughhhh I weight a LOT more than your fridge. This is one hard month.

Anonymous said...

LOL...dump that "old boyfriend" of a fridge for a brand new boyfriend (it'll be like trading in Danny Devito for George Clooney!). And remember, that fridge is just a big box of air...so of course it doesn't weigh much. You are packed full of intelligence, kindness, talent, and humor. You need a few extra pound for all your gifts. But I am with you: I will be happy when I am just a dorm fridge rather than a big ol' Kenmore side by side (with ice in the door). :)

Karen In TN

Laurens_Closet said...

Just think~ You USED to be a fridge full of Thanksgiving dinner leftovers! Now you're just a shiney new fridge, ready to be SHIPPED, baby!

Okay... maybe I'm not finding the words I need. I just think you're great, Lyn-a-daire! LOL!!!

I liked what "anonymous" said~ You ARE packed full of kindness, thoughtfulness, insight, and depth. That's why we all come here, everyday - - -to get OUR fill!

Amy
rebuildingamy.blogspot.com

Alaska Pickle said...

Can you get a bigger fridge? I love reading your blog, by the way. I am amazed at how you have something so interesting to say each time. My mind is a blank when I write! (I just wrote about my own butt, for God's sake!) But, really, I am right there with you, and this is a transitory state, so next you will have to compare your weight to something smaller! Maybe, an oven? A dryer?

MizFit said...

it is surprising to me that when I read this it DIDNT RING as selfbashing either.

more an HUH. IT IS WHAT IT IS tone.

I love what Laurens_Closet said too. you are a smaller shapelier frige woman and shall be DORM SIZED :) in no time.

Ron said...

One of these days you will weigh as much as one of those real little tiny fridges that people put in dorm rooms and offices!!!!

new*me said...

What a scary concept! Well, someday soon you will know you can stand next to the fridge and know you are the smaller one..........not to mention the stronger one :) You will stand the test of time!

choosinglosing said...

I weigh just as much as your fridge. Chin up, eyes forward, keep moving. You can do it!

Julie said...

I also like the comment Anonymous left - very nice! Best of luck on finding the right fridge for your space -- and thanks for sharing your journey with us!

Bethany said...

Oh my! That is a sobering thought. I weigh a lot more than your fridge too. More than mine, too, I'm sure. You're right--that is a kinda "aha" moment! Thanks for sharing.

Sharon said...

Funny! I hope you'll keep your NEW fridge on a strictly platonic level. Love your blog.

Linda said...

dang, never thought about that before.

And it doesn't always have to be that way!!!

Gigi said...

I have the same trouble every time football season starts and they post the players' stats on TV. I can't believe I weigh as much as a linebacker but there it is. (Would much rather be associated with a "tight end". Some day....)

You'd be so pretty if... said...

Oh my gosh that cracked me up! I'm bigger than your fridge, cripes!

I ran across your blog through How the Beck. I'm on my own journey....a long, long journey.

Christie said...

No way. My mom has a magnet on her fridge that says, "Thou shalt not weigh more than thy refrigerator." It was meant as a light-hearted impossibility. But I'm guess my mom is awfully close to breaking the 11th commandment. I'm seconding Lauren's Closet and Mizfit's comments. You're on your way to hotel-room-size model.

Danielle said...

Lyn, I luv ya!
Your posts always give me inspiration, and lots of stuff to think about.

POD said...

I remember once hearing Mohammed Ali's weight and I weighed more than him at that time.

At that time, he was the Heavyweight Champion of the World.

gah

Sonya said...

Okay, I think I'm safe...I'm 5'11 and my frige is about 6 feet. Let's hope that sucker is over 300lbs because if I'm fatter than it, I might have to kill myself!

Hanlie said...

When you're at goal, you'll just be a cool breeze!

clickmom said...

I don't want to know what my fridge weighs. Or my oven, my sink, or the bath tub.

ryry the adventurous said...

<3<3 Lyn!

Sorry I haven't commented in a while, be sure I am reading your blog EVERY DAY! Work is hectic!

I totally had that moment when I too was once 220ish lbs... my ex was like, 145lbs, and I came to the realization I was 1.5 of him! That was a bad day. But it was one of the many motivators to get rid of it!

Only 30 more to go... eventually....

<3!