Wednesday, October 1, 2008

October 1, 2008: 231 Pounds

Well, as you know, on the first day of every month, I post my weight and how much I lost (or gained) for that month. After 12 months of consistent losses (and 2 maintains), I posted my first gain last month, and it was a doozy: 10 pounds. This month, I have another gain to report: 6 pounds. I am not happy about this, but I understand it.

I worked harder in September, but I still did not exercise enough. Biking 20 minutes a WEEK is not enough. Strength training once a week is not enough, either. And I was trying to get by just "winging it" with my calories and food, no planning, no counting. Obviously this does not work for me. And the fast food was still in the picture... another thing that just does not work for weight loss.

So I am going back to Square One, where I had success and lost weight over the past year: counting calories. Hey, I don't especially like it, but it gets the job done. More on counting calories later.

I am pretty unhappy with how my body looks and feels now. I am all jiggly in the wrong places, where I used to be firming up. All the fat I regained has gone straight to my belly/abdomen, giving my that "maybe-she's-pregnant" look. The jeans that I was almost ready to retire... the ones I had to wash and dry on high heat to shrink them enough to not fall off me... they fit me again, with no room to spare. My joints hurt, there's the heart thing, and my skin is not as nice as it was when I was eating right. I feel like I am in a sugar fog half the time, with moodiness and anxiety cropping up here and there. And I have NO energy. I feel like a slug. I don't like this!

Enough is enough. I am done playing around here. I am MAD and I am declaring a war on fat! Starting NOW I am going to set other stuff on the back burner and put MY health first (well, second to my kids, but aren't they intertwined anyway?) Look for daily reports of how I am doing. And look for that scale to go down, down DOWN. When we start our Habit-A-Week Challenge on Monday, it's going to help me immensely by getting all of the good, healthy habits back that I need to drop this weight.

Ups and downs are part of the process, I guess. We can't do anything about weight we gained last week, last month, or over the summer, but we CAN take control and start losing again. And that's just what I aim to do.


Marshmallow said...

I am going to set other stuff on the back burner and put MY health first (well, second to my kids, but aren't they intertwined anyway?)

Being a healthy role model for your kids is one of the greatest gifts I think you can give them. My Mum has always put us before her, and I've had to break the cycle be my own role model as noone in my household leads by example. And your kids won't resent you later when they grow up and find that noone taught them how to be healthy, so they are very much intertwined!

I think it's great that you're heading into October with this determined, positive attitude.

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Ceres said...

Damn right! Look forward :-) You're already in rebound mode!

spunkysuzi said...

I have absolutely no doubt that you are going to be right back on track. And i can't wait for the weekly health challenges :)

Karyn said...

you are a winner, Lyn! With your attitude, you will get control over all the habits that try to keep you back. said...

You can do it! I just finished reading a management book about influencing successful change (and there's a post coming in a day or two on it!) and they said successful change involves:
* Understanding it's worthwhile
* Believing you can do it
* Knowing what the vital behaviors are that will make the change a success
* Having a strategy to recover from mistakes/dips

Sounds like you are well on your way! You can do it!

Andrea said...

Way to get back on that horse & ride again. We all fall off from time & time - it proves that you are human. I think your weekly challenges will help a lot too. We're all here to help each other - hang in there.

Nat said...

Hi Lyn, I haven't commented before but I've been reading your wonderful blog for a little while now.

Having read this post I am left in no doubt - you will achieve your goals because you have all the neccessary knowledge and more importantly, the 'skill' of persistance. Your children are very lucky to have such a good role model.

ps Love your recipes, even though some of the ingredients aren't available in the UK!

Skinny Inside said...

I'm happy to see you getting back in the groove! I'm really looking forward to your healthy challenges-count me in! I've started making my pros and cons list and it's really insightful! Keep up the great work:-)

Sheri said...

Absolutely! I am MAD too! May the determination of today be there everyday, and the lady in the mirror shrink like the video in the About Me section of Pasta Queen. That will!!! be me!

Lisa said...

Losing weight can be easy one day and then so hard the next. Then you go off track for a few days and it's so easy to get mad at yourself. Losing weight sucks! I know, I'm there.