Monday, August 18, 2008

Renewed

I am back, and I feel *so* alive. I don't know what it is, but I just have this great feeling that I am over a rough spot in my life (emotionally) and things are finally looking up. Not much has changed as far as my challenges go, but somehow they no longer look like insurmountable mountains. They look more like rock climbing walls... the kind that can be physically tough to get to the top of, but certainly not impossible. I can do it. I will get to the top and it will be amazing.

My trip was okay. Ironically, I was surrounded by Free and Cheap Coke everywhere I went! With my recent Coke struggles (aka addiction) it just struck me as funny that the hotel I was staying in had a free Coke fountain in the lobby 7 hours a day (and free donuts!), and the Zoo I took the kids to had 25-cent Coke refills all day long. Yeah I drank Coke. A lot of Coke. And my body started to hurt in places that haven't hurt in a long time. I started to notice that if I didn't have a Coke, I got a headache. I started seeing effects I didn't like. I am ready to let it go. I don't need it anymore.

I did eat some unhealthy stuff like a couple donuts. I also tried to make healthy choices, such as having a breakfast of scrambled Egg Beaters with spinach, onions, peppers, mushrooms, and tomatoes with wheat toast. I ate lots of fruit. I had oatmeal another morning. Once, we went to a Cafe for lunch and I really wanted something healthy. I scanned the menu. One page declared, "We Serve 50 Different Burgers!" and there was a list. There was a PB&J Burger which was a 1/3 pound burger patty smeared with peanut butter and jelly. There was a Dog Burger: a burger topped with a hot dog. And a One Pound Burger. Yikes. I skipped the burgers. I sort of wanted a Reuben sandwich but knew it would be grilled and greasy, so I opted for a turkey sandwich with Swiss, lettuce, and tomatoes on it. Guess what... it came grilled. It was almost sitting in a puddle of butter. Yuck. I was disappointed but hungry so I ate most of it. I tried to find a healthy side dish of fruit or veggies but there was nothing like that on the menu. All the lunches came with "Unlimited French Fries." Joy...

So, some meals were healthy, some not so much. It came out a wash. I didn't gain anymore weight but I didn't lose either. Now I am back and ready to get moving.

I felt really fat on vacation, though. I felt tired and icky (Thanks Coke). I felt like I was about to bust out of my jeans. When I got undressed in front of that huge bathroom mirror with bright lights all around, I sort of gasped.

When I got home I started writing in my notebook. I have a lot of work to do, starting with losing the ten pounds I gained last week. So let's get crackin! I am off to ride my bike.

14 comments:

Martha said...

It's encouraging to see how you have overcome years of bad habits. It makes me feel like it's possible for me to do it along with you. Society sure does make it tough because the cheapest foods for them to sell are the most loaded with fats & sugar. We can do this as long as we don't stop trying. Good Job.

Ceres said...

I'm so glad you're feeling better! Hope you get out of the Coke haze soon :-) Keep the attitude!

Vonavie said...

Hi Lyn!

Thanks for looking for me. Although I didn't have a great weekend food wise (depending on how you look at it LOL), I wasn't away from blogging for that reason. My Internet has been down since Friday UGH! Just now came back up and I had to come see how Lyn was doing! Next I'll blog on my blog... We're ON!

ryry the adventurous said...

YES!

That's our Lyn! She's back in black with that rockstar attitude. You're gonna make it, you're going to do great, and it will feel so good to get rid of those pounds. You've inspired me to get a stationary bike now too... the treadmill is getting old!

Arachne said...

You go Lyn! Peace.

new*me said...

Renewed is a good word. It's the place where you feel at peace and see things clearly. I hope you have a great week and feel hot in those jeans by next week ;)

Lynne said...

You sound so much better. Welcome back!

Kathy said...

I know that Diet Coke isn't much better for you but at least it's less calories or one of the new Coke Zero kinds.  Have you thought of switching when you have to have Coke?  By the way, I love your blog!Kathy

Heather said...

that is a great attitude to have! glad you are feeling a lot more renewed, and had a nice time on your trip.

justoofat said...

Yay! It's great to have *you* back.

j

Joy's Journey in Weightloss said...

You can do this!

Anonymous said...

the beauty of losing weight the right way is that you can lose it when ever you want.....those ten pounds will go again once u keep going back to what u did to lose them in the first place.......this is the safest way to lose weight..no pills, no starvation...no surgery....

Heather said...

That's the spirit! Right there with ya, girl!

dkaz said...

OK, where is this restaurant with a PB&J burger? I love peanut butter, but that has to be the most disgusting thing I have ever heard of.
Have you read that "Skinny Bi**h" book? It might make you rethink your Coke addiction. I have a serious Diet Pepsi problem - if I could main-line it, I might. But after reading about how bad it could be (even the Diet version), I am turning to more 'wholesome' liquids. Good luck getting back on track - you are an inspiration!