Tuesday, July 1, 2008

July 1, 2008: 216 Pounds

There you have it. I actually lost a little weight in June! It was a rough month, but I am proud of the three pounds I worked off. Slow and steady wins the race. Remember that!

Even more exciting, I have met a pretty cool milestone. I have reached obesity!! Yay! (If you're fat you know where I'm going with this...). I started out with a BMI of 44.9, smack dab in the middle of Morbidly Obese (BMI between 40 and 50). Then after awhile I became "Severely Obese" (BMI between 35 and 40). But guess what?? Today my BMI is 34.9!!! And a BMI under 35 is just "obese"! So now I can finally start my final "escape from obesity." A BMI under 30 is just considered overweight.

I am feeling pretty good about my weight loss right now. I feel strong, confident, and WORTHWHILE. I cannot tell you how many years I suffered, feeling worthless because I was so fat. I could barely move. I couldn't play with my kids. I was afraid to sit in chairs. In some ways, I hated myself for being so fat. I was angry at myself for being so out of control. Sometimes I was just on the verge of tears from the frustration and feeling of hopelessness. I wanted to scream. I wanted to hack the fat off with a knife. I was totally aware of what I needed to do to fix it but I didn't REALLY think I could. It would take so LONG. It would be too hard. There was no hope. So eat another batch of cookies instead. Wallow in grease. Sit and eat and eat, after all that is about the only thing I was good for in my mind. I was so ashamed. I hid. I pretended I was not fat. But it just didn't work. I was too unhappy and I knew I was just dying, suffocating inside a fat suit.

It is so amazing to shed that suit. I wish I could reach through the computer screen and look in your eyes and tell you in person that YOU ARE WORTH IT. And YOU can do it. It is NOT something "other people" do. It is not something beyond your grasp. There is no magic and there is no waiting for the right time. It already IS the right time. You just have to do it. Start something, then don't give up. Change it to fit your needs, try new things, scream and cry in frustration, but do not give up, no matter what. I have had months of NO weight loss, and last month just 3 pounds. I don't care if it takes me five years to lose this weight, I am going to lose it. You can too. Start now. Life is waiting.

18 comments:

Teale said...

I'm so proud of you. I wish my perseverance & determination hadn't stalled/gone completely out the window. Regardless of that though, you really are an inspiration.

Anonymous said...

So very proud of YOU!!! Your words are touching and reflect the true range of emotions that surround obesity and weight loss. You are a testament to the power of persistence and a beacon showing others that they, too can do this!

Along those lines, will share this ...

It is our dream no one has a right to prevent us from reaching it, least of all us.
Eliminate the language that allows for excuse
- Not if, but when,
- Not try, but will
- Not hope,but belief
then it will not be a dream, it will be a reality.....live into it!

Best wishes .. perhaps we'll share this last journey together (my BMI is 29.85) .. :] Ranae

Ranae said...

Almost forgot .. here's a cool tool to calculate BMI and time to get there .. http://www.dietandfitnesstoday.com/ideal-body-weight-calculator.php

Shanna said...

I've said this before, and I am saying this again.. you are such an inspiration. Your words are just so amazing and caring. Thanks for always inspiring me and so many others! You are truly an angel. Congrats on your loss! I am so proud of you. Your strength is so inspiring!

spunkysuzi said...

What an awesome post. It's true it's a slow process but boy is it worth it.

RunningNan said...

Awesome job!

Mal said...

This is what I appreciate from you. You are right in the thick of things and you share the truth of what it's like to lose weight healthily, slowly, painfully at times. You have the big-picture mission in mind and you keep on trucking. Honestly, I'd be thrilled to look like you (we have similar starting BMI's) and so thrilled to be wearing a more standard size that I might just quit on principle. But, you keep going. Awesome.

Katschi said...

I'm running out of ways to say congrats and how awesome and inspiring I think you are :)
Your words are an excellent reminder to keep at it, no matter what.
You're really setting the example to be patient, persistent and consistent.
A year sounds like a long time when you first start but when you reach the end you can't believe how fast it flew by.

Ryry the Adventurous said...

As always you manage put into words the same struggle I've been through, that I bet a lot of us have. Being so angry at yourself and feeling so awful about yourself. I relate one million percent. You are as always an inspiration to me.

Honi said...

yay.. perserverence always pays off.. what a wonderful and motivating post

Anonymous said...

You're doing fabulous. You again hit the nail on the head with your thoughts and those of us who share your story understand completely. You are truly an inspiration!
Debra

new*me said...

Thanks for more inspiration and encouragement! Congrats on the new "title." You have already escaped in my opinion.

Ceres said...

Great post! And congrats on the new low!! I remember the feeling of hopelessness, frustration and complete inability to control what's coming in my mouth... I never want it to be part of my life ever again. Thanks for sharing!

Allison said...

Congratulations on just being regular obese and no longer morbid obese! I'm about 3 bmi points (is that what they're called) behind you!

Heather said...

wow congrats! glad that you had a good weight loss month in june, and congrats on reaching a new BMI level! I know I was thrilled to see healthy, so I know how thrilling it must be to work your way down.

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Pamela R said...

Wow,you're doing great and look great! I'm losing about 3 pounds a month now too. The way I see it is if the scale is going down I'm happy.

ptg said...

You are an amazing, AMAZING woman.

Thank you so much for blogging about your struggle and your accomplishments. They really do help.