I think I figured something out.
The other day my young son brought home a "special" candy bar he bought for me at a fundraiser at school. One of my old favorites... See's milk chocolate with almonds. I have not had any candy bars in months! But this seemed like something I could fit into my plan. So I checked the calories: 310 for the whole thick bar. I could easily have half one day and half the next and stay under 1500 calories.
So yesterday I had half after dinner. Today I had the other half after lunch. Then it hit me... terrible cravings for more and more chocolate. Suddenly I had visions of Reece's Cups dancing in my head. I ate lots of fruits and veggies and protein but all I could think about was candy (and cheesecake). By evening I had that crazy feeling of HAVING TO HAVE it. You know, the kind of feeling that leads to you going through every cabinet in the kitchen, desperate for ANYTHING chocolate... searching under bags and boxes hoping that a few chocolate chips fell out of that bag you had last month. And this ravenous craving led to my intake of 6 small pieces of dark chocolate (220 calories total, bringing me to about 1700 for the day). It was the old insanity rearing its ugly head. I have been keeping little dark chocolate squares on hand and having one every so often with no problem. But I guess a thick milk chocolate bar was just too much because it seemed to set off some kind of trigger in me.
So now I know. I'm going to have to be a bit more careful with the candy. Sugar does seem to bring on a desire for MORE sugar. I am better off avoiding it anyway. I really love my veggies and I wouldn't have missed or desired that candy bar if my son had not brought it home for me. Next time I will do what I did when my other child gave me some chocolate for Christmas: have one taste, thank them profusely, and then generously SHARE it with all the other children!
No weight gained, but lesson learned.
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