Friday, February 1, 2008

February 1, 2008: 248 pounds

Yes, that's right. I still weigh 248 pounds. That is the same weight I logged for December 1 and January 1. At first glance, I got very frustrated. After all, this is a WEIGHT LOSS journey and I have not been able to lose/keep off weight in 2 months! But is maintaining a failure?

A lot of people give up and quit their "diets" when they hit a plateau. They work their plan but don't see results on the scale. They see the same number, week after week, and finally throw up their hands in disgust and eat a cheesecake. After all, why work so hard when you're not getting any results? Therein lies the fallacy. When you are eating healthy, you are ALWAYS getting results. You are changing your body chemistry. The changes on the INSIDE are making you healthier and preparing your body to drop the weight that will then reflect that better health on the OUTSIDE. Patience is not an easy thing to learn. Neither is perseverance. But if we want to reach our goals, we simply can't quit. That's been my mantra all along this journey. And that is why I am still here and not back up to 278 and beyond.

I am choosing the rejoice in what I prefer to call "maintaining" rather than "plateauing." Every winter since I got fat (more than ten years ago), I have gained weight. I have lost a few pounds in the summer before, but I always gain them back over the winter. And I have never, EVER been able to maintain the same weight for more than a couple of weeks. I am always gaining or losing. I never remember staying in the same range for months. True, over the last 2 months I have not stayed at EXACTLY 248 pounds. I have gotten as low as 241 and as high as 251. But I have not regained the 30 pounds I worked so hard to lose.

Winter has been difficult for me. Physically, because I am stuck in the house. There is no Farmer's Market, no fresh local produce, no heat waves to push me into drinking more water and eating lots of cool crisp salads and icy fruit smoothies. Instead, I crave carbs... and lots of them. Since using my light therapy box, I have felt better. I have been able to focus better and I have more energy. And the days are getting longer, and hopefully by the end of the month a bit warmer as well. So I am encouraged... thrilled I did not gain any weight this winter... and ready to get off this "number" and into a new range for awhile. My goal for February is to lose 15 pounds. Ambitious? Certainly. Doable? Yes. I will be happy with ANY loss but I am shooting high and hoping this will get me excited about riding my exercise bike and being more active. I feel ready to get out of the winter mindset.

Be proud of who you are and what you've accomplished... even if the scale is not showing a number you would like. Join me and make a new "pre-spring" goal for February. Let's see what we can do!


The Princess Dieter said...

I consider maintaining a positive. It's not as much of a positive as losing for those of us with a lot to lose for our health, but it's MUCH MUCHMUCHMUCHMUCHMUCH MUCH better than regaining, which has tended to be the experience of dieters. Period. Lose. Regain. Not regaining is a victory. Any day the scale stays the same, while not a huge joy, is a huge sense of "Hey, that's okay." RElief, even.

So, as long as it's not going up, there is a good chance that means you're and I"m still adapting to changes we've been making. I've seen some successful dieters of large amounts (ie 75+ pounds) suggest that lose a bit, hold for while. Lose a bit, hold for a while. Because that way you learn to maintain, not just cut back. Steps, in other words.

That may not be the best way for many, but it may be the only way for some of us. Lose. Hold. Lose Hold. Let the body get used to this weight, before whacking it with another big loss. The body hates big losses, it seems, and needs to adjust in some cases.

So, for those of us holding on...I hope that soon we can start descending, but in a healthy way.

It's hard to keep the single-eyed focus to lose, so plateaus may be a way to just relax a while and prep for the next hill to climb.

Best of luck,
The "Plateauing" Princess

Heather said...

I thikn you have a great attitude and I think that is what is going to help you get through this. maintenance is NOT failure though. and while yes, it is frustrating, it will end. I think the fact that it is winter definitely plays into that. losing weight is hard, but I know you will be rewarded in the end.

cindy said...

lynn, i have no idea who you are, but i just want to say YOU GO GIRL. DON'T GIVE UP. ONE DAY AT A TIME. I'm in a totally different part of my life(freshman in college) and am not obese, but your blog and other weight blogs have showed me I have to eat healthy and take care of my body. it can be soooooo freakin' hard for me to not eat sweets, so just want to let you know that i have a hard time too. MORE POWER TO YOU and I'm rooting for you. take care of your body.

Tammy said...

Dear Lyn,

I am also looking for obese gals to join me because it is so much better to have someone with you while dieting.
I am over 300 and have been obese
most of my 40 years.
I think the best approach for me is to get it out into the open as you have.
Then I will hold myself accountable and others will too.

I am thinking about starting a site for "us" to hang out and chat with each other.
Do you think there is anyone interested in doing that?

Let me know what you think.

I have to do something. I have recently had all kinds of medical problems that someone my age should not have.
It is getting scary and I need to
get myself in gear and do something.
I wish there was a way to leave my email without it being in "public"
I would love to chat with someone.

I want to escape too:-(

Thanks for letting me vent a little on your blog.

Do you have any idea how I could hook up with others like myself?

Hanlie said...

I love that attitude, Lyn! You know that you're in this for the long haul and that even just relaxing slightly will result in a backslide. All the best for February!

Once Upon A Dieter said...

Tammy, there are sites that are fat-gal friendly and diet supportive. 3 Fat Chicks has a whole thread for those who need to lose more than 100 lbs. Most diet forum sites (that are functional and well-attended) have areas for the morbidly obese and even the middle-aged. Pay sites like eDiets and WW Online do, too.

You don't need to start one. You can easily find one where support systems are already in place with people who are friendly and know what it's like to be really heavy and try to lose.

Best of luck,
The Princess

lbs said...

Sorry I haven't commented in a while. I'm happy to see that you're still going strong! I totally agree that it takes a lot to get through the holidays and winter season without weight gain. Especially for binge-eaters! I wish I could have done that. ^_^ . I'm still trying to burn off my holiday gain.

Anonymous said...

Good attitude!


Ryry the Adventurous said...

Your blog is fantastic and inspirational to read. As an obesity sufferer I concur completely. My mother once weighed about 280 and is now down to under 215 I believe, after two years of hard work... we all need to know that it CAN be done, and we CAN do it. :) Rock on!

Bitter Diet Girl said...

Your blog is great! I stumbled across it from the 3Fc website. You should be proud of maintaining. I weighed 258, lost 114 lbs in 2006, then gained some back. I am back to 100 lbs lost but it has been a struggle. I did not lose a thing in 2006 - despite trying. But at least I maintained most of the lost. I am great with the exercise but then binging habits creep back in. I still am trying to lose the last 50. Keep up the great work.

Christopher Maples said...

Hey, I just found your blog. This is awesome! You have some great insights into weight loss, and you're a fantastic writer. I'm definitely putting you on my blogroll! Keep up the good work!

Lilly said...

you're doing really well, I am just satrting out in my weightloss journey, I've lost 3lbs and now weigh 327lbs! ahhh!!