Saturday, November 24, 2007

"After" (-30 lbs pictures)

Here are some of the highly requested, much awaited "After" pictures I have been promising you! Granted, I am not done losing weight yet, so they are not FINAL afters, but they are "after 30 pounds lost."

Let me begin with a photo I took back in August, about 3 months ago. Remember when I posted that I used my belly as a mouse pad, mousing across it when I typed on my laptop? Well, here is the mouse pad belly.... before.... and after (now):



Not bad!!! And now, some "after" shots in the style of the lovely "before" pictures I have posted at the top left hand side of my page. Same clothes:
Before..............................and after:

Side view before.......and after:

What do ya think? See a difference?

An interesting phenomenon has accompanied my weight gain over the last ten years. I have fewer and fewer photos of myself. Back in the early 90's, I have lots of photos of myself: getting married, having fun, holding my new babies, playing with my children. There are family shots, group shots, shots with my friends, holiday shots. But then, suddenly, when my weight shot up to 227 in 1998, the pictures started to dwindle. And when I got up to 245, I deliberately avoided the camera. Fast forward to 278, and something dramatic but sad happens. The family album is full of photos of my kids... but no Mom. No family pictures. No holiday shots. None of me playing with my kids. Partly because it wasn't happening, and partly because I knew how bad I looked. Years go by in the albums and there is no evidence my kids even HAD a mother. How very sad. No family portraits for the walls, and no candid happy family shots. I feel cheated.

By late 1998, I weighed 245 pounds. I have stayed above that weight consistently for nine years, except for a few months when I got down in the high 230's doing South Beach Diet in 2003. So 245 is a major milestone for me. Funny thing, though. In 1998, I remarried. I thought I looked pretty nice in my wedding dress. Nothing like the dress I wore the first time, when I weighed 140, but still nice. And then someone sent me a snapshot they took of me after my wedding. I was sitting in a chair, stuffing cake into my face. When I saw that picture, I was MORTIFIED. I cried. I plastered it on the refrigerator so I would stop eating. Obviously, it didn't work. Recently I found that old picture again. On the back is the date, and the words, "245 pounds." Yes, I looked horrid, but gaining 33 pounds MORE did nothing for my self image or my looks. So, for quite some time, one of my goals has been to get back down to 245. To weigh 244, LESS than I weighed in that picture. And now I am getting so close! I was down to 246 before Thanksgiving and the flu, but I gained 4 pounds and am now 250. I think it will come off quickly... but my point is, it will be truly freeing when I weigh less than I do in that picture. (I think I look better than that picture now, even though I weigh about the same...) It's an emotional thing. And why do I block out the face in every picture? Why am I, as my friend put it, "the headless dieter"? Because I am embarrassed. I am humiliated. I would just die if someone I used to know when I was thin and hot stumbled across this site and recognized me. And so, I remain faceless. I want to end this era of obesity, indulgence, immobility and sadness. It's time to break free. I am on my way.

35 comments:

Leslie said...

WOW!! Are those the same pants?? Amazing - you're a great inspiration - I LOVE your posts :)

alexis said...

woah there's a stark difference between the before and after photos.

your tshirt looks like its just hanging off u now. very very cool!

like leslie says, ure an inspiration

Joe said...

I definitely see the difference.

God Bless and good luck. Inspiration is definitely the right word.

Karen (aka DeadBudgee) said...

OMG Lyn, you look AMAZING!!!! What an inspiration you are!!!

Karen

lbs said...

yes that shirt is definitely hanging off you! and your waistline looks more defined! I went back to read the Magic number post...it was just two months ago! I feel inspired to do the magic number post too! I need to lose 30 pounds but it's very hard and I have been binging a lot lately...however, your posts keep me in check.

lbs said...

there's no way your husband didn't noticed!

Lyn said...

Yep, folks, those are the same clothes. That is where I personally see a difference. I remember the shirt being SO tight across my belly and now it hangs. Same with the pants. They are almost dropping off me. Thank you for the comments! It makes me very happy :)

~W~ said...

Wow! There is a DRAMATIC difference. I agree, your husband must have noticed. It's great that the weight is coming off from the right places , too.

~W~ said...

I too have disappeared from family photos the past 15 years or so.
I hope I will make an appearance soon.
Your posts are very thoughtful.

Chubby Chick said...

Wow... I can see a MAJOR difference, Lyn! You are "the incredible shrinking woman!" It honestly looks like you have lost more than 30 pounds. You look SO much thinner!

I'm so happy for you. Keep doing what you've been doing... because it is OBVIOUSLY working. :)

Anonymous said...

WOW!! WOW!! Major difference. Good for you. Great job. And I agree---looks like more than 30!
JT

Goaledgirl said...

those after pics are great! keep up the great work!

Hanlie said...

Wonderful! I'm inspired! Congratulations! You definitely look as if you'd lost more than 30 lb. This just makes me realize what a difference 30 lb will make in my own body

Heather said...

you look fantastic! Those are some great results, you should be so proud!

I hear you, I HATE pictures of myself now. I look at pics from when I was skinny and lament over them. You would think all the fat pics would have made me that much more inspired but until this pt in my life, they never had.

Lady T said...

i'm late to the party but your before and "afters" are incredible!!! seriously!

when i took mine i couldnt see that much of a difference. maybe i should have a shot of me IN my clothes to refer to(i do bra and panty). since we're pretty close in height and we started at the same weight i'm gonna use you as confirmation that my 30lblost looks just as phenominal. ;)

thanks!

Blessings!

Anonymous said...

wow.thats so good,u could loose so so much.
why dont you keep the after photo in the front page.?

safi

Sandi said...

Lynn - You can REALLY TELL!!! That is awesome results after just 30 lbs! keep up the good work!

Teale said...

WOW, amazing pictures! Time to buy some new clothes:)

Riotgrrl said...

I absolutely get the camera-avoidance thing. I got married at my highest weight (only ten pounds more than now) and when we developed a roll of film on our honeymoon, the first look at myself made me feel sick. I cried, and here's my brand new Hubby who's so excited that we just got married and I'm not anywhere near as excited as him. I made every effort to just think about all the fun we were having, but every time I saw a camera, I was filled with dread. Amazing that seeing pictures of myself nearly took all the wind out of my sails.

Anonymous said...

I love this blog...I do a column called "My Big Fat Life" - 40 yrs old, Mom of three on the same journey. We have a facebook group called My Big Fat Life...check us out....I am going to post your blog address on our site! Keep up the fight!

Theresa Blackburn

Katschi said...

Fantastic results! What a difference 30 lbs makes. Congratulations! I'm not brave enough to post my befores yet...I'm ashamed of how I look.

Tori said...

Wow you look great, 30 lbs make a huge difference! Great job!

Anonymous said...

What a huge step...an what a huge difference. Congratulations on taking care of yourself!

Anonymous said...

Stumbled across your blog tonight - we are similar in stature and goal. Your pictures look amazing - you are doing such a great job! And I completely get it about disappearing from the pictures in the albums - I am guilty of the same thing. And do not want my face to be seen.

Anonymous said...

You look amazing. Thanks for talking about you and pictures of your kids. I am a new mom, newly-ish married. And already I don't let my husband include me in pictures. Sometimes I grin and bear it. But I never look. I have 100 pounds to lose. Thanks for showing your weight loss.

nicole said...

i don't let myself get photographed either, except face shots which I quickly check and edit if need be. I know this is so terribly sad and would like it to end. Thank you for your honesty in writing this. It makes me feel much better to know I am not alone and it gives me some enthusiasm to get beyond this.

Connie said...

What a difference thirty pounds has made!!

Anonymous said...

I hold the camera so i won't be in the pictures.

Christina said...

Wow this whole post reminds me so much of a blog I posted not that long ago when I had to go searching for a "before" photo. It was almost impossible to find one because I had been hiding from the camera for so long. I also feel cheated. Looking forward to getting in front of the camera again. You look great!

Anonymous said...

I take all the photo's too :) I try to make myself 'show up' at least once a year...

Anonymous said...

Your story is mine, with the exception of marriages and I just started yesterday on my journey with Medifast to lose 100lbs. If anyone ever saw me now after knowing me when I was 100lbs lighter 11 years ago, and HOT, I would DIE.

Anonymous said...

Stumbled to your blog, searching the Internet about big women wearing heels. As I am a big woman, and so wanted to wear heels but I'm afraid to look ridiculous. Glad I searched and found this blog!! Reading this part about disappearing from family photos hit a nerve with me. I refused to do pictures most times, but I'm gonna change that right today!! Thank you and the pictures show me what determination can bring....a healthier you, you look so good!! Thank you for sharing, an inspiration for sure!!

Denine Severino Taylor said...

This blog is fabulous. I can relate to everything you said and LOVE the B&A photos! I have been on MediFast for a month or so and have lost 12 lbs which seems like a total miracle. Can finally see my through the haze of self-loathing...Thank you for sharing!!!

Sunnydaze said...

You look AWESOME! What an inspiration you are! :D

Erin Healy said...

Hi Lyn,
I just started Medifast today. I almost cried, well, I DID cry...a little... at my consultation. I have 95 pounds to lose. I will be on the 5&1 plan until Christmas.
I found your site while searching for more info and your story resonates with me. We share a similar starting weight and your before picture could be me.
I am inspired to know someone who has already made it out of this self-imposed prison of fat. I'm at a very difficult place in my life and need to gain control of something, anything... why not my weight?
Thank you, erin

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