Saturday, September 1, 2007

September 1, 2007: 265 pounds

Wouldn't it be cool if I have an entry title next year that says, "September 1, 2008: 165 pounds"?? Ahhh, to dream. But that is why I put the year there. So I can think about that. Anyway, as of today I am 265 pounds. August was a pretty good start; I lost 13 pounds. It's funny, but I feel a little irritated because I have only lost a couple of pounds in the last 2 weeks. Wahhh! In the past that would be enough for me to throw away all my hard work, whip up a huge pan of brownies, yank it out of the oven and scoop 1/4 of the pan of hot gooey chocolatey-ness into a big bowl and dump about 3 cups of premium chocolate-chunk-and-vanilla ice cream on top and pour half a jar of hot fudge sauce on it all and scald my lips wolfing it all down in record time. "THERE!!! I'll show that scale who's boss!!" Yeah, I really showed that scale...

Anyway, reminiscent of that (true life) story, last night in a fit of frustration I DID whip up a batch of brownies. I didn't have any ice cream or fudge sauce on hand, but unfortunately I always seem to have the basic makings for a pan of brownies... cocoa, sugar, fat, flour. So I did yank that pan out of the oven, and I did eat ONE brownie. And then I stopped. Granted, I had already eaten a brownie's worth of batter before I even baked them, but I DID stop at ONE brownie, which is a first for me. The thought in my head was, "I don't want to do this." So I walked away. Something is changing in me, and I like it.

Hopefully, September will be yet another good month for me. I really, really want to be thin(ner).

7 comments:

Chubby Chick said...

You are doing great, girl! Congrats on the August weight loss! I love your idea of looking forward to what you will weigh in a year. You are definitely doing something right... so just keep it up... and I'm sure you will be quite happy with the results next Sept. 1st!

And bravo to you for only having one brownie! Prior to starting my diet, I was on a brownie baking binge. I must have made 3 batches of brownies a week. And my husband doesn't like brownies, and I don't have any kids. Enough said. lol Anyway, I am SO proud of you for only having one! Coming from another brownie lover, I know that that is a MAJOR accomplishment! Woo hoo! :)

Diana the Scale Junkie said...

You are doing a great job! I think that your next year goal is very possible. Its just two pounds a week. But lets face it, any number below where you start is a victory!! Keep up the great work on resisting those darn brownies!!!

caroline said...

I celebrate your success. It's a great, great thing. I should know. Keep up the great work. Embrace your dignity.

Missy said...

I had a brownie today too. It was my first slip up, but otherwise I'm going strong. I wanted you to know that I deleted my blog because someone spammed it and not because I abandoned ship...will put up a new blog soon.
Missy

Anonymous said...

You are so amazing and so inspiring. You write with such honesty too. Thank you for getting me moving...we will both have a great September!!!

Karen

The Lassie said...

Congrats on the weight loss! You're doing so well, I'm sure September will be a good month, too.

Shannon said...

You're doing a great job, resisting the brownies is awesome.

Remember that "only a couple of pounds in 2 weeks" translates into more than 50 lbs in a year's time!

Keep on keepin' on, even when you have a bad day. :-)